#oneiromancy

"I'm not tormenting anyone. Scary dreams are great! What I love is when this big 'en chases me..." - Little Sarah

I thought somewhere I'd try to take    // a few things off before I break: The red dress to the forest floor    // I don't want to be this anymore!

So now I'm walking through my forest    // hand in hand, but I'm with you. Yet I live here, and you're my tourist,    // just do what you came to do.

“You won’t believe what your parents have been up to since your ‘funeral,’” Oikawa drawled, twirling his lighter idly as he flicked it open and closed repeatedly. “They have this creepy little shrine, front and center in the hallway so you can’t even go to the bathroom without walking right by you. And it’s not a very flattering picture, either - a little grouchy and scowling. What better than the judgment of the dead when you wanna take a piss in the middle of the night, amiright? That sure as hell won’t give anyone a complex!”

“That reminds me,” Yamaki said. “I was meaning to ask you, sir.”

“Hm?” Oikawa glanced over his shoulder at Yamaki.

“The body, sir,” Yamaki said. “Who did the Ichijoujis bury, if it wasn’t Osamu? Where did it even come from?”

“Oh, that,” Oikawa said, breezily.

Yamaki’s expression nearly facefaulted at his superior’s reaction, given that they were talking about a cadaver. It was hardly a topic he expected anyone to be so nonchalant about. “Yes, that, sir.”

“Yamaki, dozens of people die every day, especially in a city the size of Tokyo,” Oikawa said, waving the lighter about in the air as he used it to gesture. “The city morgue always seems to have at least one Hanako or Taro Yamada lying around, with no family or friends to identify them. Or at the very least, no one who cared enough to identify them.”

Yamaki went perfectly quiet as his face turned a little green at the implication.

“And it’s not like anyone is going to randomly dig up the grave to do a DNA test after the funeral, you know?” Oikawa continued, chuckling despite the grim subject. “Especially when they have no reason to suspect anything.” Another chuckle escaped him. “Not that there’s much DNA to find from ashes after it was cremated.”

The junior detective grimaced, his lips pulling into a tight frown.

“And even if they did, so what?” Oikawa said, tilting his head as he smiled at his junior. “‘Whoops’, and all that. Looks like the morgue made a mistake, huh? Easy enough to do when the body’s unrecognizable due to the ‘wreck.’ The city’d owe, what, a couple thousand in apology money? And some token fall guy resigning, with all the deeply apologetic bows the family could ever want.”

“It would make the city look very incompetent,” Yamaki pointed out. “And lose some face in the eyes of the public.”

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reading i did for myself based on a dream i had a few nights ago - divine timing sure is crazy because i asked for a bit of a challenge that would bring me a breakthrough, and ive been working on this reading whenever i can for the past few days, and while finishing it everything started clicking. if i had finished it a few days ago these things wouldnt have made sense. ALSO SO GLAD I GOT TO TRY OUT MY NEW STARSEED ORACLE DECK 🤍

dream from apollo

- prophetic dragon/ppl fighting wars to get its power/pink calla lily

- 444: putting in effort, laying hard-won groundwork for amazing growth and abundance. “youre on the right path to manifest your desires through hard work and intentionality.”

- 7557: inner strength directing/protecting efforts

- 333, from athena: “letting go of worry and anxiety. self-expression and creative potential.” “to keep going, to live your life exactly as you want to. trusting your intuition and being your best, most confident self takes creativity and real, tangible efforts. good thing youre blessed with an incredible reservoir of inner strength! opportunities are attracted to ingenuity and courage!”

- 11111, 111 x2, 1111: “opportunities are soaring your direction! doors are being flung wide open! the time us now. if youve been feeling defeated or hopeless, your spirit guides are urging you to shift perspective. dont be too surprised if you experience some eye-opening epiphanies; even the smallest changes can make enormous ripples into your future.”

- 1818: taking actions towards spirituality, growth, finances. staying optimistic and determined

- 22, 222, 2222: connecting with higher self, making the right decision, staying open minded, finding clarity and truth

- 2244: not believing in myself - “accept the possibility of disappointment and do it anyway.”

- 777 x3: “what practices bring you peace? however youre incorporating growth into your life, make sure youre doing it with consistency.” greater awareness

- 888888, 888: “your hard work will pay off; achievement and recognition are on the horizon! even when things feel overwhelming or disappointing, trust that that feeling will pass. continue to be optimistic”

- 1122, 1212, 1221: “you have been consumed with inner conflict and need to address it before it causes damage. self-doubt and insecurities may be holding you back from making major growth moves. turn your attention toward making real, positive change and choices for your mental health. actively put your needs first!” “this is a reminder that you are not alone. spirit team is reaching out, guidibg you through this period of conflict. you need to let go of any conflicts or burdens that are hurting your inner peace.”

- 999: “hindsight allows you to see the past with greater clarity. let go of who you used to be. ditch those patterns that no longer serve you.”

- 1155: creating change in myself

- 1991: recognizing that my self and higher self are one in the same, but my ego blocks my higher self out.

beltane spread:

- how can i open my heart chakra?

divine feminine - what am i ready to receive this season?

* queen of cups: gentleness, calm, compassion, comfort

divine masculine - where is my consciousness focused this season?

* 10 of pentacles: cultivating a legacy, hard work, considering goals and projects with others, family

union - how can i embrace and balance these two energies?

* king of wands Rx: letting go of the fear of failure, taking breaks and enjoying what im doing, relaxing expectations, stepping out of comfort zone

fertility - what creative potential can be tapped this season?

