#pageoftheday

And you only know about this one

I have lived a million days

And we only met on this one

I have awaken to a million sunrises

But there's something different about this one

I have waited on a million sunsets

But I've never seen colours like this one

I have been awake for a million stars

And I've never seen a constellation like this one

I have fought a million battles

But none of them hurt me like this one

I have written a million poems

But none of them sounded like this one

I have loved a million people

But none of them wounded me like you did

I have told a million lies

But never spoke of a truth like this one

I have sung a million songs

But no one listened to them like you did

I have prayed a million times

But I've never seen any of them answered like this one

I have lived a million lives

And you only know about this one

Our world stops

Silence becomes heavy and deafening

It sits where you used to sit

And every "hey, how are you?"

Becomes "hey, I'm thinking about you"

And sometimes I would like to show them my wounds

But I'm still tending to them

And when the silence becomes too thick

I'll choke on it and fill the void with my tears

In between that silence is a prayer of your name

A name that leaves me warm and empty

And this silence promises to keep me company

Up until my world thwarts again

Until my world moves again

All it really wants to do is to look back at it's own reflection,

Expecting a pure, rippleless surface.

And expectations breed disappointment,

or so they say.

And things we experience,

they come in waves.

So when the reflection shows a distorted, grotesque image,

I can't help but to think that

maybe this truly is my real face.

There's a bunch of graves scattered around

I don't dare touch them

They are too sacred to be around

In them are buried the dreams

That I had to squeeze the life out of

With my own two hands

One day I'll go visit them

I'll read their names from the headstones

And I'll acknowledge them

One day I'll put flowers on them and I'll thank them

One day I'll write an eulogy for them and I'll cry for them

But for now let the dead dreams lie

As it's better for them to be dead then be alive

I'm holding onto the flowers you gave me that night

The fading scent of wilting flowers

The petals are falling one by one

And I don't know how long I can hold onto them

Till they all fall apart

I asked you

To kiss me

Was it that easy to leave me

On those blueberry hills

I found my sound

By losing my heart

Some nights I wonder

Was it a fair trade

Was it an empty sacrifice

On those blueberry berry hills

I lost my heart

It's been years since

My sound is getting colourless

Won't you come

and paint my world again

We could meet on those blueberry hills

Like we met long ago

Before time existed

We stood here side by side

Rooted in the same hill

Do you remember, my love?

Our branches were intertwined

And we bore the same fruit

On those blueberry hills

let's meet again

You can give me the fruit of sound again

And I'll give you my heart again

We can weave this story again

On these blueberry hills

~inspired by the song

Your daughter bleeds herself dry every night

Is she weak if she cries?

Mother did you know?

There's no one to dry these tears

There's no one to cry with her

Mother did you know?

She still doesn't know what love is

She looks for it in bottomless bottles and blue bruises

Mother did you know?

Her heart aches when she eats warm bread

She wishes her heart could feel that warm too

Mother did you know?

Your daughter is finally learning to love

She is finally learning to be loved

She wishes that you could've felt it too

Mother did you know?

Your daughter learned how to forgive

So her heart could feel lighter now

Mother did you know?

She found strength in her tears

The bruises are nothing but hateful aftermaths

Mother did you know?

Your daughter has a daughter now

She's trying her best

Just like you did

She's trying to teach her the gift of sisterhood

So she'll never have to cry alone like her

So she'll know what love looks and feels like