Knowing someone like Vaas now much more deeply I'm just overwhelmed by so much I didn't really know before. Like yeah I ran into people who had different ways of expressing themselves through my life, especially college. But to love someone so intimately like I have, I realize I've been really missing out on someone I could've been, I guess? I think he might feel the same about himself, sometimes, like he's just now figuring his stuff out. Gender expression and everything. It's really nice to experience and witness. To learn about. The hardships and all, and just how complex we all can be. I should've just like, really thought about it forever ago, but better now than never. I guess I've got some things about myself to learn about too, but I just keep blanking out when I get the chance to.
I dunno, I just think it's cool to feel new things, when I didn't think I was able to, or didn't think I could understand it. Maybe I didn't care until it was in someone that mattered so much to me.
