#philosophy problems

my professor keeps pronouncing ‘Kant’ as ‘cunt’ and wow I cannot focus.

Why is it that doing the things I expected to be boring and kept putting off seems to be more enjoyable than doing the things I actually looked forward to expected to be enjoyable? Is the former actually objectively more enjoyable than the latter, if objective measurement is even possible, or does it only seem that way because of the low expectation of the former that serves as a comparison? Or is what I’m feeling not enjoyment of the activities at all, but rather removal of guilt and that what I expect to be boring just happens to be the thing I am obligated to do and therefore feel guilty about not doing?

I am at the point in my 'Need Bluetooth Ear Protection' journey where I am conducting philosophical monologues and immediately forgetting them. Need a mic so I can narrate it into a word salad note to confuse myself with later.

everything i say is right everything you say is wrong why am i in a dungeon

On the one hand, again, incredibly tired. Again, other hand, philosophy lectures on existentialists by Gregory Sadler.

on the one hand, i’m incredibly fucking tired. but on the other hand, i’m listening to a lecture on Nietzsche’s Genealogy of Morals by Gregory Sadler and it’s really fascinating stuff. 

That moment when you start a presentation with no idea what you’re gonna talk about, which then draws out a discussion that enlightens you about the stuff that you were supposed to present about.