* 9 of pentacles: tapping into former lessons, knowledge, and wisdom. relaxing after efforts paying off

manifestation - what is a possible result of this seasons creative work?

* 3 of cups: friendship, community, connections, shared interests and celebrations

my interpretation: using what ive learned to grow and let go, relaxing, being compassionate towards myself, creating building blocks for later. bettering myself emotionally and creatively at the same time, feeling bolder after growth, less afraid of risks, creative group projects

Alpha Lyrae/Vega: the starting point, the messenger of light. What is this dream trying to tell you?

* we the hathors - deep love, mothers milk, birth as a portal: “this is a card of extreme potency. of femininity. of creation. and of birth. youre being called to surrender to your sacred femininity. to create and surrender to your own creations. you may be going through a transition right now - moving from one way of being to another. if so, youre being reminded that youre cradled in a sacred container. that youre more held than you can possibly imagine. and you have access to more love than your heart can bear.”

Beta Lyrae/Sheliak: communication, lessons. where potential lies. How is this dream trying to communicate this message/teach this lesson to you? Is there any symbolism that needs to be addressed or translated?

- python/typhon (hard to tell because of conflation.)

* water your garden - nourishment, body care, tenderness, rest: “earth is a seasonal planet, and, as such, youre a seasonal being. cyclic. you cant be ‘on’ and in ‘full bloom’ month after month, day after day. youre strongly being called to put on the brakes, rest, and refuel. to take a moment to restock and replenish, and slow right on down. youre being called to take responsibility for your wellbeing, to put your health and body first. look after your precious body and mind. give yourself enough time to recover when you find yourself running on your reserves.”

- feng shui dragon veins?

* star family - youre part of a team of souls. call in support

- pale pink calla lily: purity, innocence, peace, truth, light, love, hope, compassion, kindness, grace, care, healing - especially the heart, emotional growth, comfort, divine feminine, new beginnings, change, soul/spirit. also relating to my guardian spirit ive talked to

* the great severing - mars energy, anger, conflict, softening to love: “this is a shadow card: one that may feel confrontational. dont be afraid - its here to bring to the surface anything thats standing in the way of letting love in. the warring planet of mars is our constant reminder that its important to soften, forgive, and find our way back to love. find a way to see the innocence in all people, especially yourself.”

- idk wtf the orb represented? all i can think of is an 8-ball

* earth school - life lessons, soul growth, study, higher learning: “planet earth is a great initiation for the soul and life lessons are the curriculum for which we enroll. these arent one time lessons but themes we choose to circle around, deepening our experience of them as we make our way through the spiral of life. life lessons arent only about getting it right - theyre also about getting it wrong. remembering that earth is a planet of polarity helps with this understanding.”

M57/Ring Nebula: the point of sacrifice. something must be lost to gain something new. What do you need to lose to gain a better understanding of this dream?

* i remember - soul plan, the fated life vs the destiny life: “the fated life is the one we were born into. the destiny life is the one our soul chooses, and it takes courage and faith.” facing a choice, confronting doubt.

Gamma Lyrae/Sulafat: the development of talents, expression of ideas, creativity, compassion, and love. What is this dream suggesting you need to develop or express?

* loosen your grip - coping mechanisms, density, addiction, let divinity in: “if youre clinging to anything, youre resisting the natural flow of who you are. the things we cling to are so often those we most need to let go of: the food, the substances, tge relationship, the job, the people-pleasing. the things we cling to often cover up our most vulnerable space- the part were most afraid to leave empty; the part we guard but dont let grace into. ‘you can only lose what you cling to.’ if this card appears, youre being called to find the courage to loosen your grip and give up control. to release your coping mechanisms and leave space for grace and divinity to enter. to surrender all that feels dense to the divine. loosening your grip doesnt mean that what youre clinging to will go away. it may. or it might stay. but you can be sure that what is for you, will find you. and youll breathe easier knowing that youve shifted from relying on your own strength to surrendering to the grace of life.”

Delta Lyrae: body/mind/spirit and how they are interact with one another. How are your mind, body, and spirit, interacting with each other?

* called - soul gifts and training, its time to step up (overall); the courageous peony - multifaceted and unique nature, let yourself be seen (body); you got the love - hadarian energy, codependency, boundaries (mind); earthed - learning how to be human, in the world but not of it (spirit): blessed with gifts i need to use to bring higher consciousness and grow myself. “flowers dont open and close according to who walks by. they embrace all of what they are and show it to the world around them.” needing to set boundaries in relationships. finding balance between transcendence and immanence.

Epsilon Lyrae/Double-Double: higher self/intuition or self actualization. illusions. What illusions are holding you back? How can your intuition guide you through these illusions?

* burnt ace of spades: “The Ace of Spades is the most powerful card in the Spades suit, and Aces always represent beginnings, raw energy, and concentrated force. Combined with the Spades suit (which governs the mind, challenges, and deep inner work), you get a card that cuts through illusion and forces clarity. this card amplifies whatever it touches to the absolute maximum.” firey potential, burning away illusions. potentially referencing agni or fire magic of some sort, or also 1h saturn

* covered eyes king of hearts: “emotional wisdom and compassionate leadership. represents a person who has mastered their feelings rather than being ruled by them. feeling deeply and staying grounded.” blindfold work, improving sensing of energy. also relating to saturn

* 6 of clubs: unexpected challenges, stagnant energy, not recognizing myself or my accomplishments.

Zeta Lyrae: seeing past illusions, the heart of the matter, the rawest truth. What is the heart of the matter? What caused this dream?