#perspeception

me as soon as my head hits my pillow: am i a bad person

kinda fucked up that all the people we hate or fear aren't monsters they're just. some guy. and so are we. and we could've been like them. and they could've been like us. and neither way is the right way to be. it's just. some way!

i find it incredibly hard to empathize with things i consider stupid.

it’s 3 o’clock exactly at the time of writing this, so i’m legally allowed to be pretentious and philosophical on main. anyway being a person is like... your perception of reality is lacking because of your body and often skewed because of your emotions, thus making it innacurate. it is also all you have. your instincts dictate that you should strive for the truth and be as objective as possible, even though it is an ideal which you cannot actually achieve. have fun which does not objectively and verifiably exist! ;)

i miss living in a college town so bad. like as much of a socially anxious shut-in i am, i want to feel like i at least have... the option... to go places or talk to people i might find interesting. there's not going to be any fucking,,, hyperpop shows at the bars where i live, i guaran-fucking-tee that.

i miss having the freedom to scream

the problem with envying animals and their lack of awareness is that they can never really change the situation they're in. if it sucks they just have to survive for as long as they can until they either die or the situation changes into something more tolerable. the problem with humans tho is that we CAN change the situations we're in but we often end up unsatisfied and trying to 'improve' where we are and accidentally ruin what was perfectly tolerable. we know we could have/do/be 'more', but if we aren't careful, we end up with 'less'.

i do have to wonder sometimes how many pieces of art i think are super deep/symbolic and made with a lot of thought/intent were actually created because the artist said "idk man i thought it looked cool"