- Is this really the path that you should walk on?
Details from "A Glance Exchanged", by Frederik Hendrik Kaemmerer.♡
Take a deep breath. Pause. Slow down. Think about your decision and the journey you chose, or the one you are preparing and considering to start. And ask your heart and mind to tell you, to whisper to you, in which pile your message hides.
But don't pressure yourself nor worry. Take in only what feels right for you now. A tiny bit, only a part, or the whole message.
So... Which pile is calling you?
Pile One
Pile Two
Pile Three
Voting ended onApr 9
(the ten of wands and the five of swords)
It's only the beginning, merely the preparation for this journey... And yet it already starts to look and feel so different from how you imagined, how you planned it to be once you start to live it.
It is disorienting, to say the least. Could it be a sign? Could this mean that this decision was the wrong one? Are these obstacles and misunderstandings, a way of the world to push you away and protect you?
It is scary, even the thought of it. Because while these doubts are overwhelming your mind, merging, becoming so suffocating... There is something inside you that still wants it. That still makes you do these first steps, even though your mind is elsewhere, hiding, panicking perhaps, not trusting nor you nor this journey...
Try to hold onto it. A little longer. Against all odds and anxiety. To that little but still present feeling. The excitement, the curiosity, the stubbornness even... Because it's here for a reason.
It's one of those moments indeed. The ones of overthinking. Of your mind being afraid and trying to lie to you, convinced that it is protecting you. Protecting you from all the hardships and negative feelings that you will face... On your journey to satisfaction, and pride, and joy, and gratefulness of overcoming them, and manifesting your goals into your life, right in front of you, finally.
It is only the beginning. And exactly because of this, there is no reason yet to trust these fears and doubts that are filling and confusing you. Take your time to see it for yourself first. To decide on your own. Instead of trusting the answers and explanations of situations that are yet to happen, and that maybe never will occur.♡
(the temperance and the fool)
It's strange how you can be the most sure and confident person, ready to take this journey on, and then start shivering just in a few seconds, because of one single thought, one single doubt, that crosses your mind.
You are surprising yourself with all of these feelings, and changes of them. And you are confusing yourself a little. Are you really ready or not? Do you really want to do this?
You always did everything at once, as soon as possible. Mere days and moments between your decision and your actions because of it. But now you can't do it. The pace is different, it's chosen by someone else, or something. You need to wait, to prepare, to be sure and patient. To be resilient to stick to it even when nothing is happening, and probably wouldn't for quite some time, no matter your desires to speed up.
It is tough, I know. It is really different from what you are used to, and also from what you want. It is difficult because you are supposed to master something you never had in you, to be able to slow down, and wait for the results, or even just an opportunity to do something, that will take their sweet time to come through.
But it is worth it, I promise you. It will be worth it for the you of the future, but also for the you of now, that is stepping finally out of their comfort zone, or stepping in, if we look at it from a certain perspective.
This journey and the things you will learn are not about the rush, the temporary things and satisfaction, it is not about rewards that are quick to come and last only a few moments. It is more serious. More slow. More demanding. But also more stable, more rewarding, more peaceful because of it. And this is exactly what you need. After so many adventures, and ups and downs, it is a good thing to have a phase in your life that is a little bit slower. And there is nothing to worry about.♡
(ace of pentacles and the knight of wands)
I know that it seems too good to be true. Too strange even. An idea, an opportunity, that seems too beautiful and easy. A suggestion from someone, or a coincidence that put you right in front of this option... It is almost suspicious. Because you are not really used to it.
To see the advice given you being really helpful and true, and not only a joke on you. To the ideas of yours to truly be doable, and not only a delusion of some sort. To the opportunities to really be that, and be possible, instead of simply making you try again and again, making a fool of yourself.
It doesn't seem to be so safe, and real, and possible. I know. I can feel it. I can feel the same anxiety and tiredness that is overwhelming you every time you consider it. Consider getting out there and doing it, trusting it, putting yourself at risk of failing.
But this chance is only this. A mere idea. It doesn't have any journey behind it, yet. It doesn't have any consequence or outcome clear and written. It is something that still needs to grow, and to be created. By your own hands, your steps, your actions, your ways of doing things that will make this into something more. Something different from how others lived it, and from how you now try to imagine and plan it.
This chance is not that scary. The future of it is. But the future does not exist. So you won't find an answer, an advice, a preview. Something to decide based on - you have only yourself and that goal of yours, that desire that you hold onto.
Is it worth it? The goal, not the journey. The thing you want, not this opportunity or others that you might find in the future. Is it? Than anything else, any instrument you have, any chance, any way, any journey, will always be worth a try for you, and for that goal. Because one of them will work, will be the right one.
But you can't find it if you are too unsure, too serious, too attentive to every detail of every possible path in front of you - don't trust them, these things, trust yourself and the fact that you can make it work regardless. This is what makes a journey safe for you, nothing else, just you and your own intention and determination about it.♡
