#penroseparticle

If folks do things/make posts/etc, please tag this account so we can share!

apparently some days you will mourn them by getting furious at their bad puns all over again

by trying to bring them back by mentioning their nemesis

by remembering the most ridiculous thing you cried over, after and crying over it again and it remains ridiculous

they don't put these bits in books or movies or tv shows

Dan Humphrey is not in any of the six stages of grief

but most human things no one teaches you

Spring. I take a lot of flower photos, but I went out and took these ones specifically because when I read @into-the-weeds's post about seeing cherry blossoms at the park with Colton, I looked out the window and saw these trees blooming. Right when I read the post. Pretty sure they'd only just started to peek out of their buds the day before.

@into-the-weeds requested I make a version of This Very Good Post for @penroseparticle, but with some of his favourite Glee characters instead!

[image description: a pile of chocolate chip cookies on a counter in front of a plastic bag with more of the same cookies]

I saw that Colton died last week, and almost immediately couldn't process it. Closed the tab and walked away. I didn't think I deserved to be sad about someone who I had never met in real life. But today I looked through @penroseparticle-memorial and was so fucking moved. So here it is:

I met @penroseparticle, like many of us, through Glee. It feels strange to say I met him, when I never met him in person. But I did meet him. I did know him. Just because it happened online doesn't mean it didn't happen. I met him when I was 17. I'm 31 now. I knew him for 14 years. That's almost half my life. Even after Glee ended and we stopped screaming together every week about the Everything that was that show, I always enjoyed seeing him on my dash. He was like a neighbor that I'd nod at sometimes, or enjoy a chuckle as he told me a funny story by the mailbox. Hell, even my fiancé knew him just based on how many of Colton's posts I would show him.

I never got to meet him in person so I don't have any pictures of him. But what I do have is a pictures of the chocolate chip cookies that he and @into-the-weeds politicked their way into getting through my follower give away. Never Forget Cookiegate. For literal years after that, every time I made cookies I thought about you guys and would laugh to myself. You guys waged a campaign that could have overthrown countries for those cookies. I remember you had people voting for you from across the world! You gathered so many people together, all for the sake of cookies and most importantly, in dedication to the bit.

Das trifft es so viel besser als I miss you

Oberflächlich vielleicht kein großer Unterschied. Nur eine weitere Eigenheit des Englischen?

tu me manques

(vos) me faltás

Du fehlst mir

Du bist das Subjekt hier. Du bist das, was fehlt. Ich vermisse Dich nicht nur und Du bist nur passives Objekt meiner. Nein, Du bist was mir fehlt. Ganz aktiv.

Ganz aktiv – trotz Deines Fehlens

Du bist nicht mehr da und das wird für immer so bleiben. Das ist ehrlich scheiße.