Out of all my pmatga au's, I don't think I make it clear enough on here that I have a favorite of them all, because so far literally most of the content I have of it is very close to barely any posts of it or none at all aside from it being named and listed a couple times.
I really love Amnesia AU. I love it. I love how I wrote it, I love the concepts, I love getting to research about many different things so I could go into topics as carefully and as responsibly as I can, I love how I wrote the characters, I love how I am trying my absolute hardest to not make them one dimensional and want them to be complex or have complicated feelings about the situation they're in, I love the tragedy, I love the hope, I love the pain, I love the healing, I love the friendships and close bonds, I love the friendly relationships that never came to be, I love the fact that no one is completely good or evil, I love the fact I made it clear that forgiveness is hard for some people and I love that not everyone is going to forgive others for what they did in the past.
I love Amnesia Skeebo and him forgetting who he was but not forgetting the way he felt when he went through what he did, I love the Amnesia AU version of his friends that are given a name for being killers when they're nothing but teenagers who just wanted to live with their friend getting the justice he deserves, I love Pac and not knowing how to feel or who to be mad at when his world is turned upside down, I love Cyli and Spiral that are in the middle of realizing that they have made mistakes that only made Skeebo act worse towards them for their behavior, I love Stratos who never wanted this job and is stuck in it, I love Sir C who realizes that all the things he supposedly remembers weren't real and he has been feeding into a lie set by the system to make the yellow ones appear as this pure species with no flaws whatsoever, I love Specter and Dr. Buttocks that were two figures that died in the war and ended up being pushed away for going on the other side when they didn't have a choice, I love the fact that they turn into what people perceived them as and that was whatever Betrayus made them out to be, I love Betrayus who was never in control for how his life ended out and only gains control when something happens to an innocent person who never should have been involved, I love Tip and Apex and the little baby they co-parent because that little guy and Tip's big heart and hope is the only reason why Apex is still trying to live, I love Apex's guilt over what happened with Zac, I love Tip is trying so hard to be strong knowing he's terrified at the concept of losing another person in his life, I love the fact that Pac's parents aren't what people said they were and I love the fact that they were responsible for multiple things as well.
I love the fact, in the words of Greg Universe, there is no such thing as a good war. Both sides get hurt in one.
I love that healing comes in different ways and it takes time and that it isn't always squeaky clean.
I love that self love is hard if someone has had way too much happen for them to think they deserve it.
I love the fact that we are all complicated and our morality and beliefs can make us react to certain scenarios in different ways.
I love that forgiveness is hard here.
I love writing alternate universes with actual intention.
I love getting to write about being a person with a soul.
I could talk about this alternate universe for hours I love it so much.
