#pining cas

16/04/23

i think that possibly, maybe i'm falling for you. yes, there's a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you.

dean’s version

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some of these are Dean's POV and a lot are alternating POV, but all of them really delve into Cas's emotions and his love for Dean. All canonverse and all happy endings. Categorised by post-confession, pre-s15 curtain fic and other canon-era. Descending word count within each category. If anyone has any recs for things I should add lmk!

Post-Confession Fics

things happen (they do, they do, and they do) by sobsicles 28k rating E

Everyone has recced this, and for good reason, it's stunning. Cas gets back from the empty and Dean sort of lets him down gently and is very worried about breaking his heart. Despite this Cas is finally able to express to Dean how much he loves him and takes full advantage of this. He's earnest and sweet and so intense about it, but also incredibly hurt about the lack of reciprocation, though he tries to hide it. He does get the love he deserves in the end and it's so good!

closer (isn't close enough) by fleeceframe 18k rating E

Again, Dean's POV, but very much focused on how much Cas loves him. Has the gorgeous Cas line: “When you are hungry, you eat. When you are tired, you rest. When you are dirty, you bathe. But what are you supposed to do with love?”

My unintended by DeanaWinchester, Jeanne_de_Valois 10k rating E

Really good Cas POV, he’s obsessive and insecure but also deeply loving.

my heart a compass by lagaudiere 10k rating T

The empty torments Cas with visions of Dean and of the family he longs to have with Dean. Dean saves him.

I said show me something by ilovehowyouletmefall 7k rating E

Sparked by the debate about whether or not Dean thinks Cas can feel. Cas is hurt by Dean saying he thought he couldn't feel and vulcan mind melds to show him exactly how he feels about him. It's a really interesting exploration of both of their feelings and fears.

Gift by thisisapaige 2k rating G

Very sweet little fic of them trying to work things out once Cas returns from the empty.

Pre-s15 Curtain Fics

take the long way home by dothraki_shieldmaiden 95k rating E

Dean tries to retire with his family but finds himself alone as Sam and Jack take a road trip and Cas goes hunting in order to prove he's still useful as a human and to avoid thinking about his feelings for Dean. Really agonising and harrowing at the start as they both feel so rejected and miserable. Cas gets into situations where monsters use his feelings for Dean to attack him. Eventually, they're able to tentatively work out their feelings and settle down together and it's very sweet.

Morning Glory by edgarallanrose 26k rating E

Dean and Cas retire together. Cas becomes a beekeeper and Dean starts to use the honey he makes to bake goods, which they sell at the farmer's market. Cas is very much in love with Dean but it takes Dean a bit longer to work things out.

Other Canon-era

A Winter's Tale by NorthernSparrow 64k rating T

This one hurts a lot, so fair warning for that. Cas falls ill while human and homeless and is hospitalised. Dean finds the journal Cas kept as he struggled to survive in this time. Pre-Destiel but Cas does write a lot about his feelings for Dean. Sam and Dean shower Cas with love and kindess as he recovers. Also a destiel epilogue that is very sweet and fluffy.

In the Shadow of your Wings by Enochian Things (Salr323) 57k rating E

Cas confesses his love to Dean post s11 finale but the timing is terrible and Dean is very repressed about it all and breaks Cas's heart. Cas gets an Italian man of letters boyfriend in an attempt to get over it and Dean is insanely jealous (which Cas is oblivious to) but they all have to work together to try to save Sam from the BMOL. Dean eventually gets his shit together and treats Cas the way Cas has learnt to understand he deserves.

That Black Dog Ache by SaltyWords (agent4hire22) 28k rating E

This is very much Dean's POV but I'm putting it here anyway because it has a really intense love confession from Cas, which I'll include an excerpt of that drives me insane:

'“I listen to your music, and I close my eyes. I try to imagine I’m in the Impala, hunting with you. And, sometimes,” his throat jumped, “I lay on your bed. I think about what it would be like if I got to have a place on it beside you... If you ever let me get close enough.”'

Kelp!I Need Somebody by andimeantittosting (Saylee) 27k rating E

A really sweet fic in which Sam, Dean and Cas go to investigate a case on Jesse and Cesar's ranch. Switching POV with really good mutual pining as they tentatively begin to realise the other feels the same.

