#panaginip

I....ended my life.

Honestly, never thought of that pero that was my dream. I had Crisandrea (my rl friend) instructed na if something happens to me, she should reach out to my mutuals here in Tumblr (this is true. I did tell her to do this if things happen last year?)

I remember her reaching out to Dilag first, she's inactive so Crisandrea reached out to her through Facebook. This shookt Dilag to the brim and she immediately contacted @/kirakirasaku to inform of my passing. Elle lodi told @/kerokenma about this and then @/nakizumie @/strawberrimilkshake (my og mutuals) and like JDHDJDJSUUD

IDK, ALL I REMEMBER IS MY BLOG IS FLOODED WITH MY (Old and new) MUTUALS' MENTIONS. Like, I remember seeing @/gayerthanthee @/mirakuel, @/lumpiang-toge, @/loubells, @/xxlightsaberxx, @/lemon-royalqueen, @/ricerice, @/keitoshi and many more

Pero sad nakalimutan ko name nya! Sinabi nya buong name nya saken eh. Sesearch ko sana kung totoong tao! Hahaha

Dreaming is one of the things that I'm most excited about. Finally having a good night sleep, cuddly pillows, and a temporary peace. Dreaming can take you wherever your mind sets you. It's like a surprise. Every dream, there's always a new adventure, an new set of people, and a whole lot of things to experience. I love it when I fly, jump down from the sky, meet aliens, and when I have supernatural powers. Unfortunately, dreams are not reality, but we can always make the best out of it.

Collage by me, @elisecstatic

Edited on autodesk sketchbook and lightroom

Nakaidlip ako after kumain ng tanghalian. Saglit palang ako nakakaidlip pero nanaginip na agad ako. Alam kong saglit lang kasi natulog ako 12:33 tapos naalimpungatan ako ng 12:45.

Anyway, eto nga, nanaginip na naman ako.

Nandun tayo sa place natin. Hindi ko alam kung saan basta sa place natin. Mayaman na siguro tayo kasi may sarili na tayong bahay. Nandun tayo sa kama natin. Nakahiga lang ako, nakaupo ikaw. Nagpo-phone ka ata tapos ako, nakahiga. Siguro, hindi ako makapaniwala na magkatabi ulit tayo.

Tumingin ka sa'kin tapos tumabi kasi tinititigan lang kita. Magkabilang side nakapwesto ung katawan natin pero magkaharap ung mukha natin. Gets? Basta yun.

Tinanong mo ako, "Ano iniisip mo?". Umiiling lang ako pero pinilit mo pa rin ako magsalita. Sabi ko, "Hindi ako makapaniwala na magkasama ulit tayo." Umiiyak na naman ako habang nakatingin sa'yo kasi eto ung mahal ko, katabi ko, kasama ko, at mahal ulit ako.

Sinagot mo ako, "Hindi na ako mawawala sa'yo. Pakabait ka kasi tukmol ka." May kasama pang hampas sa ulo amp hahahaha natatawa ako kasi ganyan ka talaga in real life.

Wala na, umiyak na lang ako sa panaginip ko. Nilagay mo ung noo mo sa bibig ko. Umiiyak ka na rin. Sinabayan mo ko pero hindi yun iyak na malungkot. Nakangiti ikaw tapos sabi mo, "Mahal naman talaga kita. Hindi yun nawala."

Tapos nagising na ako. Narinig ko ung nanay ko magsalita e. Kakatapos lang maghugas ng pinggan. Wala lang. Namimiss lang siguro kita ng sobra kaya kita napanaginipan o baka iniisip mo ako diba ganern yun hahahaha pero shempre, hindi ako aasa.

Ika'y nakikita ngunit hindi mahawakan.