Dial Tone 6Ā | Matt Rempe
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š„» Matthew Rempe x FEM!reader, in which a wrong number friendship is more than you'd hope for.Ā ORĀ he falls first, he falls hard, he's NYC's biggest enforcer.
š„» PART ONE HERE. PART TWO HERE. PART THREE HERE. PART FOUR HERE. PART FIVE HERE. 21,261 words
The Finale
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A/N: alright i'm not sure how well this flows, and its got a lot of build up that could probably be cut out, but i've been working on this draft for a month so here it is! thank you all so much for reading it and I swear when I revisit writing about Matthew Rempe it will be better and less parts lol. ENJOY IF YOU CAN! -alt
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It had been a few days since Matt left, and weād barely talked. His hoodie had become a fixture in my wardrobeānot because I was making some grand romantic statement, but because it was comfortable, and maybe also because it felt like a small piece of him was still here. Still, the silence between us gnawed at me.
I was at the coffee shop near campus, pretending to study while nursing a lukewarm chai latte, when Rachel, Jessie, and Mae appeared. I glanced up just as Rachel sat across from me, her expression far too smug for my liking.
āHi?ā I said, confused.
āDonāt āhiā us,ā Rachel replied. āWeāre here for answers.ā
Mae and Jessie sat down on either side of me, boxing me in. My stomach twisted.
āAnswers about what?ā I asked, though I already knew the answer.
āDonāt play dumb,ā Jessie said, her tone light but determined. āWeāve been piecing things together. The hoodie, the airport, the guy Rachel saw picking you up from classāyouāve got some kind of secret life going on, and we want to know why.ā
āItās not a secret life,ā I said defensively.
Mae arched an eyebrow. āThen why havenāt you told us anything about this mystery guy? If heās important enough to have you walking around in his clothes, shouldnāt we know who he is?ā
āItās not like that,ā I muttered, tugging at the hoodieās sleeves.
āY/N,ā Rachel said, her voice softer now, āweāre your friends. We just want to know whatās going on with you.ā
āThatās the thing,ā Jessie added. āYouāre clearly into this guyāor at least heās important to you. Why donāt you trust us enough to tell us about him?ā
āItās not about trust!ā I snapped, louder than I intended. Heads turned at nearby tables, and I lowered my voice, feeling heat rise to my cheeks. āItās justā¦complicated, okay?ā
Mae exchanged a look with Rachel, who leaned forward. āComplicated how?ā
āI donāt know!ā I said, frustration bubbling to the surface. āI donāt even know whatās happening with him right now. We havenāt really talked since he left, and I feel like Iām stuck in this weird in-between where I donāt know if Iām his friend orā¦ā I trailed off, biting my lip.
āOr something more?ā Mae finished gently.
I dropped my gaze to my coffee, my fingers tightening around the cup. āYeah. Maybe. I donāt know.ā
Jessie sighed. āY/N, weāre not trying to make you feel bad. But youāre obviously struggling with this, and we just want to help.ā
āI know,ā I said, my voice barely above a whisper. āBut itās not just my thing to share. Heāsā¦heās private, and his life is really different from ours. I donāt even know if I should be talking about him.ā
Rachelās expression softened. āOkay, we get that. But, Y/N, you donāt have to deal with this alone. Weāre here for you, no matter what.ā
I swallowed hard, my chest tightening. āThanks,ā I said quietly.
The table fell silent for a moment, the tension hanging heavy in the air. Finally, Mae broke it with a small smile. āWell, for the record, we still think heās lucky to have you, whatever he is to you.ā
I managed a weak smile. āThanks, Mae.ā
They let the subject drop after that, but the weight of their concern lingered. As I packed up my things to leave, I couldnāt help but feel a pang of guilt. They were only pushing because they cared, and here I was, keeping them in the dark.
I slipped out of the coffee shop, pulling Mattās hoodie tighter around me as I headed home. My phone buzzed in my pocket, and for a moment, I thought it might be him. But when I checked, it was just a reminder for an assignment deadline.