Being Dean Winchester by Anonymous 26k rating E

Set early s4, Cas has to possess Dean temporarily. While doing this, he has to work to hide his feelings from Dean. Cas is already obsessed with Dean and in love with him but is embarrassed by it and struggles to keep Dean from seeing all of this, especially when Dean wants to have sex with someone while Cas is possessing him.

Après by imogenbynight 24k rating E

Set after the angels fall in s8. Cas falls to earth in Paris and realises he's in love with Dean. Dean comes to get him and they find love together in Paris.

desiderium, lost by atlasian 20k rating T

Castiel confesses his love for Dean and Dean tells him to move on. Cas tries, fairly unsuccessfully, before Dean gets it together.

No Other Worthy Quest by MajorEnglishEsquire 15k rating E

Cas just loves Dean very much.

'“For fuck's sake,” his skin is heating. Cas can feel it. “Stop saying lovey-dovey shit.”

“I know,” Cas rolls his eyes. “It’s so mortifying for you when I want to tell you I love you. I’m using all my self-restraint, I promise not to embarrass you.”'

The Arrow by jscribbles 12k rating T

Valentine's day and Cas has been hit by a Cupid's arrow and is literally sick with love for Dean.

and all this devotion by dothraki_shieldmaiden 10k rating M

Dean gets hurt on a hunt and Cas takes care of him in a cabin. Very sweet, delightful Cas POV of him being very much in love.

Cuckoo And Nest by komodobits 10k rating E

Cas struggles to work out why Dean deems some things meaningful and some things worthless, and where he fits into this apparent dichotomy. Really gorgeous and agonising Cas POV that deals with their constant issue of Dean just wanting Cas to stay and Cas wanting Dean to want him to stay but they're both too afraid to express it.

Breathe by turningthepages 9k rating G

Dean and Cas platonically sleep together to help with Dean's sleep. Cas both likes the situation and longs for it to mean more.

First Date by aeli_kindara 9k rating T

Dean asks Cas on a date and they're both trying very hard to make it all work. The sequel is stunning too.

'Dean says, “We should do that. Go on a date.”

Something in Castiel’s chest fuzzes, like static on a TV, and stops.'

weights on my ankles by dothraki_shieldmaiden 9k rating M

After 15x3 The Rupture, Cas goes back to Rexford. While there, he thinks about how Dean hurt him all those years ago and how he hurt him more recently. Partly a 9x6 Heaven Can Wait fanfic-gap fic.

Let it Linger by OmniscientOranges 8k rating M

Cas starts sleeping with men out of jealousy when watching Dean pick up women at bars. The way the fic describes how in love he is and how hopeless he feels about it is both agonising and very sweet.

He Thought He Was Reckless by MajorEnglishEsquire 8k rating M

Cas plays up injuries so that Dean will coddle him. Self-woobification from the Angel of the Lord and it's so sweet!

Something to Protect by Sass_Master 6k rating G

Cas tries to work out how to make Dean feel less unsafe so that he no longer has to jolt awake. Sweet, tentative intimacy and Cas enjoying it so much.

lonely hearts. by outpastthemoat 5k rating G

Deals with Cas accompanying Sam and Dean on hunts and feeling incredibly lonely and longing to be with Dean. He finds solace in romance novels.

Some People Would Call This Romantic by almaasi 5k rating G

Human Cas goes to the beach and finds it rather overwhelming. Taking a romantic walk with Dean along the beach is also overwhelming.

The Tea is Decaf by mnwood 4k rating T

Really sweet! Cas and Eileen talk and gossip about Sam and Dean in the bunker at night over tea.

A Place to Rest by Inessencedivided 3k rating G

Dean and Cas talk through things after the Stuck in the Middle with You love confession. Cas cries some more.

White Noise by domesticadventures 2k rating G

Cas struggles with feelings of worthlessness in the aftermath of Lucifer's possession.

