#pelvoux

I have people I care about and who care about me. I made a good girl friend willing to take me skitouring and always psyched about climbing. Yesterday night dinner with friends was cozy and fun. Mountains are still here wether Nico is here go play with me in the snow or not - my worth is not defined by him not willing to love me. I made a decision and maybe it's a bad one, or a good one, or both. I don't know but i spoke up for myself so I can find some more stability in the coming weeks. maybe it will complicate things or maybe it will simplify everything. The universe will work around this decision. my friends asked me to teach them yoga every Sunday this winter. We went to the market with my dad on Thursday morning and I saw some figs. I told him I've been obsessed with figs these past weeks ; my dad doesn't eat figs. When I came back home yesterday night I found a full bag of figs on the table. Gentle love is the best kind of love. I have a date tonight with a guy I barely know but who seems to be gentle and kind and fun, and I'm super nervous about it but I realised I also have yo be brave enough to meet new people and take really small risks if I want to move on. I finally wemt hiking on my own and nothing is like the silence in the mountains. I'm really happy about my climbing these days - I did two tricky 6b+ onsight and really felt my body flowing. I suddenly feel more hopeful about life. I'll be okay.

I don't have enough words to express how grateful i am for those few days. Mountain can be wild and scary. It can be tough and frustrating. I with we had time to enjoy this perfect snow and weather. My board will have traveled for nothing. But this mountain taught me a lot this past days. And i'm forever grateful.