#please dude

This whole situation is absolutely ruining me.I don't want to make it anyone's problem but I still want to express myself so I'm going to express myself under this post.The whole drama has been ruining my mental health and after seeing a post about something thinking that the Party Crashers should disband(no hate to them)I kept overthinking again.I don't like how stuff are currently going.I don't like how Sophist doubles down when people point out stuff he does.I don't like how the chat gpt post that created this situation didn't give enough context about what happened.I don't like how some of the people in this fandom(mostly on the rpf side)and toxic,hateful and problematic.I don't like how I have to fear the fact that one of the two beloved group channels that I watch are in risk of disappearing.I don't like how out of everyone it had to be my favourite member that had to be stupid and bad.I hate how I can't come up to his face and say "Hey dude,your fans care about you and don't want to see you turn to a bad person so don't be stupid and double down on what you do".

Everything is just awful these days and the more I check this tag the worse i feel.I don't want to leave this fandom,I don't want to see it be destroyed,I don't want to be accused of being problematic myself in an attempt to ignore what "He" has done.I don't know what to do.Should I keep posting normally?Should I ignore the fandom completely?Should I leave the Party Crashers before shit goes down?Should I ignore everything that happened in sake of my mental health and keep posting who I want?I honestly don't know

Sorry if I ruined anyone's mood by this follow up of my post,I'm trying to stay positive but I think I should rethink twice before I try to do anything else.I hope Sophist apologizes and sees his wrongdoing because I believe in people changing.What I'll probably do at the moment is block and ignore people that I'm rather not pleasing seeing on my feed due to their personality(most people reading this are likely safe dw).I just hope this drama ends once it for all and maybe next time when someone happens it's given more context to.I still love all of you and without the Crashers I wouldn't be the same person I am right now.