#oitnb imagine

The lights in Litchfield never really turned off.

They dimmed, sure, but never enough. The fluorescent buzz clung to everything, settling into your bones until even silence felt loud. Nights were the worst. At least days had distractions of noise, movement, and people, but nights left you alone with your own head.

And your head wasn’t kind.

You lay on your back, staring at the underside of the bunk above you, eyes tracing the same crack in the paint over and over like maybe if you memorized it, it would give you something to hold onto. Your blanket was pulled up to your chin, though it didn’t really help. The cold you felt wasn’t the kind fabric could fix.

Around you, the dorm had settled. A chorus of uneven breathing, the occasional cough, the rustle of someone turning in their sleep. It should’ve been comforting, proof you weren’t alone.

It didn’t feel that way.

Your chest ached in that dull, familiar way. Your breathing felt heavy and tight, like a weight was crushing your lungs. You swallowed hard, blinking against the sting behind your eyes.

Not tonight, you thought. Please not tonight.

But it didn’t work like that.

It never did.

You turned onto your side, curling in on yourself, knees tucked slightly toward your chest. If you made yourself small enough, quiet enough, maybe it wouldn’t take up so much space.

You didn’t hear her approach.

Nicky Nichols had always been good at that, moving like she didn’t quite belong to the same rules as everyone else. She was quiet when she wanted to be.

It was the slight dip of your mattress that gave her away.

Your eyes snapped open, breath catching.

“Nicky?” you whispered, pushing yourself up on your elbow. “What are you—”

“Easy, easy,” she murmured, settling beside you like she’d done it a hundred times before. “Don’t sound the alarm, yeah?”

Even in the dim light, you could see the small smirk tugging at her lips. But her eyes weren’t joking. They were fixed on you, searching your face like a puzzle.

You exhaled shakily, glancing around instinctively. “You’re gonna get in trouble.”

“Yeah, well,” she shrugged lightly, leaning back on one elbow. “Wouldn’t be the first time, sweetheart.”

You huffed softly despite yourself, but it faded quickly. Your shoulders sank again, the weight settling back in.

Nicky noticed immediately… She always did.

The smirk slipped just a little, something softer taking its place. She shifted closer. It wasn’t enough to crowd you, just enough that you could feel her presence.

“Alright,” she said quietly. “Talk to me.”

“There’s nothing to talk about,” you mumbled, looking away.

“Mm.” She tilted her head. “See, I don’t buy that. Not when you’ve been staring at that ceiling for the last hour.”

You blinked. “You’ve been watching me for an hour?”

“Don’t make it weird,” she shot back, but there was no bite to it. “Point is, I know that look.”

Your fingers twisted in the edge of your blanket. “What look?”

“The ‘everything feels like too much and also somehow not enough at the same time’ look.”

You went quiet.

Because yeah. That was exactly it.

Nicky’s expression softened further when you didn’t argue. She shifted again, this time a little closer, her knee brushing yours under the blanket.

“Yeah,” she said gently. “Thought so.”

Silence stretched between you, but it wasn’t uncomfortable. Just… full.

After a moment, her hand slipped under the blanket, hesitating for just a second before finding yours. Warm fingers curled loosely around your own, thumb brushing over your knuckles in a slow, absent rhythm.

You hadn’t realized how tense you were until that touch. Your shoulders loosened just slightly.

“Wanna tell me what we’re dealing with tonight?” she asked softly.

You let out a shaky breath. “I don’t even know. It’s just… everything.”

“Everything’s a big category, doll.”

“I know,” you said, voice cracking faintly. “That’s the problem.”

Nicky didn’t interrupt. Didn’t rush you. She just kept tracing those small, steady patterns against your skin.

“It’s like…” you swallowed, staring at your joined hands. “I feel empty. But also like there’s too much in my chest at the same time. And I can’t-” your voice wavered, “I can’t turn it off.” Your grip tightened around her hand without you meaning to. “Everything is so loud. There’s so much noise. I just want it to be quiet for a second.”

Nicky’s thumb stilled, then resumed, a little more deliberate this time.

“Yeah,” she murmured. “I get that.”

You glanced at her. “You do?”

She gave a small, humorless huff. “Sweetheart, I’ve spent a good chunk of my life trying to outrun my own brain. Drugs, bad decisions, questionable taste in women-” she paused, then smirked faintly, “okay, maybe not that last one.”

You let out a quiet laugh, watery but real.

“There it is,” she said softly, watching you like it was something precious. Then, more seriously, she shifted so she was sitting fully beside you, her shoulder pressing gently into yours. “Listen,” she continued, voice low. “I’m not gonna hit you with some ‘everything happens for a reason’ crap, because honestly? That’s garbage.” You snorted faintly. “But,” she added, nudging you lightly, “I am gonna sit here with you while it sucks. Because it does suck. And you shouldn’t have to deal with it alone.”