Receipts by surlybobbies 1k rating G

Sam has a plan for how to cure Dean of being a demon, and that plan involves Cas getting some grace into him the direct way. Unfortunately, it also involves Sam having to watch Cas do his brother over and over…and over…

5151 words, Rated Explicit, Rape/Non-con, Wincest Turned Wincestiel, Established Wincest, Pining Cas, Unrequited Feelings From Cas For Dean, Non-con Magical Healing Cock, Demon Dean, Angel/Demon Sex, Rough, Table Bondage, Begging, Crying, Bruises, Dildos, Gags, Hand Jobs, Orgasm Denial, Bottom Dean, Top Cas, Implied Top Sam, Guilty Sam and Cas, Hurt Dean, Hurt/Comfort, Caretaking, Cracky Premise Treated Seriously, Happy Ending

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Supernatural Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester, Minor or Background Relationship(s), Dorothy Baum/Charlie Bradbury Characters: Castiel (Supernatural), Dean Winchester, Charlie Bradbury, Dorothy Baum Additional Tags: Valentine's Day, Valentine's Day Fluff, Alternate Universe - High School, High School, Matchmaking, Misunderstandings, Fluff, Gay solidarity, Castiel and Charlie are Friends, Pining Summary:

Every year for Valentine's Day, Castiel's high school offers a matchmaking fundraiser service that tells each person which student they're most compatible with. Heterosexual results only, of course. Enter: Charlie Bradbury with a brilliant idea to switch names on their Matchmaker quiz so that they'll both get the result they want. Nothing could possibly go wrong.

by supernatural9917

Words: 3,338

the rewrite continues.

Summary; On the way home from sioux falls Cas stops in a bar and meets a curiously familiar stranger, someone who will turn his life and his understanding of the world upside down. But Cas loves Dean, Can an angel love two people? must he choose? or will events take the choice from him?

 this chapter Cas pov, Bi!dean, BI!cas, torture,pining, angst, some fluff, pissed off bitch face sam, canon divergent, Bi!female bamf oc and some seriously sexy snogging.

word count #2200(ish)

tagging @quailpower @thanatosx49 @nobodys-baby-now@notalentdouchebag @randomizationsposts @authoressskr@winsister91 @internationalmusicteacher @nealcassatiel @fuckjack

Chapter one here

Chapter two here

(my graphic)

Cas had dragged an armchair across the room so he could sit comfortably, but he was anything but comfortable. Chris continued to sleep like the dead. Her hand which he was holding lightly was cold, her skin had a bluish tinge which worried him. Once he almost prayed, what was the point of that? God was gone. He remembered that talking was supposed to help when someone was in a coma. “I’m sorry, I didn’t get to you sooner” he told her.  He lifted her hand and kissed the knuckles. “I’m not even sure what this thing is between us,” he slipped his blade from his pocket and flicked it absent-mindedly. “I suppose I should tell you, I’m in love with Dean. I’ve always been in love with him. Ever since I pulled him from the pit,” Cas stopped and took a breath to crush the ache in his chest. “But he doesn’t love me or maybe he’s scared of us. I don’t know.” He paused again weighing the angel blade in his hand. “Maybe some-things are just not meant to be, then you come along.” He glanced at Chris, a smile tugging at his lips, “and this feels like a second chance. I could love you, if you let me. Please wake up.”

No problem! (and no! doesn’t sound boring!)

As explained in the last continuation, since I was asked to go into 2 different directions for this continuation, I decided to do both of them as a Choose Your Own Adventure style thing.Original PromptOption A - Destiel DivergentAnd this is Option B - Michael/Dean Divergent - at 683 words (I think its done but there might be room for a tiny bit more. Let me know what you think):

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Cas ran passed Michael so fast, Michael felt his shirtripple and shift. His head followed Cas’s movement past him and he blinked.

“Uh…what happened?” Michael asked dumbly, turning to hisboyfriend. Dean stood frozen in the bathroom, not even looking at Michael. “Dean?”

Michael hurried over and carefully stepped around hisboyfriend till he could see his face. Green eyes stared at him blankly.

“Dean?” Michael asked more softly, placing a hand on hisshoulder. Dean blinked and shook himself and finally looked at Michael.

He gasped, “Shit…Cas!”

“Wait! Dean, what happened?” Michael was beginning to feellike a broken record.

“I’m still not sure? I think…I thought…I thought Cas was madat me, then I thought…he might have been homophobic because of…of some things andwhen I said…I told him why I thought…he…he…I think we – I – broke his heart.” Dean stared at Michael in horror.

“What are you talking about?” Michael asked slowly.

“Michael, what are we going to do?” Dean clutched at hisboyfriend desperately, needing to feel Michaels arms around him, needingreassurance that it would all work out all right.

Michael gave him that, but he was still confused. “Dean…Ican’t answer your question because I still don’t know what happened. Please,just, take a deep breath and try again.”

