#ohyouknow

Me: *starts shit*

- lol

- the importance of communication is literally DRILLED INTO ME and has been for years on years, though i certainly make my own mistakes and overthink regardless

- my relationships aren’t going to last but nothing does, it’s actually been a very important development that i realize and accept this

- tbh all of this “you can’t be there for anyone” shit kinda falls really flat when you add in the context that i would let him vent to me for hours on end and would try to act as mediator for his problems and my actual, eventual stand that i made for myself? was dropping all contact with him, finally, which he of course hated

- it wasn’t the “ptsd” bro it was the fact that staying friends with him was a literal circus for years and he was both the ringleader and lead clown. drama and fallouts that centered around him were commonplace and bro? i was tired

- “friends who can’t support me when i need them” dam aight glad u think all what i did for you was totally worthless and all the sleepless nights and anxiety and stress and trying to solve ur problems was like, nothing then

- i’ve been dating icky for two years now lol

- bro where are these people???? cuz i LITERALLY have logs of [name redacted for privacy] saying “hey thanks for trying to be mediator for us” when drama fallout number 3 happened

- the only abuser (besides him lol) that i’ve ever “sided with” was one other person from the rpc who literally groomed me into letting their behavior in rp stuff slide and even then it wasn’t long before i was like “uhhhhhh yeah i’m fucking outtie” lmao. regardless both of these occasions were HUGE learning experiences and i know now how to better sight red flags and steer clear from them

- “best friend of four years” BROOOOOO GBDHJBFHJDBH YOU WERE NEVER MY BEST FRIEND???????? LMAOOOOO we hardly even talked past casual interactions for like, the first 3-ish years???? you were just always pulling me into new groups and things before whatever bullshit happened and u kept getting thrown out (for good reason probably, i now realize). anyway hole was my ACTUAL best friend and she’s still here heyo

- “stop making shit up about me” ????? i never once name-dropped him at all in any public account, only on my private twitter which is even then VERY closed off. and unlike him i never went around talking shit about people trying to ruin their reputations lmaooooo

- bro i’ve kept literally a whole document compiled of my experiences and logs just to keep track of things and justify that “oh yeah i totally wasn’t just misremembering things here ok”, along with “WOW HOW DID WE REALLY LET THIS SLIDE FOR SO LONG”

- <:) i’m sure you’ve talked plenty of shit about me lmfao don’t lie

- again with the failure to support and again with the huh!!!! guess i didn’t do anything then!!! guess i just sat around with my thumbs up my ass!!! whoopsie!!!

mind you these asks weren’t even. what’s the word, like they came out of the blue with no instigation or warning lmfao. anyway this was prolly needless and like i said goin on two-ish years old now but WOW, THIS WAS A LITTLE CATHARTIC

you think you’re really cute, don’t you? you think you’re entitled to keep looking at my blog even after i cut you off a fucking YEAR ago? i know how to stand up for people, zeke, i stood up for you for years when i believed you were a good person, and i stood up for everyone else when i learned otherwise. i stood up for myself when i finally fucking realized you were never going to respect my boundaries, because all i ever was to you was someone to hold you up. really classy of you to have stopped by, out of the fucking blue, and try to gaslight me again lmfao

i’m not a part of your fucking life, can you get that through your skull already? what more do you want from me? still pissed that i learned better, became independent from you? still pissed that i’m moving on? still pissed that i’m in a happy, healthy, loving relationship when you were so desperate to get into all of our pants just so you wouldn’t feel as lonely? there’s nothing here for you, and there never will be again. stop trying to lecture me about showing respect when you’ve never done that yourself and CONTINUE to refrain.