Your throat tightened again, but you nodded.

“Okay,” you whispered.

“Okay,” she echoed.

A quiet moment passed. Then another.

Eventually, almost without thinking, you leaned into her.

She didn’t react right away, didn’t make it a big deal. Just adjusted slightly, her arm sliding around your shoulders like it belonged there, pulling you in closer.

You let yourself sink into it.

Her warmth seeped into you slowly, grounding in a way you hadn’t expected. Her hand moved from yours to your arm, tracing slow, soothing lines up and down like she was trying to map you back together piece by piece.

“No need to be so tense. You’re safe,” she murmured, almost absentmindedly.

The words hit harder than they should’ve.

Your fingers curled into the fabric of her shirt. “Doesn’t really feel like it.”

“I know,” she said. “But you are. Right here? You’re okay.”

You closed your eyes, focusing on the sound of her voice, the steady rise and fall of her chest against you.

“Nicky?”

“Yeah?”

“…Why do you care so much?”

The question slipped out before you could stop it. She went still for just a second. Then her hand came up, gently tilting your chin so you had to look at her.

“Seriously?” she said softly. “That’s what you’re going with?”

You shrugged weakly. “I just—there’s a lot of people here. You don’t have to-”

“I know I don’t have to,” she cut in, not harsh, but firm. “I want to.” Her thumb brushed just under your eye, catching the faint dampness there. “You matter to me.” Her voice was quiet. “That’s kind of the whole thing.” Your chest tightened, but this time it felt… different. Warmer. “I’m not exactly great at a lot of things,” she went on, a small, self-aware smile tugging at her lips. “But I can sit with someone. I can make sure they don’t feel invisible. And you?” Her gaze softened. “You deserve that. Minimum.”

You held her gaze, something fragile and hopeful flickering in your chest. The space between you felt smaller now. It was more intimate.

Your eyes dropped to her lips for just a second, just long enough for her to notice.

Nicky’s breath hitched.

“Careful,” she murmured, voice low and teasing. “You keep looking at me like that, I’m gonna start getting ideas.”

A faint smile pulled at your lips. “Maybe I want you to.”

That surprised both of you. Her eyebrows lifted slightly, but her expression softened almost immediately after.

“Yeah?” she said quietly. You nodded, just once. That was all it took.

She leaned in slowly, giving you time, space, an out if you wanted it. When you didn’t pull away, her hand came up to cup your cheek, warm and steady.

The kiss was soft, like she was handling something breakable.

Your hand came up to her wrist instinctively, grounding yourself as you kissed her back. It was slow, unsure at first, then a little more certain when she didn’t pull away.

She deepened it just slightly, still gentle, still unhurried. No rush. No pressure. Just warmth and closeness and something that felt a little like quiet.

And that’s when it hit. It wasn’t soft. It wasn’t full or distant.

It was a hurricane. It crashed into you all at once, sharp and overwhelming, like everything you’d been holding back finally broke through. Your breath stuttered, chest tightening painfully as tears welled up faster than you could stop them.

You pulled back abruptly with a small, choked sound, turning your face away.

“Hey. Hey, what happened?” Nicky’s voice shifted instantly, concern cutting through every word.

“I-“ Your voice cracked, completely giving out as the first tear slipped down your cheek. “I’m sorry, I don’t know why-“

“Whoa, no, no, no,” she said quickly, gentle but firm. Her hand stayed on your face, guiding you back toward her just enough so she could see you. “Don’t apologize. Not for this.”

More tears followed, blurring your vision. You tried to wipe them away with the back of your hand, embarrassed, frustrated, overwhelmed all at once.

“I can’t-” you shook your head, breath hitching. “I can’t stop it.”

“You don’t have to,” Nicky said softly.

Her thumb brushed under your eye, catching a tear before it could fall. Then another. Her movements were slow and careful.

“C’mere,” she murmured.

She shifted closer, both hands coming up to cradle your face now, thumbs gently wiping away the steady stream of tears. She didn’t rush you. Didn’t shush you or tell you to calm down.

She just stayed.

“I’ve got you,” she whispered.

Your hands found her shirt, gripping tightly as your shoulders started to shake. The tears came harder now, quiet sobs slipping out no matter how much you tried to keep them in.

“I hate this,” you choked out. “I hate feeling like this all the time.”

“I know,” she said. “I know, baby.”

Her thumbs kept moving, brushing away tears as they fell, even when it was pointless, even when more replaced them instantly. She didn’t stop.

“You’re okay,” she murmured. “You’re okay, I’ve got you.” You shook your head, pressing closer like you were trying to hide from it. “You don’t have to feel okay right now. You just have to be here. With me.”

That broke something else open in you. A sob slipped out, louder this time, and before you could pull away, Nicky pulled you into her.

