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Contents: fight training, past abuse, past captivity, mild mind control, Ezekiel is a mildly bad caretaker
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âAgain,â Ezekiel sighed.
Azazel rolled their eyes. It was defiance they would never have dreamed of a few months ago. Now, in this place, with this angel, with their motherâs cruelty only a memory, the motion came without a second thought.
The shiver of fear that crawled up their throat tasted like a memory, too, even as he met the angelâs dark eyes.
âI canât get this,â Azazel groused, spinning the sword in an exhausted grip. âItâs tooââ
âHard?â Ezekiel laughed. âItâs a sword, child. Itâs sparring. We arenât even trying your voice today, or your sight.â
âYeah, and sparring is hard!â Azazel said. They had long since sweat through their linen shirt. The strain of their muscles, and the flow of the fight, had ceased to be exhilarating hours before. Now, their throat burned for water, and they longed to collapse to their bed.
Ezekiel leveled them with a look. âYou have done far harder things than this, Azazel,â he said gently.
Azazel flushed. Their hand tightened around the sword.
Ezekiel stepped forward. âDisarm me once more, and we can rest.â Before Azazel could respond, he slashed at their throat.
Azazel brought up their sword to block with only an inch to spare. The consecrated steel rang in the vaulted ceiling. Their arms pushed back against Ezekiel with all the force they could muster. He did not budge.
âThis isnât fair,â their spat. âYouâre⌠youâre full-blooded angel. And Iâmââ
âAngel,â Ezekiel said, stone-faced. âDo not ever forget. Draw on your strength.â
Azazel shoved him away. âIâm tired!â they cried. âIâm out of strength.â With each word, they tried to strike a blow. Each one sent a force juddering up Ezekielâs arm. Azazel was too tired to feel satisfied, too tired to feel much of anything except desperation. The angel stepped forward, parried, stepped back, struck. Tears of frustration stung Azazelâs eyes. Their arm burned, the muscles in their back screamed for relief. Their hand was numb from striking blow after blow.
âStop,â Azazel panted. They aimed for Ezekielâs neck. âStop. Iâm done with this.â
âNot until youââ
âStop!â Azazel thundered. The room shuddered with the command. Ezekiel froze â for a moment. For a breath.
It was long enough.
Azazel struck the sword from Ezekielâs hand and held their blade to his chest. The tip of it hovered over his heart â where it would be, if he had one. Azazelâs own chest heaved. The sword shook in their hand. They almost dropped it from trembling fingers.
The shadow of a smile flitted over Ezekielâs face, and he nodded. âGood,â he said softly. âThat was good. Now, rest, and we try again tomorrow. Starting with your voice.â
Azazel sagged with bone-deep exhaustion. Hunger twisted in their stomach, joined thirst as yet another sensation in their body. Another sensation was growing in them, though, unfamiliar and strong, fluttering in their chest as they watched Ezekiel turn and leave the room without a speck of sweat on his clothes: satisfaction.
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Angst, past nightmares, past captivity, anxiety, guilt, paranoia, fear for others safety, medical setting, military setting
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Elias grabbed his hand when they entered the elevator, code tapped out across his palm. Merrickâs eyes widened as the horror of the message sunk in. Wolf didnât trust Anders. Didnât trust Anders near them.
(But was Anders right? Were they too loyal to a man who tortured them? The angry defensive paranoia in his heart was tempered by the agentâs valid concern.)
âWe need to talk this out.â
âNo.â Elias tapped back. âSaid he could hear us. In the room - I donât trust it.â Merrick bit his lip and nodded. Where hadnât Anders been?
The elevator doors opened to their answer.
âFergie!â Elias sounded horribly relieved. âDid Harrison page you orâŚ?â
âNo?â The medic was genuinely confused, trying to step past them to the elevator. âIâm on call tonight. Was gonna head down to - â
âIs the staff breakroom unlocked?â
Ferguson stared at Merrick, bewildered by the sudden request.
âI - yes? I think so? Whatâs going on? Is everyone alright?â Fergie kept pace with the pair, voice hushed as they sped down the hall.
âWe need to have a talk.â
The three filtered into the cramped breakroom, Elias being extra paranoid as he scanned the hall before closing the door completely. Merrick spoke up as soon as the door latched.
âWhat do you mean we canât trust Anders?â
Fergusonâs eyes darted between Elias and Merrick.
âAgent Anders? The CIA Internal Investigator Briggs specifically brought on base because we can trust him?â
âYou donât understand.â Eliasâ voice was still hushed, desperate. Merrick tried to force down his own mounting panic. They only recently escaped a hell where even a moment of vulnerability meant pain or worse. He put a steady hand on the younger soldierâs shoulder and squeezed gently.
