I meant to post this yesterday, but I was dangling from a very frayed thread labeled âMonday.â You get it.
Anyone else grow up thinking they were dumb? Same. Plot twist: I wasnât. I just had hardcore ADHD, not the âI watched a TikTok about itâ kind. The real kind. Couldnât sit still, hated loud noises, no filter, fidgeted like a cat on a tin roof.
My school tested me for ADHD quite a bit. Diagnosis confirmed every time. Medication? Lord no. My parents were like, âCope naturally.â Somehow, I always had great grades, got put in âgiftedâ classes (Mississippi public school, so the bar was low), but flopped on any test with a timer. Shout-out to the ACT for the ego check.
Then came college. I showed up to orientation solo like a full-grown adult, only to realize half the freshmen couldnât make a doctorâs appointment or set an alarm. Meanwhile, Iâd been packing my own lunch since elementary school. I even made appointments for my roommate. A true public servant.
I started at a JUCO, not because Iâm dumb or poor, but because Iâm financially literate. I loved it. Cheerleading, routine, friends, no Greek life tax. Then I transferred to university⌠and hated every second. My arm injury ended cheer; I wasnât a freshman, I wasnât in a sorority, and suddenly I had the social ranking of a library printer. Most people treated my part-time job like it was a terminal illness (âYou workâŚI am so sorry??â). Like, come on, you're going to college to eventually work, why are you looking at me like one of the shivering puppies in the ASPCA commercials?
Ole Miss was beautiful, and I will scream Hotty Toddy forever, but the place is basically a dumpsite for rich kids who weren't smart enough for an Ivy League, and no hate to sororities, some of my best friends were in them elsewhere, but these girls thought âreal problemsâ meant emptying their outrageous monthly allowance from their parents on their fake IDs. I made a few decent connections, but between classes, work, and being broke, I didnât have time for surface-level friendships. Shout-out to my roommates, they were amazing and got me through it.
Anyway, I worked all through college, graduated early with honors, and still wasnât sure if I was smart⌠until I got thrown into the real world. And let me tell you: Gen Z canât have a basic human conversation without buffering, Boomers think âAirDropâ is a terrorist threat, and half of everyone just gets by on the bare minimum like ambition is an optional upgrade.
So maybe I am smart. Or maybe the bar is just unbearably low. Either way, here I am.