One arm wrapped tight around your shoulders, the other coming up to cradle the back of your head, pressing you gently into her chest.

Her hand moved through your hair in slow, repetitive strokes, grounding, steady. The kind of touch that didn’t ask anything from you.

You cried into her, muffled against her shirt, your fingers clutching the fabric like it was the only solid thing in the room.

She didn’t pull away. Didn’t loosen her hold. If anything, she held you tighter. Every so often, she’d press a soft kiss to the top of your head.

“Breathe for me,” she murmured after a moment, her hand sliding down to rest between your shoulder blades. “Slow, okay?”

You tried, really tried. You follow d the rhythm of her voice, the rise and fall of her chest beneath your cheek.

In… out. In… out. It took time.

But eventually, the sobs softened. The tears slowed, leaving behind shaky breaths and that hollow, exhausted feeling in your chest.

She kept holding you, her hand still moving gently along your back, her other hand occasionally coming up to brush away the last lingering tears from your cheeks when you pulled back slightly.

“Hey,” she said softly once your breathing steadied a little.

You sniffed, not quite meeting her eyes. “Sorry.”

She sighed. Her fingers tilted your chin up again.

“If you apologize one more time for having feelings, I’m gonna punch you,” she muttered.

A weak, tearful laugh slipped out of you.

Her thumb brushed under your eye again, catching the last tear that slipped free.

“You done?” she asked quietly.

“…For now,” you admitted.

“Alright,” she nodded. “We’ll take ‘for now.’”

There was a pause. Then she leaned in, slower this time, giving you more space than before.

You matched her, lips brushing in the lightest touch.

Her hand stayed on your cheek, thumb resting just beneath your eye like she was making sure no more tears slipped past unnoticed. Your hand came up to rest against her wrist, grounding yourself in her touch as you kissed her back.

When you pulled away, your forehead rested against hers again.

“How’s the noise now?” she whispered.

You exhaled slowly, eyes closing for a moment.

“…Quieter,” you said.

Her lips brushed yours again.

“Good,” she murmured.

You settled back into her, and she wrapped her arms around you without hesitation, holding you close like she wasn’t planning on moving anytime soon.

Her fingers traced slow, soothing patterns against your arm again, your shoulder, your hand.

And even though the lights still buzzed overhead, even though the walls hadn’t changed, it felt easier. The world around you didn’t have its hand around your throat.

Your lawyer, who had defended you in trial, had been really shitty and literally just gave up on you. He didn't even try to make your sentence shorter, that sorry excuse of a man. Lazy fuck.

Morello, the weird Italian lady who drove you and some other people down to the prison, opened the gate and let you and the other new inmates inside. You couldn't believe you were now an "inmate", it was so weird to think of yourself that way.

"Welcome home everyone!", she exclaimed, giving you an encouraging smile.

You were lucky to get out of the cold van, it was January after all and since it had already snowed, the temperature had dropped down several degrees. So it was a relief to step into the warmer walls of the prison, not having to freeze your ass off in the snow.

The first thing you noticed when you stepped into the halls was how crowded it was. You were tempted to just turn around and run, trying to escape the stuffy air and suffocating feeling that was slowly spreading inside of you. Other inmates were constantly passing your little group, shooting you intimidating glances or smiling dangerously at you. You were uncomfortable, but not scared.

It just reminded you of the halls of your high school back then. Loud, uncomfortable and always overfilled. And god, the popular girls who used to bully you. To say the least, you were used to this.

Morello guided you through the prison, showing you where the commissary, bathrooms and everything else was. You were just passing the TV room, looking inside for a second when you made eye contact with a brown haired woman. The woman frowned at you, looking you up and down. You frowned back and kept walking, turning away from the door.

What the fuck was that?

You sighed and shook your head, telling yourself not to think too much of it. It had only been a small encounter, nothing too significant. At least not enough to get you in trouble. For now.

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You were shown to your dorm, where you occupied the bunk above a woman named Brandy Epps. It was obvious she was extremely racist, you even heard her discussing something about "white lives matter" or "white pride", which you took as a sign to stay the fuck away from her. She continued to make dirty comments about other inmates in the prison while you were busy making your bed.

You turned around to listen to her when you were done, staring at her in disgust and listening to the insults that were coming out of her mouth so easily. You shook your head in disbelief.

You must've been staring at her for too long as the woman turned around, obviously pissed off.

"You got some kind of problem?", she questioned threateningly, getting closer to where you were standing.

"No", you huffed, looking away. You really didn't want to start any trouble on your first day. Best to avoid tricky situations.

"Good. I see you staring like that again, we got a problem, you hear me?"

You sighed. You should've known people would have anger issues in here. That people would get aggressive over the smallest things, because they didn't have anything better to do. Because prison was a shithole and it was fucking tiring to simply just exist there. You certainly didn't want to end up like her, but you feared you were going to have no choice in the future.