âTell us what happened, from the beginning.â
âWolf - Wolf was having a nightmare. A bad one - he was begging.â Elias didnât elaborate, expression soured but breathing shaky. âI woke him up because he, he - it was bad. And he was upset and mad and I was gonna go back to bed with Harrison but he - Merrick, did you know he understood? The code?â
âNo.â That was news to the captain. âAre you sure - ?â
âWhat code?â
âWhen we were there, Harrison and us came up with a code. We got in trouble for talking so itâs a pseudo-Morse something or other.â Elias explained, turning back to Merrick. âAnd Wolf apparently understands it enough to tell me we canât talk because someone is listening.â
âI - is that really a surprise? I was under the impression Briggs was already monitoring your room after what happened to Wolf in holding.â
âHe justâŚyou didnât see his face. Said we couldnât trust âhim,â that he was dangerous and we needed to stay away, or weâd get hurt.â
âEliasâŚdid he actually say he was talking about Anders?â Merrick hated to doubt the kid, butâŚit just sounded like Wolf was scared, half awake from a bad nightmare. Would he even remember telling Elias this in the morning?
âWell when I suggested Anders he fucking lost it and kept telling me he couldnât, over and over again.â Elias was getting defensive, and the look Fergie shot the captain wasnât helping. âYouâre telling me you donât think itâs weird that for all his snapping, Wolf wanted to talk to a stranger, alone? I thinkâŚI donât think we can trust Anders. I donât want to leave the Wolf alone with him again.â
âI'll check for any new injuries tomorrow.â Fergusonâs voice was soft, trying to sound nonconfrontational. âBut - Elias - what are the chances Wolf was justâŚconfused? Shaken by that nightmare? Heâs been through a lot and this is a big adjustment for him.â
âI canât - xâ Elias shuddered, eyes begging the captain for support. Support he couldnât give - not without more evidence. It pained Merrick to watch desperation morph to hollowed out acceptance. He hadnât seen Elias so empty since they left that hell. âMaybe youâre right.â His voice was flat, tired. âBut I canât live with myself if youâre wrong about this.â
Merrick wrapped his arms over Eliasâ shoulders, the hug grounding him enough to blink light back into his eyes as he looked up at his captain.
âIâll sleep in the room tonight. We can take shifts keeping an eye on Wolf.â Elias nodded numbly, ignoring Fergusonâs attempts to coax him back out of his shell. Merrick dismissed the medic with a curt shake of his head. Elias was gone for the night. Even walking him back to the room, exchanging a brief coded conversation with Harrison, Elias stayed quiet and cold. He would be better by the morning.
Angst, past nightmares, past captivity, anxiety, guilt, paranoia, fear for others safety, medical setting, military setting
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Elias didnât want to pry - not when Wolf was this upset, not when he himself was starting to grasp the reality of the situation. So, he went back to Harrison, whose wide eyes begged an explanation. He gave an abridged one, all in code - Wolf said Anders was listening.
âWe need to tell Merrick. Now.â Harrison replied with deft fingers. Elias nodded, but looked over his shoulder. It was so quiet - painfully slow breaths shuddering soundlessly from Wolf as he sobbed.
âIâŚI donât want to leave him alone.â Both for his safety and just in caseâŚjust in case he didnât want to be alone.
âGo. I can watch him. If something happens Iâll pageâŚâ They didnât have a code for Fergusonâs name, but Elias could read Harrisonâs lips when he mouthed the name. With a shaky nod, Elias stood from where he had crouched between the two beds.
Anders couldnât be trusted. Why or what that meant, Elias wasnât sure. But he was sure he needed to tell Merrick before the feeling of the Wolfâs shaking hands begging for help started to fade.
(He knew their code. He saw it, listened to it, and did nothing to discourage it. He let them have what words they could when Merrick was collared and Goldtooth threatened whippings for any conversation.)Â
The officerâs quarters were across the base, and Elias braced through what odd looks he got from the patrols. It was almost midnight - and his hospital slippers were awkward but swift among the heavy steel toed boots stalking the halls.
He knocked once. Twice. Merrick was always a light sleeper where was he -Â
âDo you need something, Walker?â He physically flinched away from with voice with an embarrassing yelp. Anders. Anders had the room next to Merrickâs and Anders couldnât be trusted. âSorry, Iâm a light sleeper. If youâre looking for your Captain, I think Merrick was trying to finish his mission report in his temporary office.â
âRight. Thanks.â The words felt rubbery in his mouth.
âIs something wrong?â Andersâ body language shifted, loose pyjamas betraying a well trained physique beneath. He looked concerned, brow furrowed and dark eyes gentle.
Anders couldnât be trusted.
âHarrison - he, um,â hopefully he seemed as flustered as he felt, âhe had a nightmare. Bad one. He wants Merrick - just, just to know heâs okay.â
âI understand.â Did he? Elias thought bitterly. But Andersâ eyes were so soft and sympathetic he almost believed him. âBetter get Merrick quickly then. Goodnight - hope you all sleep easier.â
âThanks, you too.â
â
âMerrick - â
âJesus fuck - Elias what the hell are you - â
âNow.â Elias knocked the pen from his hand and dragged his commanding officer out of his office like a kid that refused to leave the birthday party when their parents were ready to leave.
