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Jae: Was diagnosed with mesothelioma.

Young K, sighing: Mamma called the doctor and the doctor said...

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↳ I Am YOU era

↳ Xiang is practicing for the KBS Song Festival JYP Special Stage. There's a technical malfunction. Xiang ends up getting rushed to the hospital.

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Xiang swaps phones with Jae after exchanging numbers, "Wait, aren't you only a sub-rapper? Like, no offense, but why are you and Young K a part of the rap stage?"

"First of all, you're a part of English line, so never call him Young K; it's Brian," Jae corrects her. "And second, I think they needed someone tall since everyone else in the rap stage is short, I don't really know."

"That's highly inaccurate. You've got maybe two inches on Brian and BamBam. And I'm not short."

"I am looking over your head right now."

"That doesn't prove anything; you can look over anyone's head, you freak of nature."

"I take offense to that."

"Good."

A staff member interrupts them, "Xiang, Jae, we're going in a minute."

Jae sends a glare Xiang's way and she just gives him a wide grin back, both of them putting in their in-ears. Xiang can hear Dowoon start his drum solo now, after a few minutes long break for technical difficulties after the vocal stage. She waits for the remixed "Hard Carry" beat then walks onstage and starts rapping.

It's insane to think that less than two years ago she debuted and now she's kicking off the JYP rap stage, Day6's Jae and Twice's Chaeyoung at her sides. So instead she thinks about her lyrics. She takes up space on the stage, walking around and going all in even if it is just a rehearsal.

She turns and takes a few steps backwards. In her peripherals, she sees Jae start to move towards her very quickly and she's confused as to what he's doing. His hand just barely grazes her arm as she starts to fall backward.

One second she's owning her verse in the company collaboration and the next she's on her back down below the stage with the wind knocked out of her.

She has to blink several times before she can register what just happened. She sees above her a rectangular hole in the stage where Changbin would have emerged in a few verses. It shouldn't have been open yet because she wasn't even finished and Jae, Chaeyoung, Jisung, and Brian all still had to rap. Nevertheless, she's underneath the stage and Changbin is tugging out his in-ears and crouching beside her.

Xiang sits up and takes her earpieces out. The music has stopped but her ears are still ringing.

"-okay? Changho? Hey."

Changbin's hand on her shoulder helps get her out of the ringing in her head.

She looks over at him, "I seem to have fallen."

"Okay, good, you're not broken," he laughs stiffly, "Are you okay?"

"Yeah, yeah, I'm okay," she waves him off.

The throbbing of the back of her head sticks out to her among the rest of the pain from falling flat on her back onto a metal platform. She reaches back to cup her head. Her hair feels wet, which is weird because she knows she wasn't sweating that much. She looks at her hand and sees blood coating her fingers.

"Oh, shit," Changbin curses. He turns to the closest staff member, "Can we get some help?"

"I'm fine, Changbin," Xiang tries to tell him.

"You're bleeding, so, no, you're not fine."

The platform starts to move under them and they're lifted up onto the stage, where Chan is immediately at Xiang's side.

"Oh my god, Sophie, are you okay?"

"I'm fine, Chris-"

"She's bleeding," Changbin cuts her off.

"She's bleeding?!"

She glares at Changbin, "Now you've done it."

She knows Changbin's right and she's not okay, especially since she can now feel blood trickling down her neck. She must've hit her head on the corner of the stage when she fall backwards and bust it open. And her back is really starting to feel the impact of her fall.

"Let's get her backstage," Stray Kids' manager says from where he stands behind Chan.

Changbin helps her up and has his hand on her arm as they start backstage. She stumbles a bit as pain flares up in the small of her back and Chan grabs onto her other arm.

"Should I carry her? I can carry her," Chan says to their manager.

"She can hear you," Xiang objects, "And she can walk on her own. Her back just hurts a little."

She's hurting a lot more than she's letting on but really doesn't want anyone to start freaking out on her behalf. Specifically Chan. She also really doesn't want any pitying looks from the multitude of senior JYP artists waiting backstage that she has to walk through to get out of the backstage area to somewhere less crowded.

After being checked over by the onsite nurse, she is given a towel to hold to her head and driven to the hospital by her manager. Xiang had refused to let Chan come with her, convincing him he needs to stay and remain level headed for the other boys while their manager is with her.

Luckily, she doesn't have a concussion but she does need three staples. With some careful maneuvering by the doctor, the staples are put in place without any hair removal and she's on her way home three hours later with a bandage around her head.

It's midnight by the time her manager drops her off at the dorm but she's still immediately bombarded by nine worried voices the moment she walks in the door.

"Are you okay?"

"What happened?"

"Are you concussed?"

"Will you still be able to perform?"

"Guys. GUYS!"

Xiang's shout gets them to quiet down.

"I'm fine. I'll be able to perform. I don't have a concussion. But I do have a massive headache and you all shouting isn't helping."

She looks to Chan for help and he gives her an apologetic look, "We're just glad you're home safe."

"Okay, dad," Xiang says with a roll of her eyes. "Well, I'm tired as fuck. I'm going to bed. Gotta go figure out how to sleep with staples in my head."

"You got staples? Can I see?" Felix follows after her, closely followed by Jeongin and Jisung.

"You all are literally children, go away."

"We just want to see them," Jeongin says.

"You will when I take the bandage off in the morning."

"That's so far away, though!" Jisung whines.

"Three seconds ago you thought I was dying now you want me to disobey doctor's orders so you can see a tiny piece of metal lodged in my skull?"

🔴 DAY6 THE BOOK OF US: THE DEMON 🔵

"I started feeling my heart pulsating super fast, and I legit thought I was going to die," Jae recalls in an Allure interview over Zoom earlier this month. He was determined to appear as calm as possible, though. COVID-19 was just starting to spike around the world, so Jae feared his hyperventilating would freak out the driver and he'd get thrown out of the car. Someway, somehow, Jae was able to compose himself enough to ask the driver to take him to the hospital. There, doctors informed Jae that he wasn't dying after all. He was having a panic attack and was later diagnosed with panic disorder. "The greatest sigh of relief I've sighed in my life was the moment the doctor told me that you can't die from panic attacks or panic disorder," Jae says. "Atlas dropped his boulder from my shoulder."