"Sure."

Before she could say anything else, you made your way to the cafeteria for dinner.

Due to the prison's overcrowding, the blocks were divided up at each meal. You and your block ate with Cell Block C or the so-called "Spanish Harlem", as Morello had already explained to you.

With your plate of food in hand, you sat down at the end of some table and started eating. You were extremely hungry, exhausted from the stress of arriving in the prison.

Suddenly, you felt two pairs of eyes burn holes into your back and you just knew someone was staring at you. You forced yourself to not turn around, not wanting to start a fight on your first day. One never knew what could happen in prison, you might get jumped just because you sat in the wrong seat or stared at someone the wrong way, almost like it did with the racist bitch back in your dorm.

It made you uncomfortable but you focused on the disgusting brown liquid in front of you that was supposed to be "chili con carne", forcing it down your throat and hoping, no praying, that that person was going to leave you alone.

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The next few days you felt as if you were being watched the entire time, feeling that burning sensation in your back again. There wasn't a single moment where you didn't turn around every single second while walking to the showers or the cafeteria.

You were extremely paranoid.

But every time you did, there were always too many people in the halls to really make out someone who could be stalking you.

So you just kept on going about your day, minding your business.

Until you couldn't anymore.

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It was Friday night, which today should've been movie night, but it got canceled and now everyone was in a bad mood. It wasn't often that something nice like this happened and it was a good escape from the tiring everyday routine the inmates had in the prison. You got to watch cool movies, eat snacks from the commissary and chill with your friends.

Instead, you were now sitting in the tv room, just reading your book in a chair next to Morello, who had unfortunately forced you to come along.

"Come on, Y/N! I promise it'll be fun. You can bring your boring book, even though it is a TV room, meaning you go there to watch TV and not to…read. Usually. But I'm sure they'll make an exception!", she had said to you after finding you alone on your bunk, wrapped in your blanket. You had rolled your eyes at her but gotten up from your bunk nevertheless, admitting defeat.

You had actually been enjoying the silence in your dormitory from everyone being gone, but of course, that just had to be interrupted.

Now you were sitting there, amongst all those other people, just trying to read your book in peace. But, and honestly what else did you expect, there was the piercing set of eyes again, just watching your every move. You were actually so sick of it now. Why was this person looking at you the whole time? Why were you so interesting?

This time, you actually decided to turn around and not ignore them like you had done the other times.

You spotted her immediately. It was the woman who had frowned at you on your first day! The woman with the brown hair!

And now she was smirking at you. How was she not looking away or ashamed that you caught her?

Your eyes widened as you slowly scanned her. She was drop-dead-gorgeous. She had curves that were to die for, these stunning dark brown eyes…

You felt yourself blush and turned away. God, hadn't you promised yourself to not find anyone attractive here? Especially not people that could possibly be dangerous?

Well, you had just failed miserably and pathetically.

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Someone pulled a chair up in front of you, sitting on it backwards, using the back of the chair as an armrest.

You were looking down on the ground, burying your face in your book when a finger hooked itself under your chin, tilting it up.

The drop-dead-gorgeous woman was right in front of you, her eyes scanning your face, biting her lip.

She outstretched her hand to you.

"Ouija. Nice to meet you." Her eyes shone with something you couldn't quite decipher.

"Y/N", you introduced yourself, feeling shy in front of this beautiful woman, shaking her hand. She held onto it a little longer than normal, looking you directly in your eyes.

"That's a beautiful name."

She flashed you an amused smile, recognizing your anxiousness.

"Yo, there's no need to be shy, chica" (cutie/girl), Ouija said while moving in a little closer.

"Not for a pretty girl like you at least.", she said with a lowered voice.

She smiled at you once again and you felt your cheeks heat up.

"Thank you", you mumbled, not really knowing what else to say.

Ouija smirked.

"You're welcome, muñequita" (dolly)

Fuck.

"Anyhow, what you in for, mama?", she asked, slowly leaning back again as if she didn't just audibly make you gasp.

"Drug trafficking and distribution", you answered, avoiding her gaze.

"Yo, damn! So you a 'little miss drug dealer' then?" She laughed.

"Certainly. Right hand woman of my drug lord, thank you very much", you responded, bowing your head a little. She chuckled, shaking her head.

"Impressive, yo. I like a woman in power. It's hot."

You felt yourself blush again. God, this woman somehow had the ability to make you flustered very easily.

"So, what did you do?", you questioned.

"WIC Fraud. I killed three somebody's - nobodies -", she pointed to a tattoo that she had right next to her eye, three black teardrops, "and then I get popped for fucking fraud. You believe that shit?"

