#oc selfship

It all started on the 12th of July last year, when I saw the initial stages of him being worked on, and I told @mrs-goemio that she didn't add too much purple. I had an intrigue. Yes, it started off shallow, but there was something there. Something that initially pulled me in.

Then, his reference was finished on the 17th, and posted, and it began. I decided that I liked him, even with just the little bit of information on his reference sheet. Originally, I drew the first even just flirty picture with Raelyn, but I felt kinda jealous drawing her with him. I love my OC, Raelyn, but… I really wish I first drew me with him. I feel kinda bad about the few months I didn't talk much about him because I didn't know much other than his sheet, until Fork made a mugshot picture and his story. Reading more about him drew me even closer to him. Then another story was posted, then his extra information. Soon, I got closer and closer to him.

I wanted our anniversary to specifically be the day he was first posted because this way that date is easy to see and easy to remember. It was the day I officially decided to ship with him. So, I wrote that date into the plot with him, too. I started drawing him more and more, and the longer it went on, the less it looked like hesitation and fear of messing up, to where now I always draw us extremely close together. Whenever I think about needing comfort, he's the first F/O I think of now. I love my other soulmates, and I did notice that they have a lot of similarities to him in bits and pieces of their personalities.

I recently got a plush of him, and now I've taken to carrying him everywhere. I actually feel scared when I leave the house without him. It kinda reflects my attachment to him in the universe, too.

I wrote quite a bit of small things between me and him, and I often go back and edit the stories to make them make even more sense. They are still special to me, but unlike a lot of my other ships, the way I wrote my ship with him never changed in this year. I really love him that much to where no matter what interactions with him, they are perfect.

There's also so much to talk about when it comes to what I think of him. He's very pretty, beautiful, ugh… words, I swear. He's captivating. From his eyes, to his hair, to everything. I can't even begin to describe how much he takes my breath away.

Happy anniversary, Ivan. I love you so much.

I posted this at 12am (England's time) on the 17th, but at 7pm (my time) on the 16th.

I got my groove back, yall im so frickin happy. Tired from being hyperfocused all day but happppyyyy (* ´ ▽ ` *)

ALSO here's lil headshots of my new characters I dont have much story yet but wow its so fun playing w my dolls