#pashov

Ok Willa has to get off her fucking high horse acting like the others are horrible for tying down Gren when he has consistently tried to harm them and himself and we know from his POVs he was absolutely going to kill them if he was free. Like no Willa, they did not tie him up for simply being scared???? They did not tie him up for looking scary????? They tied him because he lunged at them and acted like he was going to rip out their jugulars. This woman is delusional??? She's invented this whole narrative about the situation and is so convinced of it.

She has moments of clarity but all of that goes out the window when she does the absurd shit she ends up doing.

I actually do understand why Gren was scared, he has every right to react the way he did(his past, language barrier, strange world etc), BUT the others also have the right to protect themselves from him without miss almighty Willa acting like they are terrible people for doing so???

Also Willa is so patronizing to the other women who are crying because they are scared(and mourning everything they've lost??)? But she's so quick to white knight for Gren who's trying to kill people because of his fear??? Make it make sense?! At least be consistent Willa?! She's also so rude to the guys who don't let her untie the man who in his POV is thinking about killing all of them!? She's all like "Bless your heart" when she doesn't get her way(all us from the south know the patronizing vitriol in that saying), like no, fuck you Willa. Bless your heart. She's so condescending and high and mighty I hate it???

This is the first POV we get from her:

Right off the bat she's so condensending and on her fucking soapbox like she's an angel who could've done so much better while this man was attempting to attack those people who are subduing him. Her POV is SO HARD to read because she's so unreasonable and almighty. It's not fucking cute.

And then- THEN I LOST MY SHIT. She decides she's going to escape with Gren and her plan has a snag. That snag is Pashov guarding Gren. Gren tackles Pashov to the ground and her first thought is to pick up a rock and BASH HIS HEAD WITH IT?!

BITCH EXCUSE ME?! HER FIRST GUT REACTION. IS THAT. NOT RUNNING. NOT TYING HIM UP/GAGGING HIM. BASH HIS HEAD IN THE MOST VULNERABLE SPOT.

HE WASNT EVEN FIGHTING BACK?! HE WASNT ATTACKING YOU?! HE WASNT A THREAT?! AND YOU'RE FIRST THOUGHT IS TO BRUTALLY BASH HIS HEAD WITH A ROCK?! See that's the sign of someone who is capable of some horrible shit. If you do something like that to someone and it's not out of self defense or survival or necessity then you've got a dark heart sorry not sorry. Fuck Willa.

"I won’t think about his wife and his baby at home, or how kind he’s been to all of us. I can’t. I can’t."

No actually THINK ABOUT IT. YOU did that to another living being! One who was no threat to either of you. Who had been feeding, clothing, and protecting you. I hope to god you suffer crippling guilt, Willa!

It's not like they were going to harm Gren and she had to get him out of there for his safety. They were probably going to give him the translation chip, once Mardok finished them, and explain the situation to him and then free him when he calmed down. There's no reason to do any of this mad shit other than Willa feeling bad about Gren being tied up and being uncomfortable seeing it?! She could have just waited it out and talked to them about it. And they would have explained. Unreasonable. Selfish. Irrational.

Also she left Pashov bleeding out in the sand.

I hope she meets Stacy and Stacy throws fucking hands because I would.

Shes going to have to work a fucking miracle for me to see her in- even a neutral light, because my god she SUCKS and I have not felt hatred like this in all 24 of the prior Not-Hoth universe books I've read.

In conclusion-

Willa:

And godspeed to me finishing this fucking book.

Parts to this below:

《Part 1》: This part

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《Part 3》:

Dagesh: YO DUDE! o shit you fuckin? Okay well you almost done? I gotta talk

Pashov, in the middle of segc times with Stacy: bruh. Really? Dude?