You shook your head, confused as to how they didn't find out about her killing all those people but charged her for the fraud. Maybe if you had committed another crime besides the drug thing and turned yourself in, you would be facing less time. You were suddenly deep in your thoughts, wondering about that, so that you didn't notice Ouija standing up beside you.

"All right, mama, I'mma let you get back to your book here. We'll see each other around", she said optimistically.

Ouija walked back to her seat, but not without winking at you and letting her hand brush against your arm.

You didn't get the chance to ask why she had been staring at you this whole time before really introducing herself to you, but right now, that matter seemed pretty unimportant to you. You felt starstruck from the interaction with the latina, just staring at the words in your book and not being able to focus at all. The conversation had been way too short and you already wanted to talk to her more.

But what you didn't know is that you wouldn't have to wait long until the two of you would speak again. Carmen had taken a liking to you and she was ready to explore what might develop between you two. At least she already knew that she was capable of making your cheeks go red within a matter of seconds.

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You were doing research in the library, or more like trying to find one of your favorite books, Harry Potter. You were trying to find some comfort in this cold place and what better way to do it than with your favorite literature? You wandered through the fiction aisle, scanning through the books.

There it was, on the highest shelf. But, of course, as expected, you were not tall enough to reach it. You felt so incredibly pathetic right now, there was no chair in sight to help you, no stool for you to stand on.

„Yo, need some help there?“, you heard someone ask. You turned around to the voice.

It was Ouija. She was leaning against one of the shelves, smirking at your attempts to stand on your tiptoes to grab the book, of course failing miserably.

„Yes, please“, you said, just a tad embarassed.

„Which book?“, she asked.

„Harry Potter“

She nodded, reaching up, taking it out without any strain.

„So, the goblet of fire“, she said, twisting the book in her hands.

„It was one of my favorite books growing up. I’m already done with all of the books I was allowed to bring in here so I thought I’d do a little nostalgia trip“

Your fingertips touched as she passed you the book.

„I liked it too as a little kid. But my favorite book was always the chamber of secrets“

„Girl – no offense – but are you serious?“

Ouija frowned, a playful smirk tugging at the corner of her lips.

„What do you mean?“, she questioned, crossing her arms in front of her face.

You smiled, shaking your head.

„Nah, I don’t want to destroy your favorite childhood book for you. I have a very strong opinion when it comes to Harry Potter.“

„No worries, yo, I can handle it. Give it to me“, Ouija said lowly, tilting her head. You bit your lip, rubbing your hands together, getting ready to go.

„Well, I think Ginny’s absolutely insufferable in that book, I mean sure, she was influenced by Voldemort but still, I think it’s not right that she played the „weak, needing to be saved“ girl in that book. It’s not exactly feminist. Also I think the book doesn’t really add to the series, it’s just kind of there as a „filler“ or an information dump. Also, the thing with the diary is just unrealistic. Why wouldn’t anyone notice that it’s in Ginny’s posession? It just doesn’t make sense.“

You grit your teeth in worry, hoping you didn’t go to far.

„I’m sorry, was that too far?“, you asked.

„Nah, I think you’re right actually. Yo, I might have to rethink my favorite childhood book“, Ouija laughed, rubbing her neck.

„I’d be happy to help. I know quite a lot about the series actually“, you explained proudly.

„I figured. That pretty face can convince me of anything, man, I’m sure“

You looked down, trying to hide the blush spreading on your cheeks.

„Don’t hide it“, Ouija said, tilting your chin up. You looked up into her beautiful dark brown eyes, getting lost in them.

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It was late in the afternoon, the sun was already setting and the inmates had a few hours left to catch some air outside before the prison would close its gates, making it time for lights out. You had put on your winter coat and beanie, ready to take a little stroll in the yard. Your hands were covered in thick gloves, protecting you from the harsh January wind

Today, you were just going to take a little stroll around the yard, not that anything else was really possible here. You wish you would have some kind of space to run, get rid of all the energy that you weren’t able to put to use properly.

You were just about to round the corner at the mailbox when you heard a noise.

You stopped in your tracks when you heard someone sniffle and sob.

Frowning, you started walking towards the sound and soon you were able to make out the person who they were coming from. They had brown curly hair - Oh shit! Ouija! You stopped yourself before you were going to run over to her and make sure she's okay.

You were unsure if you should approach her at such a sensitive time.

You wouldn't know how she was going to react, the two of you had known each other barely a hot second.

But you knew that if you were alone and crying in a prison and the person discovering you had good intentions, you would want to be comforted too. And that was good enough for you. You hoped you were making the right decision.

"Ouija, hey, what's wrong?", you asked worriedly, slowly kneeling down beside her.

Her head snapped up, her eyes widening when she realized it was you. She quickly wiped her tears away, trying to find her composure. You couldn’t help but admire her, she was even pretty when she cried, her lashes were stuck together, her cheeks were flushed… God, wrong moment!! Get it together Y/N...