âWhatâs wrong?â Merrick quickly straightened up and kept stride with Elias, voice low. Elias opened his mouth, then closed it. Anders couldnât be trusted. He could hear them. Just in the room or elsewhere? Elias was beginning to regret not needleing Wolf for details.
âHarrison had a bad dream, wants to - to know youâre okay.â
âRight.â Merrickâs tone was conflicted. He believed Elias enough to keep following him - good. Hopefully Anders had as well. âAnd youâre alright?â
âJust, just rattled. He was really upset.â The longer he thought about Harrison and Wolf alone on the other side of the base, the deeper the pit in his stomach became. âLetâs hurry.â
Past captivity and trauma, past torture, past character deaths, guilt
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Merrick was writing the mother of all mission reports and trying to do it in one sitting was going to make him sick. Six months. Six months, three good men, and a hell of excruciating detail to comb through for anything that could bring their captors to justice.
The early days, when Orson and Thatch were still around, those were oddly fuzzy. Hazy, faces obscured by time. Back then, Harrison was the only one who knew Arabic, so he was translating demands and orders to them in urgent whispers. Merrick and Elias knew enough by the time Orson died it wasnât a problem when they took Harrison away.
Away to the Box.
Harrison didnât talk about it much, and neither Elias nor Merrick knew exactly what happened in that coffin shaped space. So Merrick could only report what he knew: Harrisonâs screams.
(He always wondered if Harrison could hear their screams over his own in there.)Â
Merrick knew the Red Room - the furnace room - intimately. It was where they were most often dragged to be tortured. Sometimes strung up by their wrists, sometimes bound to a chair, sometimes blindfolded with their hands bound behind their back.
He wasnât sure they ever washed the floor - it was always sticky with old blood and gritty from broken glass. At least he assumed it was broken glass - he never remembered seeing any.
Merrick was trying to recount one of the last few sessions they had with Goldtooth (Smith, he knew now). He remembered Elias strung up and whipped, Goldtooth stalking around him with saccharine promises to treat him well if he just agreed toâŚsomething. Those demands got blurry and vague the harder Merrick tried to think about them.
But he could remember Goldtooth in crystal clear color. His blue eyes were hungry when they watched Elias flinch under the blows, a smile drinking in every sob and scream. And when he remembered Goldtooth cutting Elias down, cradling his bare, broken body with far too much tenderness, Merrick couldnât write anymore for the day.
Knowing what Smith did to Wolf, he wondered if they ever came close to his monstrous bloodlust.
Merrick stepped out of his office (a cramped closet cubicle, his old office had been given to a different soldier after all this time). He made his way to the restroom to splash some cold water on his face. The bruise from the Wolfâs solid right hook was starting to show through his dark skin, even though the tenderness had faded to an occasional ache.
He glanced to the mirror as Agent Anders stepped out of a stall, scrubbing his hands with soap and water.
âCaptain Merrick.â He nodded in acknowledgement, quirking a brow at the water droplets still damp on his face. âRough report to write, I assume?â
âRough is right.â He huffed before sighing. âI keepâŚthinking of what could have happened.â
âThatâs a good way to go insane, Captain.â Andersâ smile was sympathetic. âIâve seen it happen. Youâll drive yourself crazy. Best not to dwell on it and move on.â
âI justâŚwe could have ended up like the Wolf.â
âYouâre not the torturing type, if I may make a naive assessment.â
âNeither was he.â Merrick snagged a paper towel from the dispenser. âBroke some bones, burned some skin but at least he neverâŚhe could have done worse.â
âCareful Captain.â Anders voice still had a lilt of friendliness veiling his cold, calculating eyes. âA little close to Stockholm Syndrome to be sympathizing with your torturer.â
âHe saved our lives.â Saved them from whatever horrors Smith would inflict when he came to the forefront again. âPuts things into perspective.â
Anders hummed, dark eyes sharp and narrowed in thought.Â
Angst, military setting, toxic friendships, ableism and assault [a character touches/leans on/grabs another characterâs mobility aid without permission], past captivity and torture mention, past beating and humiliation [forced to strip], past character death mention, briefly implied past noncon
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As much as Elias enjoyed the familiar bustle of the mess, Harrison was right. Eating lunch in the courtyard was so much better than sitting on those awful benches under fluorescent lighting. Here the air was clean and fresh, if a little dusty from the troops running drills in the dried turf.
Harrison, still on a limited diet to account for his starvation, had long since finished his measly helping of mashed potatoes, mushy peas, and mystery meat. Elias was savoring his plate; he never thought he would miss mediocre cafeteria food so badly.
