Hallo my lil' Star Blobs!!
I'm back, and- its more about my writer stuff!!
Down below, where the shamrock colors recede, where life melts into the silent ambience, a resounding reverberation of the echoes of blue, bubbling gently. Unlike the waves & salt-laced horizons— here, deep underneath the unbroken waters contrast the surface like serenity amidst the vehemence of a fauvist-painted piece, silence spread vastly. Here, I find myself stalwart, sinking in the deluge of somber, nothing to belittle of my weathered pride— pigrita chaining down the helpless swishes and flails of my limbs. Once vibrant hues, now a muted descent into the murky, azure blue- not my voice heard through the bubbles escaping my mouth and nostrils— it felt like the ocean firmly cradling my cold form, both inside and out, and slowly, the light of the surface dissipates from vision, the murmurs of non-existence— time begun to stall on me, or even halt with their dawdling hands, pressure releasing from my mind. Ironic that the compression is… relaxing, in a way.
Then, the coarse sand slipped in between my feet– a small puff of cloud confronted my gaze, finally reaching the bottom of this cerulean abyss. Alas, I was… alone. Not only in terms of people, but any significant marine life too. This solitary embrace was more than enough as… conformity. Not completely “comfort”, but a likeness of gentle prickle of a blade ghosting near skin- despite this being arbitrary, I find this nil-touched horizon as a quiet escape- lamentation, a sorrow bitterly underneath the sheets of my own bed, just like how my palms sift into the unevenly coarse ground I sit on, unceremoniously. A view of encapsulated darkness, for miles to be seen clear like daylights out of my own field. No dread overcame my shivering, lonesome body- not even the relentless squeeze of my lungs, only the undisturbed silence of these twilight waters, and my solemn form existing without care.
And yet, after the brief flicker of my eyes– warmth felt near me- a luminous glow, light not made by the hands of others, but a tethered ferry to the seafloor, guiding but never reminding of what is above, perhaps. Staying a while here does not bring guilt, being just yonder from the line of water and air, a possible mimicry of space, maybe. Which to that, I enjoy- nothing here buries me, but only lets me be, like sunken wreckage, never a stray flotsam. Just.. hugging me, in the suffocating embrace of sorrow- breadth of air no longer something to fear or worry. Guises of judgement and contempt gazes, shine none in these reaches of the sea; so down, down I’ll go- into the engulfing abyss of the oceans I shall go again, down and down into the sea I forevermore shall go.