"Oh shit. Hey, didn't hear you coming. Yo, how's it going?"

"I'm fine, but you don't seem to be. What's the matter?"

"Nah, I'm fine, nothing to worry about", she said quickly. You raised your eyebrows, not believing anything she said.

"What? I said I’m fine, man“, Ouija spat, putting up all her defenses.

"Look, I know we don’t really know each other, but I’m not gonna judge you for showing emotion or opening up. It’s human.“

Ouija huffed, shaking her head in disbelief.

"Fuck, fine. Shit, you're stubborn, girl. It's my son. He's in the hospital because of some gang activity in his block and…I'm not there for him, man. I'm in fucking prison. And I can't do anything about it."

You sighed. You knew what she was talking about. You felt the same. Being in prison made you feel so stuck, even though you had only been there for a few days. You weren’t there for your loved ones, the world around you kept turning and changing while you were locked away. Your friends had also seemingly already forgotten about you. Maybe they were all just glad you were gone.

"Honestly, I get it. I have a little sister, she just turned 5. She's growing up so fast and in a year, she'll already be in primary school. I'm missing out on her making her first friends there, I can't help her with her homework or comfort her when she has a bad day. It's torture. So yeah, I can relate. Nothing bad happened to her yet, fortunately, but you know the world out there. I can’t protect her from the harm she might experience out there."

The two of you were silent for a second, saying nothing.

"The thing is, you can't change anything about it. As much as it sucks, you gotta figure out how to deal with that shit. You gotta trust that your son knows you love him and that you being in here has nothing to do with him."

That flipped a switch in Ouija. She did love her son, a lot. She had just got to find a way to show it to him, especially right now. A small smile spread on her face as an idea popped up in her head.

She felt your hand touch her back, stroking it slowly.

Ouija turned to you, the woman who she had been obsessed with ever since she had entered the walls of this prison. The woman who she had frowned at when she made eye contact with her at her first day. The woman who frowned back. She knew that you knew that she had watched you the first few days upon your arrival. You were just so mesmerizing to her, she somehow felt drawn to you.

"Inmates! Back inside!", you heard a guard shout loudly. You sighed. The roughness of the CO's was still something you had to get used to.

"Yo, we should probably go before it gets serious or some shit. You never know if these fuckers are gonna pull out a gun or not", Ouija said, outstretching her hand to you, desperate to get you away from possible danger.

You nodded, letting her help you up.

As you were about to walk past the guard, you noticed that your shoe was untied. You stopped, reaching down to tie it, but the CO was not having it.

„INMATE! KEEP IT MOVING! I HAVEN’T GOT ALL FUCKING DAY, YOU UNDERSTAND??!“, he shouted aggressively, about to yank you up from the ground, when Ouija threw herself inbetween you two.

From your place on the ground, you didn’t hear what she said to the CO or what made him back off of the two of you. You only saw her enraged facial expression as she turned to help you up, once again. You were in a complete state of shock, this being the first time you were properly yelled at by a guard. You felt Ouija wrap an arm around your shoulder, guiding you back inside.

„Inmate Aziza, I would fucking throw you down to the SHU, but I’m fucking exhausted from today so I will let you off EASILY because I’m so nice with just a shot. For the both of you that is!“, he spat at the two of you as you walked back inside.

Ouija saw the broken look on your face and from that point, there was no way in hell that she was ever going to leave your side. She felt protective of you suddenly, she wanted to rip that guard’s head off, no, she wanted to choke him until his words got stuck in his fucking throat for ever talking to you in that way.

She wanted to shield you from any and all bad things in this place. She wanted you to herself, wanted no one fucking near you, except for her. Her hand grabbed your shoulder tighter.

She stood in front of you, so you were facing her. Butterflies erupted in her stomach as your gaze met hers. Your eyes were so beautiful. You were slightly looking up to her, as Ouija was a bit taller than you.

„Hey, yo, are you okay, mama? That guard was pretty rough on you“, she asked you, her voice soft as velvet. Tears threatened to spill from your eyes, but Ouija wasn’t letting that happen. She grabbed your chin, caressing your cheek with her thumb.

„Yo, no crying, pretty woman, we’ve already had enough of that today.“

„I love that movie“, you chuckled slightly, wiping your eyes with the sleeves of your shirt.

„Pretty Woman? White poor woman fucks rich white man and falls in love? Nah, that shit’s too predictable.“

„Exactly. One already knows how the movie ends, but I still like it“

Ouija scoffed, ruffling your hair. She leads you back to your dorm, glaring at Epps as the bald-headed woman was about to harass you again. Epps backed up with raised hands, whispering:

„I wasn’t even about to do anything...“

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You were casually walking to the showers, towel and toiletries in hand. It was 5am in the morning, so the line wasn't long.