âHbomb!â
Harrison startled at the shout from across the courtyard, a smile splitting his face as the three stooges bobbed between annoyed patrols.
Parker was leading the charge, stocky and well built enough to dive between the other soldiers in the field like a plow tilling soft earth. Gale followed in his shadow, steps light and measured - showing off his childhood training as a ballet dancer. Moe stumbled after them, glasses knocked askew but saved from falling off his face with sweaty hands.
âYouâre looking better, Gomez.â Gale huffed, leaning on Harrisonâs wheelchair.
âAnd Iâm chopped liver?â Elias complained half heartedly, an echo of grief in his chest. He missed Thatch and Clements and Orson, his clique even before the taskforce organized. Harrison still had friends here, and the look he shot Elias bled with sympathy. Parker didnât notice.
âNah, youâre just still lookinâ the same as before Walker.â
âGlad to know a little torture didnât damage my good looks.â Elias couldnât quite strangle his misplaced discomfort with humor.
âWell, it didnât do you any favors, thatâs for sure.â Gale quipped, Parker snorting while Moe cracked a nervous smile, scrubbing his glasses clean with the hem of his shirt.
Elias felt bad for the kid - he was a Private like him, but just behind his cohort. Parker and Gale seemed to tolerate him for his use as a scapegoat, but Moe was just happy to be included. It never sat right with Elias.
âYou two got any juicy gossip from the higher ups?â Parker hummed, sitting on the bench between Elias and where Harrisonâs chair was parked. He told himself the spike of resentment and stress was just the separation anxiety acting up.
âWhat do you mean?â Harrisonâs laugh was tense, a hand weakly failing to bat away Galeâs arm where it leaned on his chair. Harrison and these three were close before the taskforce. Time didnât appear to have made the heart grow fonder.
âHavenât you realized?â Gale finally stood up, gesturing to the throngs of soldiers standing around between drills and marches. âEntire base is on fucking lockdown.â He huffed, as though offended. âFirst she says weâre on disciplinary leave then weâre on lockdown. Canât a bitch make up her mindâŚâ
âWatch it Gale.â Harrisonâs growl was genuine, and the medic threw up his hands in mock surrender.
âI was just - â
âNo wonder youâre on disciplinary leave.â Elias huffed, poking at the plate on his lap. Moe was still hovering in the background, silent.
âHey, it was for you, jackass.â Parker shouldered him gently despite his strength. He knew not to push the still recovering soldier too hard, so Elias took his insult lightly.
âWhat are you talking about? Had to defend our honor like some kinda damsel?â Harrison batted his eyes at Parker, but Galeâs dry hum had a venomous undercurrent.
âSomeone had to make sure that fucker knew his place.â
âWhat?â Harrisonâs voice was shaken, and Elias knew he had the same sinking feeling in his gut. Parker shrugged, leaning back on the bench with far less righteous satisfaction in his voice.
âWent down to holding. Roughed up that Wolf you brought back.â Harrison was looking at Parker with abject horror, and he tried to backtrack accordingly. âJust a few hits. Didnât even break nothinâ - he took it like a champ.â
âYou cracked his fucking ribs, jackass.â Elias shoved back a little too hard, swallowing back the anger in his throat.
âI - I pulled my punches, unlike someone.â
âOh, shut up. You think he took his jacket off just to keep a bit of blood off it?â Gale crossed his arms over his chest, finally taking a step back from where Harrison was seething in his chair. âHe wanted a little fight to take the edge off and we gave it to him is all.â
âYou had him strip, G.â Moeâs soft voice made Elias suck air through his teeth. Gale would give the poor kid hell for - wait, what did he say?
âI joked that he was being a tease. Fucker didnât have to - â
âYou made him strip?â Eliasâ breath shuddered, words so quiet he wasnât sure anyone would hear them. He wasnât hungry anymore. In fact, the cafeteria food wasnât sitting right with him.
âHey, heâs the one that took off his pants - I, I didnât make him do anything.â
âYou saw the shape he was in and you still kicked the crap out of him?â Harrison had turned in his chair, but Elias didnât need to see his face to know the disgust and anger painted on his face.
âYeah, considering the shape you are in.â There was a thread of discomfort in Galeâs voice, but he was still defensive. Righteously convicted, he continued with a twinge of sincerity. Or at least Elias hoped it was sincerity. âWeâre your friends, H. We thought you fucking died out there.â
âAnd that gives you the right to strip and beat a prisoner who didnât even fight back?â Harrisonâs head whipped back to Elias, eyes bright with anger. âI want to go back inside now, Elias. Are you done?â
âYeah. Yeah I think I am - â
âOh my god Hbomb chill - weâre sorry alright, Gale - we took it too far.â Parker, at the very least, didnât try to stop Elias from getting up. But Gale grabbed hold of Harrisonâs wheelchair.
