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dude this took forFUCKINGever but ill do something better later. its only midnight afterall

if you couldnt tell by the speed paint title, i drew this with a trackpad mouse. if you didnt check the speed paint description, it took me longer than it should have because i forgot rotating stuff gives it antialiasing.

old tutorial by tgcg i use whenever i make mspaint art - [here]

#js paint #ms paint #drawn with a mouse #or really...#drawn with a trackpad #i wonder is anyones noticed my obssessive use of ellipsis on this platform #413 #homestuck #john egbert #j egbert #art #digital art #Youtube

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I was born with a mask

Or I might as well have been

I didn't even know what my own face looked like

As the years went on

I added to it

Layers upon layers caked onto my face

A protective shell

But you were by my side when there were cracks in it

You loved me when the mask was still new and didn't cover much

You were with me for so long, through so much

I thought

That after the long and arduous process

Of hammering at this ceramic

To chip away the layers

And let my face feel the sun

You would rejoice as I did at seeing my face

But instead I have to wonder if you ever loved me in the first place

And chip you off of my heart

#some disjointed thoughts about unmasking autism #and losing friends I've had since childhood #or really...#having to come to terms with the fact that they aren't being good friends to me #that they got weird about me stimming in public #just flapping my arms excitedly #that they got mad at me for not staying for an additional activity due to sensory overwhelm #that when i first told them i was autistic and tried to lighten the mood #one of them said its not appropriate to joke about mental illness and shut me down from discussing it #trying to get me to skip a night of my meds so i could drink with them #becoming really aloof with me when i went semi verbal #messaging my mom behind my back to tell her i needed more therapy because i set boundaries about what i could handle and that was rude #the more confident and happy with myself I've become #the less they've liked me #and its hard to let go of friends youve had for so long #especially when those friends were among the only ones you had for a long time when you felt like you couldnt make friends #but maybe it was the fact that i struggled so much to make friends that my standards were kind of low #this kinda just hit me cause i was thinking about my birthday party #and i realized i didnt want them to be there #because they keep making me feel bad #they accepted me when i was The Weird Kid #but they cant accept me as an autistic adult #and they don't have to #just like i don't have to keep putting up with it

2: Did you get to sleep in today?

3: You never know what you got until you lose it?

2. Yep! When I do sleep, I enjoy sleeping in a little bit~ Heehee!

3. That feels like more of a statement than a question. I guess it must be asking if I've lost something? To be honest uh. I mean. Beyond the loss of family and all, I guess I've been lucky enough to not have lost much.

#Or really...#Have much to lose in the first place.

Procrastination Pro tip 18768: "Out with the old in with the new!"

Don't like your current desk? Is it cramping your last minute cramming study style? is it distracting you from that 3000 word essay you need to do in 2 hours? Why not, buy a whole new office space that way you get a beautiful new work area and yonks of procrastination time! Problem solved.

#I did this #Only cause my desk isn't my desk #and it's owner wants it back #procastination #Or really...#Procasdeskination #See what I did there

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the people who least suspect it are the first to go I’m going to miss you

..l..

I'll miss you too

#replies #statefode #or really...#spookyfode #since it's halloween and all #I can't un block quote #damn