#personal hapo

This to say that while I have ideas and things I'd like to do and doodles I'd like to make, it feels wrong not to acknowledge what a devastating blow this invocation of the notwithstanding clause is to charter rights - not just in Alberta but across the country - and we expect it to get worse. It is highly likely the government will use the clause again and again, whether against other labour action in health services or against vulnerable trans kids. When one group of us does not have rights, no one does.

- remind each other sporadically that “we could have been in murder basement”

- i approach the window, spin around and yell “HOW MANY DOGS ARE OUTSIDE” and we place bets and then i look outside and count the dogs

- banging pots and pans and screaming with everyone at 7:30

- me: [picks recycling up] “assemble the away team. we’re beaming down to the planet.”

- i look at old instagram pictures from when i went outside and paint them

- [several minutes of quatsch and i going back and forth insulting animal crossing villagers so we don’t carry any resentment back to our group projects due next week]

- hair dye

- drink the nasty tea i got for valentines day and make faces as we eat weird gummies quatsch bought in ottawa

- i sit by quatsch’s pile of library books and ask her to approach me every so often with stupid questions like “where’s the bathroom” so i can pretend im still at work while i draw stupid comics in ballpoint pen

- i cry trying to braid my own hair until she does it for me

- stare at the cn tower lighting up rainbow every hour or so in unblinking mesmerized silence apart from ‘its gay tower time’

- quatsch leaves sticky notes around my things telling me what to draw

I know that it's gotten bad because a few minutes before I started writing this I had to really keep a lid on my composure and try very hard not to burst into tears in public at a photo on CBC Edmonton's ig of the river valley - something I know I brag and rave about all the time but I really took for granted and desperately miss.

I'm also bitter because there is a lot of nice warm weather here and I realize all summer it's been raining here and this is Toronto's 'second chance at real summer' but all the clothes i brought were for fall/winter. It’s annoying because even when I go to Victoria or Vancouver it Magically stops raining the moment I show up- it feels like a curse. My classmate even said that the rainstorm they had that I actually was here for was ‘weird’ because it was intermittent showers rather than a downpour- I sighed because that’s just normal Alberta rain for me ToT

Anyway, please let me know about a regular update schedule: I’d like to keep one, but I don’t know if you would prefer posts from me every week or every month or what? I will try to aim for either Friday or Sunday as my weekly writing day and get a few pictures up. I dunno whether you want to hear more about school or Fun Toronto Facts (tm) but I will try to balance it out and not ramble too much. My tag for everything to do with Toronto is this is how we rock it in the tdot so feel free to check that out for updates and musings. 

- yesterday we spent all day prepping a bedroom for post surgery convalescence and we can now work in there without wearing facemasks for all the dust/powder that was in there on every surface

- today we are gonna get the whole thing reassembled and get big things off to the eco station:)

- all this to say I do have a tiny stupid comic I scripted Friday but I haven't finished drawing it and idk when I'm going to get it done because we obviously want everything as safe and clean as possible for the patient !! :)