#pastlovers

(12.12.23)

I walked past a stranger today. I knew their favorite color I knew their laugh I knew the shade of blue their eyes turn when they cry

A stranger walked past me today

They knew my favorite movie They knew my writing, my soul They knew why I went quiet sometimes

Este es el comienzo de un viaje por el pasado. No podemos vivir anclados en él, pero no es delito visitarlo de vez en cuando.

Han pasado 10 años desde que me creé Tumblr. Al principio, todo era tranquilo, pero luego comenzó un turbulento periodo de incomprensión. Me enfrentaba a situaciones nuevas, que no había vivido hasta la fecha: fiestas, amistades, enemistades, amor, desamor...en definitiva, empecé a vivir. Con todo lo que ello conlleva: me apoyé en mis amigos, me despedí de otros, me enfrenté a la gente de mi alrededor pero, sobre todo, me enfrenté a mí misma, a mis miedos e inseguridades y, ¡sorpresa!, continúo viva.

Todo lo que había conocido hasta la fecha no era nada comparado con lo que me esperaba en adelante y hasta el día de hoy. Puedo decir que creía conocerme muy bien cuando este viaje comenzó, pero después de leer todo lo que escribía para desahogarme, me he dado cuenta de que no tenía ni idea de quién era ni de qué quería.  

Esto no va por nadie. Por supuesto, en su día, todos los textos tenían un blanco al que iban dirigidos, pero este recopilatorio ya no va por él, ni por ella, ni por ellos. Va por mí, porque es parte de mi historia, parte de mi vida y parte de lo que me ha hecho crecer hasta el día de hoy ser quien soy. 

Va por el pasado y por todos los aficionados a revivirlo de vez en cuando.

Had a dream with Megan in it last night. So we went to what seemed like the mall and we ordered what I remember as pizza soufflés or they were like little pizza balls and they were popular so we go in we order. she ordered hers and she gets hers and she goes to the table I order mine and I'm waiting there forever. while I'm waiting I noticed some Asian guy at the table trying to holler at Megan, but just as I suspected I see her curve the fuck out of him and he eventually leaves so I'm there waiting for my food and it's getting packed behind me and the owner lady comes over and she sees that she's a little late with my order so she looks at it again and she starts to get it ready she tells me how they're really good and then I see Jesse Soto in the background behind me and he comes up and he's telling me how they usually have this other one that's good and she agrees says she doesn't have it right now but that's a really good one it was something like pork I can't remember. While I'm up there still waiting I remember seeing another guy that goes and tries to holler at Megan and she curves him too. one of them walks up to order the food too and I see him get in some line or something I don't remember really I just remember staring him down. I finally get my food and I go to our table but when I get to the table she's not there so she calls me and asks me where am I can't member if I eat my food or not the scene changes and I go outside or I'm outside and I ran into Luis and Fatty and some chick I feel like when I saw them I told them what's up and I tell them about the food that they got in there and this and that and he asked me what I'm doing now and I start to tell him about utility locating and I remember even seeing like his eyes glaze over and then I tell him that I wanted to apply to BAE because they're hiring right now and we went on this little tangent about BAE. Then I remember they start having a conversation about Brandon going missing and how he hasn't texted anybody back and he was really going missing and they didn't know if he was all right or not. Then after that I call Megan to see where she's at because she disappeared and she says she's outside having drinks to go join her that she's at the TGIF so I remember thinking she's probably going to be gone by the time I get there so I start heading to TGIF so we can have drinks outside but that's about when the dream ends and I don't remember much after that I will continue to try and decipher these dreams.