With a sigh, I shoved the phone back into my pocket.
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That night, I lay in bed, staring at my phone. Iād stopped myself from texting Matt at least five times throughout the day, telling myself that if he wanted to talk, he would. But the silence was getting to me.
I sighed, rolling onto my side and pulling his hoodie tighter around me. Maybe he was just busy. The teamās schedule had been a mess ever since he left, and I knew they were dealing with rink issues, travel changes, and constant meetings. But still⦠it wasnāt like him to go this long without checking in.
Before I could overthink it any further, my phone vibrated.
Thursday, September 19, 2024 Today, 11:34pm
MATT:Ā You up?
I blinked at the screen. Speak of the devil.
ME:Ā Maybe. MATT:Ā Thatās a yes. ME:Ā Whatās up?
There was a long pause, and I could see the three little dots flicker on and off. Finally, his reply came through.
MATT:Ā Just wanted to hear from you. Itās been a few days.
My stomach flipped at that.
ME:Ā Yeah, I noticed. MATT:Ā Sorry. Itās been nonstop since I got back.
I hesitated, my fingers hovering over the keyboard. I didnāt want to sound needy, but I also didnāt want to pretend like it hadnāt been bothering me.
ME:Ā I get it. Just felt a little weird, thatās all. MATT:Ā Yeah. Me too.
I frowned at the screen.Ā Me too?Ā What did that even mean?
ME:Ā Weird how?
This time, the dots lingered for what felt like an eternity before disappearing. I sighed, rolling onto my back and staring at the ceiling. Maybe I shouldnāt have asked.
But thenā
MATT:Ā I guess I got used to being there. Seeing you.
I swallowed, my pulse quickening.
ME:Ā You were here for, like, two days. MATT:Ā And?
I chewed my lip, trying to ignore the way my heart was beating way too fast.
ME: And⦠I guess I got used to it too.
The second I sent it, I wanted to throw my phone across the room. But before I could spiral too hard, his reply came in almost instantly.
MATT:Ā So what are we gonna do about that, San Diego?
I stared at his message, my brain short-circuiting. WhatĀ wereĀ we going to do about it?
I exhaled, shaking my head at myself. I wasnāt even sure whatĀ thisĀ was.
ME:Ā I donāt know. You tell me.
A full minute passed. Thenā
MATT:Ā How do you feel about New York?
My breath caught. Was heĀ serious?
ME: You mean, like, in general? Or� MATT: No, I mean you. Coming here.
I sat up in bed, my heart hammering against my ribs. Was he actually asking me to visit? After weeks of dancing around whatever was happening between us, was this it?
ME:Ā You want me to come to New York? MATT:Ā Yeah. I do. MATT:Ā Unless thatās weird. Is that weird?
I laughed out loud, shaking my head.
ME:Ā Youāre the one inviting me. You tell me if itās weird. MATT:Ā Not weird. MATT:Ā Kinda feels overdue, actually.
I inhaled sharply, warmth creeping up my neck. He wasnāt wrong.
ME:Ā You realize I have a wholeĀ lifeĀ here, right? I canāt just drop everything and fly across the country. MATT:Ā I know. Iām just saying⦠think about it.
I flopped back onto my pillows, staring at the ceiling. New York.
The idea of seeing Matt againāseeing himĀ there, in his worldāsent a rush of nervous excitement through me.
I didnāt know what this was between us. But maybe it was time to find out.
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The idea of New York lingered in my mind for the next few days. No matter how much I tried to focus on school, on my friends, on anything else, it was alwaysĀ thereāthis nagging little thought that wouldnāt leave me alone. I hadnāt given Matt an answer yet. Part of me wasnāt sure why. Well, that wasnāt exactly true.
Going to New Yorkāseeing him againāfelt like stepping over some kind of invisible line. And I wasnāt sure what happened once I did. Would we still be the same? Would it feel like those months of texting and late-night FaceTimes, or would it be different? And what if different wasnāt good? It was stupid. IĀ wantedĀ to see him. I just didnāt know if I was ready for everything that might come with it. I was mulling it over again when my phone rang.
