#ooc.reply

❝ You never were good at this, were you? Feelings. ❞

❝ I was six, so. ❞

❝ You're not six anymore. So what are you doing? ❞

❝ ... ❞

❝ Is it because Fefe- ❞

❝ No. ❞

❝ I'm glad you are so sure. I suppose you did meet her before that all happened. ❞

❝ What are you even getting at? ❞

❝ I was still a fresh scorch mark on the meteor floor when you two set up in the horn pile. ❞

❝ It wasn't like that.❞

❝ No, I suppose we never really knew what it was like. ❞

❝ ... ❞

❝ So. What is this like? ❞

❝ Man, I don't know. ❞

❝ I think you do. ❞

❝ .. She's my friend. I want her to be happy? ❞

❝ She wants more than you want to give her. Will she be happy when she figures that out? ❞

❝ ... Probably not. ❞

❝ I think you are treating her like a barkbeast in its final perigees, just giving her whatever you think will make her happy because any day could be the one she dies too. ❞

[Hello, thank you 4 the concern.....]

[As an rp blog owner I kind of expect to get asks like this, most of my blogs do get alot of weird asks that i usually dont answer.]

[I am a minor so i find some of the asks weird sometimes but i answer most of them anyway]

❝ Dwelling on the past is useless. ❞

❝ I know. ❞

❝ So you know there would've been no convincing her until this very moment. ❞

❝ I know. ❞

❝ And- ❞

❝ I know, okay? I get it. Everything is inevitable and foretold and whatever- that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. ❞

❝ It doesn't have to. ❞

❝ But it will. ❞

❝ I think you like being miserable, I think you've forgotten how to be anything else. ❞

❝ Uh huh. Sure. ❞

❝ She is still alive, is that not a good thing? ❞

❝ She's barely responding to anything. I doubt she'd let a life player near her, I doubt she'd want to go wading around the life temple's waters— most of the sprites are still missing. Sure, she's alive. For how long? ❞

❝ Difficult. Reminds me of someone. ❞

☏: A voice message from my muse.

"Hey."

[There's strain in their voice, managed but still notable. An effort is being made to keep their voice even.]

"I don't remember if I told you.. last time I stopped by- the days are kind of blurring together, but."

[A pause.]

"No.. I think I did. I messaged you, about the whole dying thing. Just wanted to make sure you were in the loop about that."

[Another pause. Longer.]

+POSITIVE:

You make me laugh | I am inspired by you | I trust you wholeheartedly | I consider you a role model | I am interested in you romantically I am interested in you sexually | I am protective over you | I support you | In my ideal world, you are happy | You give me cute aggression | You have done so much for me l Your approval is meaningful to me l I think of you often | I hope you are a permanent fixture in my life | You don't get enough credit | Your presence is a mood boost

NEUTRAL:

We are vibing | I like your posts | I respect what you've been through | I hope you get what you deserve | We may not be close, but I enjoy what we have | I wish you would seek help | Knowing you has changed me | I consider you trustworthy | You remind me of myself | | like bumping into you at the function | l idolize you | We share a lot of common interests | You're cool

-NEGATIVE:

❝ I've heard of voidrot before, but that's all it's been really— that thing unlucky psionics get stuck with. ❞

❝ So, I don't know how much I'm helping. Or if I'm helping at all. ❞

..—

❝ I mean.. it's not like I'm getting nothing out of it, I'm not selfless. She's taking a bunch of excess psi off my hands. ❞

❝ I probably just like having some crisis to manage. Some futile effort to struggle against so I can pat myself on the back and say "congrats you were somewhat bearable" this month. A purpose. ❞

..—

❝ And then, I think she wants it to be a quad thing. ❞

...?

❝ Yeah, being worried about a guy dying is textbook pity. It's not like she pulled it out of nowhere. ❞

❝ I think she'd probably feel.. more secure? If it was a quadrant thing. In the way that I'd have an ongoing responsibility as her partner not to let her die. ❞

❝ But, y'know, even if I felt that sort of way about her.. I'm not stable enough for any sort of relationship. ❞

...

radius. who/what do they reach for first in a crisis ?

Very dependent on the type of crisis! When it requires their active attention, they tend to just handle things themself.

When it's a future crisis that they aren't able to work at yet, they've started doing random activities with dave and occasionally karkat

sacrum. what sacrifices have they made ?

They've died more times than they can remember and they'll die again. Their own health and safety isn't something they really consider a sacrifice anymore.