âHey!â
âDude, seriously, he fucking tortured you. Doesnât he deserve a taste of his own medicine?â
âHeâs had plenty now let, me, go.â Harrisonâs glare was poisonous, and with Elias rounding on him, Gale finally took the hint and backed off. Not without rolling his eyes in exasperation.
âFine, fine. Christ, whatâs the matter with you? Defending that fucking monster - Stockholm syndrome much?â
âGale. Thatâs enough.â At least Parker could keep that jackass busy. Elias pushed Harrison along the path, plate left cold on the bench. It wasnât like he had the stomach for that mediocre cafeteria slop anyway. Harrisonâs muttering was simmering with rage.
âMerrick should have told us - â
âProtocol. He canât rat out every asshole on base as a captain. Abuse of power and all.â
âAs though they didnât fucking abuse their power.â Harrisonâs stage whisper dropped quieter as they passed a patrol. âGod. Elias do you think they - do you think he thought - ?â
âNo. And yes.â Those idiots were assholes, but they werenât monsters. Not like that CIA schmuck that butchered Wolf. But the Wolf wouldnât know that - he clearly didnât expect anything less - and god, they werenât giving him great evidence to the contrary.
âIf they knew - â
âThey canât. Merrick said this stays between us, Fergie, the Frizz and Briggs. And Mav too, I guess.â Elias didnât like how the temperature dropped - just slightly - as they left the warm glow of the sunlight and entered the medical building.
He hoped the Wolf was having a better afternoon than them.
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Military setting, past interrogation, past captivity and torture, fictional politics
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âWell that was fucking enlightening.â
âIf we pushed him just a little more - â
âAnd what do you know about interrogation?â Merrick rounded on Briggs, the pair alone in her office as Mav ran to archive the tape and fetch some coffee. Briggs broke eye contact first. âHeâs scared, Faith. We havenât exactly given him much reason to trust that we can protect him from our own damn men, let alone another department.â
âI know.â She sighed, sitting on her desk. There were precariously piled folders of paperwork she was expertly avoiding.
âItâs been a day since we got out of that hellhole. He needs time - we all do. Give it a week and - â
âI made some calls. Agent Smith is returning to his supposed post in Cali in two days.â Her pale eyes were sharp. âWe donât have time. Chances are, since he hasnât bugged out yet, Smith doesnât know youâre missing. That Wolf is here. We have a very short timeframe before heâs tipped off and drops off the grid.â
âOh fuck offâŚâ Merrick muttered, scratching his head. (How nice it felt to have a proper buzz after months unshaven.) âWolfâs not going to talk. I know he wonât. What else can we do?â
âMavâs digging into Loggerhead. Theyâve worked with the military on some overseas operations before. But we need to beâŚdelicate. Loggerhead is one of our strongest and most reliable PMCs and we canât accuse the entire company of - of running a torture bunker. Thereâs a good chance employees are involved, but to implicate the entire institution would make enemies we cannot afford.â
âWhat about - the truck. It has a serial number, doesnât it? Canât you track what - what batch it was in? Who purchased it?â
âFiled off.â Briggs sighed, rubbing her eyes. âMechanics are looking it over for tracking devices, bugs - anything that can be traced back - but no luck so far.â
âSoâŚweâre fucked? Dead in the water?â
âWell, probably. Hell, they might have already scuttled the entire operation the day you flew the coop. Smith could be their fall man for all we know.â
Not that he didnât deserve to fall, Merrick thought with a huff. But hopelessness was settling into his chest, a familiar resignation like a collar laid heavy around his throat.
âThey - damn, theyâre really gonna get away with this?â
âNo.â She leveled him with a steady gaze. Solid as stone. âI told you. I made some calls. Managed to get in contact with the CIAâs internal investigation division.â
âYou just said Smithâll slip the noose any day now.â
âHe will. But if anyone can track him down, and help us figure out what the hell happened in that bunker, itâll be them.â
âHow soon can they get here?â
âTheyâre sending over an agent today. Anders, I think his name was.â
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The director couldnât find out. More explicitly, the director couldnât tell any of the higher ups who funded the project. This kind of sloppy management would get them all canned, if not worse.
And the overseer knew worse.
So, he called the closest thing to a contingency plan as they had for Smith and his pet project.
âAgent Anders?â
âYou lost the Wolf?â
He stuttered a moment, panic bright as he tried to think of who could have told the agent. The entire bunker was on lockdown - the overseer had killed the three guards who had been sloppy enough to be taken down by the Wolf, and another two were halfway to the Box begging that they had no idea about the breakout.
âWell, - how - â
âVolunteers dragged him to a local installation. Seems they found out about Smith and figured the CIAâs internal investigation division would be their best option.â Anders voice crackled over the line, cold and clinical. âThe director doesnât know. Yet.â
âThank you.â The overseer kept his words measured. The last thing he wanted was to be indebted to Anders of all agents.