Matt.
I hesitated for half a second before answering. āHey.ā
āYou still thinking?ā he asked, skipping the greeting entirely.
I huffed a quiet laugh. āMaybe.ā
A pause. ThenāāI miss you.ā
I froze, gripping my phone a little tighter. He said it so easily, like it was just a fact. And maybe it was. My heart flipped. āYou saw me a week ago.ā
āYeah, and?ā
I shook my head, even though he couldnāt see me. āYou make things complicated, you know that?ā
āI make thingsĀ simple,ā he countered. āYouāre the one overthinking.ā
I rolled my eyes. āMaybe.ā
āSo stop thinking,ā he said, and I could hear the smirk in his voice. āCome to New York.ā
I bit my lip. I could hear the distant hum of traffic behind him, the city moving at its usual breakneck pace. The sound sent a thrill through me. āI have school,ā I reminded him, but it was a weak excuse.
āItās one weekend.ā I hesitated. āSan Diego,ā he said, softer now. āJust say yes.ā
I sighed, running a hand through my hair. āFine.ā
āFine?ā
I smiled. āYes, Matt. Iāll come to New York.ā He let out a triumphantĀ yesĀ on the other end, and I couldnāt help but laugh.
āDonāt make me regret this,ā I warned.
āWouldnāt dream of it,ā he said.Ā
I laughed, shaking my head. āIāll look at flights tonight and let you knowāā
āYeah⦠about that,ā Matt interrupted, a little too casually.
I narrowed my eyes, immediately suspicious. āMatt.ā
āSo, IĀ mayĀ have already booked one for you,ā he admitted, completely unapologetic.
I sat up straighter. āYouĀ what?ā
āWell, IĀ assumedĀ youād say yes,ā he said, as if that was a completely reasonable explanation. āAnd flights were getting expensive, so I just figuredāā
āYouĀ figured?ā I repeated, incredulous.
āYes,ā he said, shameless. āDonāt act like you werenāt gonna come anyway.ā
I opened my mouth, then closed it. Annoyingly, he wasnāt wrong. Still, I wasnāt going to let him get away with this that easily. āWhat if I had said no?ā
āYou wouldnāt have,ā he said confidently. āBut worst case scenario, I guess Iād be spending a suspicious amount of time in San Diego until you changed your mind.ā
I groaned, pressing a hand to my forehead. āYouāre ridiculous.ā
āAnd youāre coming to New York,ā he said, smug. āSo, really, everyone wins.ā
I sighed, but a small smile tugged at my lips. āSend me the details.ā
āAlready did.ā
I glanced down at my phone, and sure enough, there was an email confirmation sitting in my inbox. Unbelievable.
āThis is insane,ā I muttered, clicking it open.
āCorrection:Ā this is happening,ā Matt countered. āAnd youāre gonna love it.ā
I shook my head, fighting back the warmth blooming in my chest. āGuess I better start packing, then.ā
āGuess so,ā he said. Then, a beat later, āTold you youād say yes.ā
I hung up on him. His laughter was still ringing in my ears.
I clutched my phone in my hand, staring down at the screen. I could finally stop wearing this oversized hoodie in all this summer heat just to feel like he hadnāt had to disappear. He hadnāt forgotten about me, hadnāt left me behind in the whirlwind of his life in New York. I was going to him. A grin broke across my face before I could stop it, warmth rushing through my chest.
āOkay, what just happened?ā
I looked up to see Rachel and Mae standing a few feet away, both watching me like Iād just grown a second head. They mustāve just left their last class of the day, but whatever theyād been talking about before was clearly forgotten now.
