#omsoc

i did it.  i'm gone from their lives.  they're better off that way.  i couldn't deal with it.  i don't want to bring them down anymore.  i can't be how i use to and how i want to be and i just feel like a disappointment to them.   so i'll do what i always do.  i'll run.  so that they can't--that they wont have to realize that they are better off without me... while i'm still there.  so i'll go, because it's better for them in the long run.  but i am so so sorry that i have to. but i'm weird like this.  so i do have to leave now. 

Going to ruin my life right now.  I can't deal anymore.  God damnit. 

I want you to hug me and tell me it's okay, that sometimes I understand nothing you say. 

I'm sorry you like someone like me.