When Gavin returned to school yesterday from his day trip with the birth control pills, Jonny had looked so flustered Gavin had to ask why. He did say that it would be no trouble at all for him to pick them up-- he thought Jonny would be less surprised than he was.
It was important for their trip over the weekend, which happened far easier than Gavin anticipated. But all he had to do was forge his sibling's signature, and since Jonny's family trusted him, permission for them to leave the school premises for a "study trip" had come swiftly. They were going to a well known campsite at a beginner's level; keeping in constant contact with their cellphones was the worst of it.
Though their tent was set up in a specific area, come nightfall Gavin took Jonny's hand and told him to carry the rolled up blanket. He carried a drawstring bag with him as he led him outward, heading to a clearing about ten minutes away from their tent. Here, there weren't any people: it was just wildlife, and the stars, and a blanket rolled out for them to lay on while Gavin took out the muffins and cookies he'd packed away for them to snack on as they looked at the stars.
His stomach fluttered as he wondered whether Jonny took his pill, and he thought back to the plan they'd made. So far everything was going smoothly, but...
"I can't believe how bright the stars are out here," Gavin said, biting off a piece of cookie. His other hand was linked with Jonny's own, fingers locked as they laid on their backs. "They're bright like this at my sibling's house too, but...
"I dunno. I guess I've been at school too long."
As thoroughly as they went over the plan over the past few weeks, finding himself there in that moment with his fingers interlocked with Gavin's laying beneath the stars made his heart thump heavily in his chest. They were young and the true intent behind what inspired the trip made it important that every detail had been fleshed out. He knew what was coming. And he was ecstatic and nervous and thrilled and petrified and so many emotions all at once that he didn't know what to do with them.
But luckily, as Gavin spoke once more, he felt his heart still enough that he could at least focus and enjoy the moment.
He hadn't realized he was staring through the sky until his boyfriend had commented on how bright it was. With a soft sound, almost of surprise, he nodded in agreement. Though, at the mention of Gavin's sibling, he turned his attention towards him with a slight frown.
Whenever Gavin spoke of his sibling- or any family member, really- it was difficult to not want to pull him into his arms and attempt to give him the love he was missing from them.
But this weekend was about them and their love, so he offered a reassuring squeeze and a moment of silence in case he wanted to speak more to it. When it hadn't come, Jonny shifted just enough so their arms and shoulders were touching while their hands remained connected.
"I wish the stars looked like this at my home. There are just too many trees in one direction, and then too many lights in the other."
He grinned fondly as he looked across the heavens and looked at the brightest stars in the sky.
"You know, when I was little, I used to think that the stars were angels, and the ones that were really bright were my late grandparents when they had passed and went to Heaven. Like they were saying, hey, Jonny, we're still watching you! So eat your broccoli and no staying up too late!"
He laughed softly and shook his head at the musings of a child, though, his face sombered slightly as he looked at Gavin. "Maybe your dad's one of the stars by my grandparents. They're playing Go Fish or something together right now."