Mae crossed her arms, raising an eyebrow. āFive minutes ago, you looked like you were about to fight God. Now you look like you just won the lottery.ā
Rachel tilted her head. āDid mystery guy finally text you back?ā
I bit the inside of my cheek, trying to reel in my expression. āMaybe.ā
Mae scoffed. āOh, come on.ā
Rachel narrowed her eyes. āYou know, youāre really bad at being secretive.ā
I sighed, pressing my phone to my chest. āItāsāhe just⦠invited me to visit.ā
Both of their eyebrows shot up.
āAnd?ā Rachel prompted.
I hesitated for half a second before exhaling. āAnd Iām going.ā
Maeās jaw dropped. āOh, now this is getting interesting.ā
Rachel pointed at me. āSo, let me get this straight. You wonāt tell us who he is, but you will fly across the country to see him?ā
I winced. āThat⦠sounds bad when you say it like that.ā
Mae just shook her head. āGirl, at this point, I donāt even care who he isāI just want to know what he is to you.ā
I opened my mouth to answer, but for all the excitement bubbling up inside me, I still didnāt know how to. What was he to me? A friend. A secret. A boy who had somehow become a part of my life in ways I never saw coming. And now, I was about to find out what happened next.
"He'sā¦" I started, then hesitated. My fingers tightened around my phone as I searched for the right words, the right way to explain something I barely understood myself. Rachel and Mae both stared at me expectantly, waiting. Finally, I exhaled. "Matt." Silence.
Maeās eyes narrowed. "Matt what?"
Rachelās expression flickered with realization first. "Mattā" She cut herself off, her jaw dropping slightly. "No way."
Mae glanced between us. "Wait, what? What am I missing?"
Rachel turned to her, then back to me, then exhaled like she was trying to put together a puzzle that suddenly made way too much sense. "Is heā?" I didnāt confirm or deny it. I just lifted my coffee cup to my lips, taking a slow sip like that would somehow make me invisible.
Mae let out a dramatic groan. "Oh, come on! What is happening? Someone explain!"
Rachel ignored her, still studying me with wide eyes. "Youāve been talking to him this whole time?"
I swallowed hard, then gave the tiniest nod. "Yeah."
Mae threw her hands in the air. "Okay, clearly, I am not connecting the dots fast enough here, but you are going to explain everything to us before you get on that plane."
I ran a hand through my hair, feeling the weight of the secret Iād been carrying start to liftājust a little. Because for the first time since this all started, I wasnāt keeping Matt completely to myself anymore.
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By the time we got back to my apartment, I was exhausted from all the questioning. But I knew they werenāt going to let this go, and honestly, a part of me didnāt want them to. Keeping this secret had been weighing on me more than I realized. I kicked off my shoes and flopped onto the couch as Rachel and Mae sat across from me, expectant.
āAlright,ā I sighed, rubbing my temples. āLet me justā¦explain everything.ā
Rachel crossed her arms. āPlease do.ā
Mae just nodded, eyes locked onto me like I was about to drop the most scandalous drama of the decade.
I took a deep breath. āSo⦠it started with a wrong number.ā
I went back to the beginningāthe first text, the months of back-and-forth banter, the anonymous friendship that somehow became something real. I told them about finding out who he was, the New York trip, how we kept talking after that, and how he showed up here, right outside my class. They listened intently, not interrupting, not even exchanging their usual knowing glances. They let me tell it allāhow I didnāt know what any of this meant, how confusing it was, how Matt had practically forced me to admit we werenāt just ātexting buddiesā anymore. When I finally finished, Mae let out a long breath.