“You know how I’ve told you how strange Cas has been actinglately? How you said you saw it too? Well, it wasn’t what we thought.” Deantook a deep breath, “Cas just confessed his love for me.”

Michael blinked. “I…can’t say I expected that though, youare pretty easy to love.”

“Mikey, he’s my best friend…and I love him but…not likethat. What am I gonna do? I never wanted to hurt him,” Dean breathed, leaninginto Michael.

Michael shook his head. “I don’t know. I never wanted tohurt my brother either. But at the same time,” Michael trailed the back of his handagainst Dean’s cheek, Dean closing his eyes and settling into the touch. “I don’twanna give you up,” Michael whispered.

They stood there for long moments in the bathroom before eitherof them spoke again. “Look, you stay here, I’ll go look for Cas and talk tohim, okay?”

Dean looked around and then back up at his boyfriend,raising an eyebrow. “In here? With the stink?” Dean wrinkled his nose. Michaelrolled his eyes, reached over and flushed.

“There, the stink is gone, so if you wanna stay in here, youcan, but I meant here in the house. It’s Friday, will your dad miss you if youdon’t go home tonight?” Michael asked. Dean shook his head. “Good, then you gomake yourself comfortable in my room and I’ll text you as soon as I find him,okay?”

“Yeah, okay, thanks Mikey,” Dean hugged him before sharing abrief kiss, then reluctantly letting Michael go.

Michael had been gone for hours. It had taken a while beforeDean had gotten the one text that said “Found him”, and it was taking evenlonger for them to return home.

But know that Cas wasn’t out there alone while he was soupset made Dean feel slightly better. Just enough for Dean to fall into anuneasy sleep while he waited, tangled in the blankets of Michaels bed. He wokewith a start as Michael slid into the bed beside him.

“Sshh…” Michael soothed. “Go back to sleep.”

“But what about…” Dean asked anxiously.

“He’s all right now. I mean…” Michael sighed. “Not allright. It’ll take him a while to get over this but…he’s in bed, safe. And hetalked to me, we cleared the air, told me what he’s been feeling. And he agreedto talk to you tomorrow too, after you’ve both slept and calmed down some.”Michael threaded his fingers into Dean’s hair the way he knew Dean liked andurged his boyfriend to fall back into sleep.

Dean murmured, “But he’s okay?”

*

It was strange, Sam often mused. His brother was still one of the most adept liars he had ever come across, masking fear and upset under layers of bravado with ease, and yet every time something frustrated him he seemed to have almost no ability to hide it.

Of course Sam wouldn’t have needed the warning signs this particular morning to help him figure out Dean’s mood. Then again, it would have taken an idiot who’d never spent any time with Dean, or with people at all, to miss the insistent tapping on the steering wheel, the way he’d stopped trying to hum along to the radio after only a few miles, and instead seemed to be most interested in grinding his teeth together.

“Dean,” Sam tried again, as they got into the second hour of saying nothing. “Y’know if you want to talk about it…”

Dean’s grip on the steering wheel increased again, another sure sign this was getting to him.

“Leave it, Sammy.”

“Y’know, I really am -”

“I said leave it.”

Feeling his surliness with the whole situation return, Sam rolled his eyes and stared out the window as they finally rolled into Alliance, Nebraska. If Dean wanted to be like this that still didn’t mean it had to be Sam’s problem. Yet.

“What did he say he thought it was again?” Sam asked, a few moments later, giving in. He knew exactly what they were supposed to be hunting, but he still felt the itching need to get his brother talking. Dean went a little… strange whenever he went quiet too long, and it was an almost lifelong habit to stop him from going there.

“Vampire,” Dean grunted. “Looking like more than one.”

Sam nodded like he was hearing this for the first time. “And Cas thinks he knows who did it?”

Dean glared for a moment that he was daring to mention the angel by name but Sam pretended he hadn’t seen. “Yeah. Should have found it by the time we get there.”

“Kinda makes you feel unnecessary hunting next to an angel sometimes, huh?”

Dean shook his head and concentrated unnecessarily hard on his parking. “He’s still an amateur, whatever species he is this week.”

As the car stopped Dean took a deep breath, apparently steeling himself. “Ok. He said he was just around the corner from here.”

Sam’s phone started buzzing just as Dean finished talking. Dean’s didn’t.