âThe director will find out, eventually, so we need a plan.â A plan that probably involved Anders taking over a not-insignificant portion of the project. âHow attached are you to Agent Smith?â
âAs much as I hate the bastard, how confident are you that we can keep the Wolf under control without him?â Assuming they could even reacquire the asset.
â100%. The Wolf knows whatâs good for him. I helped make sure, if you recall.â
The overseer did, to his chagrin. He didnât mention that Andersâ methods damaged the asset beyond use, as far the intelligence office was concerned.
âWhat do you need me to do?â
âKeep the bunker quiet. Oh, and donât let Smith know about this. I donât feel like tracking him down if he runs.â
And if Anders couldnât get the Wolf back in time, they would need someone to take the fall. And it sure as hell wasnât going to be him.
Military setting, past captivity, past torture, past trauma, implied past violence, vague fictional politics
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After months of being interrogated in cold concrete rooms, bones broken and skin bloodied, it was odd to sit in a clean hospital break room on a soft swivel chair. Harrison sat nearby, his wheelchair and IV stand squeaking as he fidgeted uncomfortably.
Ferguson had offered Elias a wheelchair, but he declined. His own nervous energy was barely contented with bouncing his knee - he was desperate to get up and pace no matter how his aching body would protest. Plus, he felt safer on his own two feet. More in control.Â
Merrick looked rough - freshly bruised skin had bloomed under the bandage across his nose, eyes already pinched in the spreading pain and swelling. But still his eyes were gentle when he glance at Elias and Harrison, a tight smile reassuring them that he was fine.
(Then what happened with the Wolf? What happened to the Wolf?)
They were waiting for Dr. Amanda Fritz, who had apparently been the one to look over the absent former-torturer. Having seen him withered in that hospital bed, Elias was barely restraining the urge to run back to the room and check on him. Hiding a shock collar was understandable to an extent - he didnât want them to know he was on someone elseâs leash. But the sheer extent of his injuries - what bandages Elias could see - those were far beyond a clumsy accident or sour shame.
He was hurt. Badly, and with intent to cause harm.
The extent to which, Dr. Fritz would explain. Not that anyone actually called her Dr. Fritz - not unless they were in trouble or trying to get out of trouble. They called her the Frizz, or Frizzle - for obvious reasons, her curly red hair and prominent nose well matched with her curious enthusiasm and warm presence.
(Thatch had gifted her an âiguanaâ pin, before the Taskforce left for their final, fated mission. She took it in good humor, none of them realizing it would be the last laugh they heard from Thatch.)
She was wearing it today, a cheap piece of metal and plastic shaped as a generic gecko.
âIs this everyone?â Briggs was sitting at the comically small coffee table, a soldier next to her.
âYes maâam.â Merrick said, locking the door behind Frizzle. He winced as he spoke, pain pulling across his face. Wolf had really done a number on his nose.
âThen letâs get started.â Briggs gestured to her aid - Mav, Elias remembered him from an interview months, maybe more than a year, ago - who set out a tape recorder.
âName and rank, for the record.â
âJosiah Merrick, Captain and commanding officer of Taskforce 42.â He nodded to Harrison.Â
âSargent Harrison Gomez. Translator and field technician for TF-42.â He nodded to Elias.Â
âPrivate Elias Grainger of TF-42.â He swallowed, unsure why the words tasted so bitter. (He had said then a dozen times, bleeding and begging and breaking for the enemy - or, whoever it was that captured them.)Â
âMedical officer Chris Ferguson of Firebase Charlie.â
âDoctor Amanda Fritz, Firebase Charlie.â
âCommander Faith Briggs, Firebase Charlie.â
The commander nodded to Mav, who listened back to the tape and gave a thumbs up before letting it continue recording. Briggs cleared her throat, reading from a heavily redacted document on the table.
âTaskforce 42 was deployed from Carson City, Nevada Tuesday June 3rd, 2003 en route to a covert Siberian outpost. Contact was lost 7 hours into your flight. No wreckage or plane was found.â She sighed, closing her eyes a moment. âYou were declared MIA four months ago, after two months without contact. Letâs start where we left you - the flight. What happened?â Harrison and Elias looked up to Merrick. They all knew - or at least, knew what they didnât know - but he was their commanding officer.
âWe donât know.â His words were slow but steady. Bare and uncomfortable truth. âI remember boarding, closing my eyes for a bit after we got settled in and thenâŚwe were there.âÂ
âWhere?âÂ
âA bunker. A compound of sorts - small holding cell area. Four separate cells, two on each side of the aisle. Each about four by four meters in size.â
âAnd the Box.â Harrisonâs mutter was soft but tight.Â
âThe Box?âÂ
Elias didnât like the way Harrison minutely trembled at Briggâs prompting. He hadnât talked about it with them - he sure as hell wasnât going to talk to the commander about his personal hell. He stepped in, trying to spare the details.
