#pine babbles

Ironically the celebration of chrimiss being exactly whats stopping me from doing so on here WHEEZE

Fellas, is it fucked to be hit by the Big Confirming Assuring Realisation(Tm) that yes you’re trans but also that

-you were so hesitant and skeptical of completely recognising the concept that you are because while it was something that you saw was a real thing other people can do online it never occurred to you that it was an option for YOU too bc of the transphobia and lack of support in your country irl 

-that you’re somewhat alright with people seeing you as female but also it’s what you’re used to and something you HAVE to be okay with because otherwise you’re in for a possible world of turmoil 

-this country does not legally or as far as you know have any community that does recognise your identity and said country is also very much transphobic

-and the restrictiveness and lack of freedom of expressing yourself and control over your own body and identity is incredibly sad 

-and that you can’t nor do you want to fathom the concept of feeling this way for the rest of your life? 

I’m

Likely gonna delete this later bc I always get a big feeling of self hatey after posting vents like these but 

Something I needed to get off my chest 

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