You had gotten up early for the hot water, your bunkmate Epps complaining that you were making too much noise, disrupting her very important sleep. There were only 2 hours until she had to get up anyway. Epps luckily hadn’t bothered you too much the past few days, thanks to Ouija, who had given her death glares whenever the two of you had been hanging around each other, which had been quite often. You had spent most of your time with her, she had helped you settle into the prison and made you laugh almost all the time. You had been there for her during all the announcements she got from the hospital about her son and celebrated with her when the doctor told her that he was going to be okay.

You hadn’t really gotten acquainted with any of the other women at the prison, as every time you tried to talk to one of them, you felt Ouija’s glare on the both of you or you got pulled away from the other person because she suddenly „needed to talk to you very urgently“. Of course you knew that she was jealous somehow, even though she had no reason to be. One of the times when she had dragged you away, the two of you had gone to the chapel. Ouija hadn’t said anything as she had taken your hand and pulled you along with her.

She had lifted you onto the stage, where performances or speeches were given, but kept standing on the ground herself. She still stayed silent as she locked eyes with you and slowly ran one of her hands up your thigh. She leaned in a little bit when her hand reached the waistband of your pants, her eyes on your lips. You could basically feel the electricity sizzling between the two of you. It was like the two of you were always meant to end up so close to each other, like this. Your foreheads were already touching, your lips barely inches away from each other, when the door to the chapel slammed shut and the both of you immediately flew off of each other. Pidge was calling for Ouija, telling her that Maria was calling a meeting. Ouija, frustrated, promising you she would be back for you, „continuing where you left of“. And now you were here.

You stepped into one of the shower cabinets, turning on the shower head.

You sighed as the warm water washed over your body, immediately making you sleepy again. You hadn’t slept really well with that racist woman Epps beneath you. You never knew what she might do and you always had to sleep with one eye open. It was exhausting and definitely took a strain on your body.

"Mornin', muñequita."

You turned around to the voice, looking directly into Ouija's eyes. She looked a little sleepy, but her half-closed eyes were still roaming your body, drinking in your frame. With just a look, she was able to to make you sweat, blush, avoid her gaze… it was nerve-wracking. With a towel wrapped around your body, you stepped outside of the shower and towards the fully dressed Ouija.

"Hey there“, you answered, yawning.

"How you doing, mama?"

"I'm good, a little tired still." She nodded understandingly.

"Glad my pretty girl is doing well", she smiled, leaning against the wall.

You blushed a little and looked to your feet, trying to hide your reddened cheeks.

"Yo, come over here, mama", she beckoned.

You looked left and right to check if anyone was there who could possibly see you before you moved out of the shower cabin and over to where Ouija was standing.

As soon as you were standing in front of her Ouija grabbed your shoulders and pulled you close, wrapping her arms around your lower torso. She pressed a kiss to your forehead, allowing you to rest your head on her chest.

„Y/N?“

„Yeah?“

„I wanted to say thanks for the time you found me..you know, crying, and comforted me and shit. I didn’t deserve that and I’m still a shit mom, but I talked to my son on the phone and...he’s coming to visitation next week“

You squealed in excitement, jumping up a little bit, so excited for Ouija.

„Ouija, that’s great! I’m so happy for you!“

You wrapped your arms around her neck , embracing her in a hug.

Ouija grabbed you by your hips and switched positions so that now you were pressed against the wall. Both of her hands were placed next to your head while yours were busy holding up that towel of yours.

„You’re so cute when you’re happy, you know that?“, Ouija asked, biting her bottom lip. She leaned in closer, taking your face inbetween her hands. Your eyes closed in anticipation, ready to finally connect with her, to finally feel the full extent of the electricity between you too. She leaned in, leaned in, you started feeling dizzy of her scent, of her presence...

BANG! The metal door to the showers slammed shut, loud voices coming from the doorway. Ouija immediately let go of you, distancing herself, and as some of the other inmates walked past you and entered the showers, you tried to act as nothing had happened before. You exchanged a frustrated glance with her, were you ever going to be able to kiss?

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It was your bunkmate Epps' birthday and she made like this whole deal out of it. Almost everyone in this prison was invited, including you and Ouija and almost every single lesbian which was weird, since Epps was definitely homophobic.

But she and her friends did know how to throw a party, you had to leave her that. There was a snack bar with drinks, a dance floor and colorful garlands reading "happy birthday".

You had just entered the overfilled room, completely overwhelmed, not knowing what to do or where to stand or where to sit. You were looking around for Ouija, finding her in a corner of the room, next to Pidge and Zirconia.

She was staring down everyone in the room, a grumpy expression on her face. You know how frustrated she had been the past few days, you were about to kiss two times, but always had been interrupted by one of the other inmates. Privacy was basically non-existent in prison and by now, the two of you were so desperate to kiss, you almost felt like two pathetic lesbian teenage girls.