âA fifth cell - sort of - at the back of the hall. It - it was small.â
âLike an upright coffin.â Harrison added, eyes briefly blank before he blinked and looked at Briggs. âThere was another hall at the other end of the holding cell area. Six doors.â
âThey only ever took us in the first two closest to the cells.â Elias picked at the skin around his fingernails. âOne had a drain and - and water. The other had a furnace.âÂ
The burn scars on his back itched. Looking back, he was grateful Goldtooth had faded to the background when the Wolf took over. The Wolf never looked at him like he was a piece of meat he could eat.Â
âWhere was this bunker?âÂ
âAbout 12 hours north of here, give or take.â Merrick shrugged, clearly trying to ignore the shocked disbelief on the commanderâs face. Elias tried to explain, at least to himself, how such a thing was possible - hidden, under American sand.
âWe were underground - probably, maybe five or six stories? Came up into a - a more standard military complex. There was a pretty sizable vehicle bay.âÂ
âHow did you escape?â
Merrick picked up; good thing, too. Elias didnât think he could articulate their surreal escape without losing a bit on his sanity.
âWolf let us out of our cells, led us through a checkpoint, and had keys for the truck.âÂ
âWho is Wolf? For the record.âÂ
Harrison gave Marrick a tense glance, not unlike the one Elias flickered between them. Who he was, they didnât know. What he had done was a different story.
âWe donât know.â Merrick finally said. âHeâŚsaid he needed three escorts to get through the checkpoint, and we were in the right place at the right time.â
âSo he was also a prisoner?âÂ
âNo.â Harrison answered automatically, before he cringed under Briggsâ calculated eyes. âMaybe? Itâs - this couldnât have waited until he was awake to ask yourself?âÂ
âWe were going to speak with Wolf first beforeâŚthe incident.â Her eyes flicked between Merrick and them - they werenât getting any details. Not now. âWhat can you tell us about him? I personally havenât had the pleasure of speaking with him, so any information would be appreciated.â
âHe tortured us.â Harrisonâs voice was flat, a sneer of offense on his face when Eliasâ wide eyed stare didnât waver. âOh, are we just gonna pretend that didnât happen? He damn near drowned me - collared you, Merrick - â
âHe saved our lives.â Eliasâ voice felt small, the defense weak. He knew he probably cared too much - he always did - but he had thought - Harrison was so worried back at the room -
âHe made our lives hell for fuck knows how long. And, what, he gets a free pass because someone else was holding his leash?â
âI donât think he had much of a choice, Harrison.â Merrickâs voice was low and soft, sympathetic to Harrisonâs frustration. But Elias didnât like the look in his eye, the way he glanced at Dr. Fritz⌠Harrison opened his mouth to make a retort, but Briggs cut him off.
âHe tortured you under someone elseâs orders. Whether he was under duress or not can be determined when heâs lucid. Is there anything else Dr. Fritzâ medical report wonât cover?â
âGerman.â Elias half whispered, still mumbling when the Commander raised a brow in curiosity. âHeâs German. I think. The other - there were other guards before him, everyone always spoke Arabic. Harrison translated for a while beforeâŚâ Before the Box. Before Elias and Merrick needed to learn on their feet to survive without him. ââŚbefore we learned enough to understand their demands and orders. Wolf spoke Arabic too, butâŚhis accent is German, when he speaks English.â
âHis Arabic was always a little stilted.â Harrison grumbled, shrugging in his chair. âThought he was a Russian merc or something for a while.â
âBut the guards at the checkpoint, the ones that frisked him while we played the part of his escort,â Merrickâs eyes were hard and clear, âthey were American.â Briggs practically bristled at the statement.
âYouâre sure?â
âAbsolutely.â
The beat of silence was sour and cold. It was far from confirmed, but Elias could feel in his gut - they had been captured by Americans. Tortured by Americans. (Their brothers were killed by their fellow Americans.)
Frizzle broke the silence.
âWould you like my medical report now, maâam?â There was a heaviness to her eyes, and Eliasâ glance to Fergie was far from reassuring. The medic refused to make eye contact, staring at the ground, lips pressed in a tight frown.
âShould - are we supposed to stay or - ?â
âYou might be able to help put some of his injuries in context.â Dr. Fritzâ words held logic, but her tone implied that she knew that they couldnât. The Wolf had been their torturer, and only their torturer until a day ago. But she still looked to the commander for permission to continue.
âNothing leaves this room. Prisoner, torturer, or not - this conversation is confidential.â Briggs leaned back in her chair. Eliasâ eyes slid to the still rolling tape recorder. His gut instinct wished Wolf - the patient - was here, to make a choice in the matter of his own privacy.
