#object of affection

more incidental yuri :DDDDD. I feel this one has more merit as the song tells a story. as its abt a non gender conforming prince doing mild acts of mutiny, so the kingdom turns "him" into a subservient doll. to follow their every order. she is then snatched away by a dark mage. with this mage she gains free will. she experienced the crushing weight of newfound self awareness and almost goes out of control. until she realises that the mage is the same, a doll. doll in this case is an allegory for trans. and this song does have lyrics from honor majesty, which abt jamie singing abt saving the princess (lesbians :DDDD). I didnt latch onto this song at first. but once it clicked, it CLICKEDDDDDD. this is one of the songs I sing on the regular nowadays. it also gives me that warm fuzzy feeling inside that just feels so nice. anywayssss happy listening byeeeeee

constant companions cloesup:

I feel a tad bit odd about my personal experience with being os/or / objectum. i'm not posic really? i dont view objects as having souls or being alive in any capacity, though a lot of people ive seen on here do that. for me, having something fully able to react and such as a human does kind of puts me off as it brings back any stress of human interaction i experience. this isnt to say i think nothing of the objects around me.

im more of a lowkey spiritual person, i dont practice many things activily, but i hold beliefs. one of those beliefs is everything having energy inside of it. this isn't necessarily a soul or being alive, but regardless of that energies can be attractive. its why i consider myself masc-leaning os/or. things with more "masculine" energy or far more attractive to me.

i can come up with personalities, names, gender, etc for objects, and usually they come naturally based on that energy, but when it comes down to it i dont believe anything of that sort is necessarily real. that doesnt stop me from being attached to and attracted objects, concepts, places, etc.

people have never been very interesting to me, im not sure how much of that is influenced by my being ND (though, definitely the lack of even platonic or familial bonding is part of that), and for me alternative things have always been easier for me to bond and become attached to and i refer to myself as aroace because of this, since im really not attracted to people at all. objects have always been a safe space for me to seek comfort, be openly awkward or embarrassing, experiment, confide in, and honestly it has always been more satisfying and less negative for me that connecting with people, since that doesn't come naturally to me personally.

my object bonding doesnt stop at just positive bonds either lol, there are some objects i HATE (especially some of the machines at my work place... i swear they are difficult on purpose, only act up when they shouldnt... they have the energy of cranky old people doing everything out of spite...). but usually, my bonding is more confusing, i dont think in the simply terms of bonds (platonic, romantic, sexual, aesthetics, whatever) as ive never really understood them too much, and a lot of them overlap or are different depending on time and mood or object ofc. objects are also a space i dont have to be worried about that with though.