You were walking towards her, pushing through the crowd, and as you approached them, Zirconia noticed you, her face lighting up.

"Y/N! Hi!", she exclaimed happily.

Ouija's head immediately snapped in your direction and her entire demeanor changed. Her grumpy face disappeared, her eyes lit up and a smile spread across her lips.

"Well, yo, look who showed up!", she said, genuinely happy to see you.

You smiled at her and Pidge.

You looked around for a chair to pull up next to the group, but of course, every single one was taken. This did not go unnoticed by Ouija and she certainly did not seem too unhappy about this fact as her smirk widened.

"Come, muñeca, you can sit here", she said, pointing to her man spread legs. Damn, you thought, really really wanting to, but not being sure if it might be risky. You looked around to see if anyone was looking except for Zirconia and Pidge, but everyone was too focused on themselves to even slightly care about the two of you. And even so, you didn’t care.

You lowered yourself onto her lap and immediately felt her arms tightly wrap around your torso.

„Good girl, put those pretty thighs on me“, she whispered in your ear, her hand stroking your leg softly. Your eyes widened, the familiar blush spreading on your cheeks. „Mi amor, mio todo mio“, (my love, mine all mine) she mumbled, placing a kiss on your shoulder.

The evening progressed without anyone even looking at you. You sat on Ouija’s lap the entire time, wondering how it wasn’t taking a strain on her legs, conversing with her, Zirconia and Pidge. You did not once go to the buffet because you were so immersed in the conversation you were having with them but nevertheless, you were thirsty.

„I’ll just get something to drink really quick, do you want anything?“, you said to Ouija, hopping off of her lap.

„Nah, I’m good, thanks though“

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You were standing at the bar, deciding what drink you were going to get, not that there were a lot of options, this was prison after all. Possibilities weren’t exactly endless.

„Hi there“, a voice greeted you, coming out of nowhere.

You jumped, letting out a little shriek.

„Oh I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to scare you“, the woman next to you said worriedly, but you only laughed.

„It’s fine, I get scared easily.“

„You’re new here right?“, she asked, tilting her head in curiosity.

„Yeah, I arrived here about two weeks ago, so my stay hasn’t exactly been long“

„Ah, so a newbie. That’s why I haven’t seen you around.“

You nodded, conversing in a little small talk with her. You already felt Ouija staring at you, knowing it was because of her protective and posessive nature, but you also wanted friends in here. You needed other people that you could rely on.

The woman, who turned out to be called Carla was telling you funny stories about other prisons she had been at and interactions she had with other inmates there and here at Litchfield.

You laughed loudly, finding her absolutely hilarious. While you and the woman were joking around, Ouija was boiling with anger and jealousy. She tried to keep her cool, „take a fucking chill pill“, like Zirconia had advised her. But it was really hard when she hadn’t even kissed you yet, didn’t even get to call you hers yet. Maybe the possibility of somebody else still being able to snatch you away was giving her the nerves. Maybe she would be more relaxed if she knew you were really hers.

Maybe. But right now, she just wanted to get you the fuck away from that other woman.

As you kept talking with Carla, you felt her put her hand on your waist.

„Um…“, you mumbled, looking over to Ouija. That was Carmen Aziza’s last straw. Nobody would touch her girl, not like that.

She stormed over to where you were standing and pushed the other woman off of you and to the ground where she landed with a loud bang. She stood over the woman, placing her thick boot onto her chest, compromising her airways.

„Touch her again and yo“, she laughed bitterly, „I’ll fuck you up“.

Before you could properly register what was happening, you felt yourself being grabbed by the wrist and pulled away. You didn’t know where you were going, as you were still finding your way around the prison, when you reached the door to the library. It was completely silent, the only sound being you getting pushed against one of the shelves.

Ouija stood in front of you, placing one of her hands beside your head. She used the other one to harshly grab your chin, lifting it up so you were looking at her. Her facial expression was one of anger, jealousy and displeasement.

„I don’t know who that other woman thinks she is, but she better know that you’re mine. Ever since you stepped into the walls of this prison, shit, I knew I had to have you. You're mine, amorcita. You're all mine and yo, guess what? I ain't about fucking sharing. I can’t hide how I feel about you anymore, munequita. Not when 1000 other bitches are this close to you every day. I love you.“

Ouija’s face was full of worry, anticipation of what you thought of her confession, if you felt the same.

„I’m yours“, you said, breathless, and that was all it took for Ouija to smash her lips against you and press you further into the wooden shelves. Her scent intoxicated you, all you saw, smelled, heard, touched was her. She was your whole world and you were hers. Her warm body was pressing into yours, her hands were roaming your body, diving underneath your shirt. Finally, you could do what you waited so long for. Her hands were in your hair, her tongue was dancing with yours. You forgot that you were in prison, you forgot about the world around you.