(Who knew how long it had been since he made a choice of his ownâŚ)
Anxiety, fear of recapture, referenced past captivity and torture, pain medication use, platonic bed sharing, comfort
AU Masterpost / Previous / Next
Harrison was starting to get nervous. Maybe they should have left right away. Maybe waiting would only give the people hunting them time to close the net. Maybe -
âYou keep bouncing your knee like that youâll wear a hole through the floor.â Dan didnât look up from where he was helping Merrill copy the files. A backup, just in case, with Merrillâs neat scrawl transcribing the redacted portions as Dan handed her fresh prints.
It was something to spend the day doing, at least.
âTake a nap, Harrison. Youâll need it.â
Merrill paused her scrawl to meet Harrisonâs eyes. They had decoded most of the redacted sections of the other files together (as much as Harrison could help with his mild concussion). Decoding WolfâsâŚHarrison wasnât sure she had finished before starting the copying project. He didnât blame her if she hadnât.
âNot sure I can do that right now. Just - stressed.â Thomas said he would stop by after doing his rounds and he hadnât; it had been hours. What was keeping him?
âKid, go close your eyes for a few minutes. Or at least check on Wolf - he turned down pain meds earlier and we both know he could use âem.â Dan was right. And Harrison was happy to stand and stretch, as much as his body protested.
The bedroom was quiet and dark, blinds drawn but the little blue night light casting its soft glow across the floor. Wolf wasnât on the bed - as Harrison expected - but the cot was also empty. Looking at the floor, he had moved the pillows from the bed to the carpet and stripped the blankets from the cot to make a slightly worse combination of the both on the ground.
But Harrison wouldnât deny, the nest Wolf had made looked safe in a way he couldnât describe.
(Did he really miss sleeping on hard cell floors or did he just miss sleeping next to another warm body?)
Wolf sat up, hair mussed and eyes bloodshot as though he had been crying. The hoarseness to his voice didnât do the suspicion any favors either. âWhatâs wrong?â
âNothing. Dan said you didnât take your pain meds.â Harrison crouched and handed over the glass of water and pills. Wolf looked at both for a moment before dry swallowing the medication and downing the glass in a few gulps.
âThank you.â
âDonât mention it.â Harrison took the empty glass and set it on the nightstand by the bed, still crouching next to Wolf. Who was watching him withâŚexpectation? Anticipation? âUh, I suppose - Iâm supposed to try and get some sleep too. Doctorâs orders.â He chuckled nervously, tilting his head to the closed door in reference to Dan. Wolf nodded seriously, unraveling the blanket nest he had crafted on the floor.
âI understand - here, theyâll be warm for the bed - â
âWait I was - â Would Wolf even want to share his space with anyone? Let alone Harrison, all bony and cold and - fuck it. Wouldnât hurt to ask, would it? âI wouldnât mind sleeping down here, if thatâs alright.â
Wolf didnât freeze up, but his hand slowly stopped stripping away the blankets around him. His brow furrowed, unreadable eyes glancing up to Harrison.
âOh.â
Harrison was suddenly less sure that asking wouldnât hurt.
âYou can say no - I - itâs fine - â
âNo.â Wolf didnât quite pause, but it was clear the words in his mouth werenât wholly confident. âNo, itâs alright. Itâs - itâs a littleâŚcramped.â
âCozy.â Harrison suggested, carefully shifting to sit at the edge of the nest. âUh, how - how close are you comfortable being?â
âAs close as you need.â Wolf shifted, laying back down and leaving roughly half the nest open. Wolf rolled to his side, his back to Harrison as he carefully curled into the blankets.
(They were warm. Just as Wolf had said they would be.)
Harrison procured a pillow from the upper perimeter of the nest, the neck support a luxury he had sorely missed. He closed his eyes and breathed.
The carpet was a nostalgic kind of dusty, like the guest bedroom at a cousinâs house. The pillow sheet was freshly washed, the cotton clean and dry under his skin. It almost startled him that he recognized the faint smell of sweat and sterile gauze as coming from the body behind him.
(He briefly wondered what Wolf smelled like when he wasnât injured and exhausted.)
Harrison turned his back to Wolfâs, tucking the blankets around him an under his chin - snug as a bug on a rug, he supposed. He had nearly drifted off when Wolf shifted behind him - closer to Harrison.
He started to doze again, the warmth and safety relaxing whatever fears he had about the future. Harrison leaned back, into that solid warmth, dimly aware Wolfâs meaty shoulder was under his head. It didnât matter. Right now they were warm, and safe.
And Harrison didnât survive the bunker by ignoring the little moments of respite and safety. Here he could sleep, for however long the peace lasted.
Which apparently wasnât long. (Not that he was sure how much time had passed since he fell asleep.)
He woke with a jolt as Wolfâs arm snaked around him and hugged Harrison against his chest. The door squeaked slightly as it finished opening, Merrillâs familiar silhouette above them.