#onedirection 1d

A/n: Hi! So this is my first post and I'll probably be basing all my posts on this context because I've always wanted to imagine what being friends with One Direction would be like. Thank you <3

The 1D boys and you are the craziest group in the whole world, and everyone knows it. Even though in reality you aren’t a member of the band and actually sing quite bad, you’re basically part of it.  Probably because the boys love you and therefore so do fans, and because you were there since day one. To be honest, it’s kinda weird how you met. Paul, the acknowledge and loved body guard of the boys, is your father, and when he started working for them you had to go along given that you couldn’t possibly stay at your mother’s. And that’s how it began. You started with small chit-chat, to filming their diaries, and eventually hanging out with them at all times. There were numerous of interviews you had participated in, including ‘The Late Late Show with James Corden’ where you had to get a small tattoo spelling I love Louis Tomlinson after loosing a dare, ‘The Ellen DeGeneres Show’ and many others. Seats next to the boys are always reserved for you in the EMAs and the BRITs where you had to watch Harry running late for his award after excusing himself to go to the bathroom. My god.

However, that means paparazzi and fans following you everywhere, even when you aren’t with them, after all, you are basically a celebrity too. Sometimes you have to wake up with a full on article of ‘Y/n Higgins’ next boyfriend?’, but the boys are always there to cheer you up, and honestly, you wouldn’t change them for the world. Nevertheless, the press knows not to mess up with you or else they’ll have the biggest fandom coming at them.

I guess this all started when I heard about the break one direction was going to be taking this year. I wasn’t actually devastated upon hearing the news and this surprised me. If I am ever asked who the very first love of my life was I would diffidently say these five boys. I used to stay up light with my iPod under the covers reading fan fiction under their hashtag on Instagram and I would randomly google their names to see what they were up to. I would make up fantasies and scenarios that were completely bizarre and my head and they would be so well thought out that I actually felt as if I truly did know them. I had one where I was a remember of the team and Niall fell in love with me. I ended up getting in an accident and being paralyzed from the waist down and he took a year off to take care of me. That was one my darker fantasies and I didn’t even know fourteen year old me has such a side to me.

I would even feel weird when others spoke about them. It’s sort of like when someone speaks of your best friend so fondly that they make it sound like they’re best friends with them as well. I always felt like that when One Direction was brought up. I felt like someone was trying to take my best friends from me. It felt weird and wrong and I never really told anyone about it because it seems deranged and physitic, but I always felt that way. I felt like anyone else who ever thought they could possibly be a bigger fan than me was only kidding themselves. I went through a faze when I was fourteen when I decided I over them and I don’t know why. I think I was so obsessed that it was beginning to concern me and I decided to move on.

The thing was, I just couldn’t. I still thought about them all the time and I still ended up watching countless hours of their interviews or funny moments. It was like a toxic relationship that you refuse to walk away from. It was when I was content and not really looking to get over them that it happened.