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ONLY EXCEPTION

Growing up you never believed in love, you thought it was something that could only hurt you and mess you up and having to witness your friend’s heartbreaks and the amount of crying and the way they shut off people was more than enough for you to keep thinking that way, and that was when you vowed to not fall in love.

Even if your friends bounced back and were happy once again, but you still refused too. Yet, once Mark Lee entered your life, you felt as if the view were starting to change. It started to scare you as all the feelings were unfamiliar to you. It was something you have never experienced before and something you have vowed to never experienced. Yet here right now, Mark has changing all of that.

Maybe it was the way he was so soft, sweet and charming in many ways and not to mention how he cared for you and always there for you. Also maybe how nerdy cute he looked when he in his round glasses where you could see the resemblance of ‘Harry Potter’ there.

You had met Mark from your friends, they all knew Mark from a club activity. And they decided to bring him along on one night when we all went out for a bowling games. Starting from there you had a nice time and you two hit it off and became close.

Mark was someone you trusted even if it’s just barely around nine months of being friends. He knew your secrets, your fears and your dreams, he literally knew everything about you. You felt safe with him as you felt at home, but that didn’t mean that your dark thoughts of love changed. As the dark thoughts always consumed your self-esteem and reminding you that love only caused heartbreaks and pain.

So since that, you started grew a bit more cautious around him, not wanting to fall in deeper than you have already. As those dark thoughts has consumed you and take over which made your self-esteem becoming low day by day.

But he was very observant person and he noticed quickly and when he approached to ask you about it. But then you shrugged it off saying you were tired and that it was long day for you, and he wouldn’t push it as he knows how you are but he just reminded you that he will always there for you for anything.

You felt bad as you had pushed him away like that when he’s the closest thing you got that you feel like home, but you didn’t want to fall in love and also you didn’t want to experience pain. But while you were in deep thoughts, you were interrupted when you heard a knock on your door.

You were surprised and shocked to see Mark was there with snacks and drinks at two in the morning. Yet, a soft smile formed on your face and you let him in when your brain was actually telling you to do the otherwise. Then you asked him why he came at this kind of hour. “Is everything okay Mark? I mean thanks for the snacks and drinks but IT’S 2AM right now. Like I mean shouldn’t you be on your bed now?” Mark just grin a smile at my remarks. “Shouldn’t you be closing your eyes too then?” he responded. “Touche, no but seriously is everything okay?” you asked him while raising your eyebrows.

“I should be the one asking you that, are you okay Mia? This past few days, did you know that you are getting distant with me, you’re keeping pushing me away. So I need to know what’s wrong because I can’t sleep knowing something’s not right.” You kinda flustered by his questions. “Nothing is wrong Mark, everything is fine. I’m not pushing you away.” You answered while trying not to look straight into his eyes which are your weakness.

“Yes definitely you are Mia, and I want to know what’s wrong or if there’s anything bothered you. I can’t afford to lose you Mia, you mean so much to me.” He said while getting closer to you, as you keep moving backwards since just now. In all honesty you thought about lying once more again, but you couldn’t do that as he was straight in front of you so you came off clean. “You’re right Mark, I am pushing you away this past few days and I’m sorry for what I’ve done but I’m seriously scared Mark.”

“Scared of what Mia? You know I’m always here if someone is hurting you. I’ll kick their asses.” Mark explained to knows the real reason from you. “No Mark. Nobody is hurting me, it’s just that I’m scared of myself. Scared of falling for you more Mark, I love you, but I’m scared that I’ll just end up getting my heart broken. Even though I’ve been trying to think only good thoughts on us but I can’t. It’s like my head had been full of negative thoughts and always think of the worst scenario ever. So I thought that pushing you away was the only best thing to do.”

“Mia…, you could have just told me that, I know it’s hard but I promise you that being in love isn’t bad at all. After all, I am in love with you too, and I actually have been falling for you since the first day we met.” Mark giving you an assurance for you to accept everything without running further way.

“I know but all these negative and scary thoughts Mark, what if we get together then to just realised that we don’t actually love one another like we thought.” You said with your head down low. “Hey look at me, I promise you that I love you and when we are together I’ll loves and care for you forever. I seriously mean it Mia, you meant so much to me. Whatever struggle we will face it together and get through it together. So can you now please be my girlfriend? Coz I want to take you out on dates on public to let everyone knows you are mine.”

You let out a small laugh with how Mark trying hard to convinced you onto what he said. “Mark Lee you also mean so much to me too, so of course I’ll be your girlfriend.” And that was enough for him to give you a bone crushing hug and a small kiss in the forehead. Maybe in the end, this will cause you pain and a heartbreak in some other time but you knew damn well that Mark Lee was worth for it.