āSo⦠youāre telling me,ā she said, slowly, āthat this entire time, youāve been talking to, FaceTiming, and literally hanging out with a guy whoāon a completely unrelated noteājust so happens to beĀ a professional hockey player in the NHL?ā
I swallowed. āYeah.ā
Rachel narrowed her eyes. āAnd youĀ didnātĀ think this was worth mentioning?ā
I groaned. āItās not like that! I didnātĀ hideĀ it on purposeāI justā¦ā I hesitated. āI guess I didnāt know how to explain it. And I didnāt want it to turn intoĀ a thing.ā
Rachel scoffed. āY/N, itĀ isĀ a thing.ā
Mae tilted her head. āOkay, but you call himĀ Matt?ā
I frowned. āYeahā¦?ā
Rachel let out a dramatic gasp, smacking Maeās arm. āOh my God,Ā she calls him Matt.ā
Mae turned to me. āYou donāt call him Rempe?ā
I blinked at them. āWhy would I call him Rempe?ā
Rachel shook her head in disbelief. āBecauseĀ everyoneĀ calls him Rempe. Fans, commentators, teammatesāliterallyĀ everyone.ā
I hesitated, then shrugged. āWell⦠I call him Manhattan mostly.ā
Rachel threw up her hands. āThatās even worse!ā
I buried my face in my hands. āWhy does it matter?ā
āBecause,ā Mae groaned, ānicknames meanĀ things.ā
Rachel pointed at me. āAnd that meansĀ heĀ lets you call him something no one else does.ā
I stayed quiet, stomach twisting uncomfortably because⦠well, I didnāt really have an argument against that.
Rachel sighed. āSo⦠youāre really going to New York?ā
I nodded. āYeah.ā
Mae studied me for a long moment, then finally said, āAnd youāre okay with whatever happens?ā
I swallowed, not quite sure of the answer myself. āI donāt know,ā I admitted. āBut I want to find out.ā
Rachel and Mae exchanged one final glance before Rachel sighed dramatically. āAlright. But if youĀ donātĀ tell us everything when you get back, weāre breaking into your apartment and demanding answers.ā
I let out a breathy laugh. āDeal.ā
Mae sat back. āAnd if he screws this up, weāllĀ personallyĀ fly to New York to fight him.ā
I snorted. āIāll let him know.ā
Maeās phone buzzed, and she glanced at it, silent for a second before looking up at me.
āSo, are you all good to repeat all of that for Jessie?ā
I groaned, flopping back against the couch. āAre you serious?ā
Rachel snickered, peering over Maeās shoulder. āSheās already on her way.ā
I sat up, staring at them in disbelief. āYou texted her while I was explaining everything?ā
Mae shrugged. āI figured sheād want to be included. And she was the first one to put the pieces together, remember?ā
I let out a long breath, glancing at the door like I could somehow stop Jessie from getting here with sheer willpower. āUnbelievable.ā
Rachel grinned. āYou better start warming up, because youāre about to do this all over again.ā
I shook my head, but despite my frustration, I couldnāt help but smile a little. Because for the first time in days, things felt right again.
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The next couple of days passed in a blur. Between finishing up assignments, dodging more questions from Mae and Rachel, and figuring out how to pack for unpredictable New York weather, I barely had time to sit still. But the moment I stepped into the airport, the reality of what I was doing finally hit me. I was flying across the country. To see him.
My fingers tightened around the strap of my bag as I made my way to security. It wasnāt like this was the first time Iād been to New York, but this was different. This wasnāt a school trip. There was no group itinerary, no teachers guiding us from point A to point B. It was just me, boarding a plane to see Matt. I pulled out my phone as I stood in line, tapping out a message.
Saturday, September 28, 2024 Today, 8:19am
ME: Iām here. Getting through security now.
His reply came almost instantly.
MATT: Told you youād make it. ME: I could still turn around, you know. MATT: You could. But you wonāt.
I exhaled sharply, shaking my head. He was right. I wasnāt backing out now.
A few minutes later, I was through security and sitting at my gate, bouncing my knee as I scrolled absently through my phone. My mind wouldnāt stop racing. Would things feel the same in person this time? Would it be different now that there were no excuses, no random coincidences keeping us apart?
My phone buzzed again.
MATT: Safe flight, San Diego.
I smiled.
ME: See you soon, Manhattan.
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The flight was smooth, but my nerves were anything but. I spent most of it staring out the window, trying to keep my thoughts from spiraling. There was no denying that things felt different now. Before, there had always been this barrierādistance, schedules, bad timing. But now? Now, I was flying straight to him. No more excuses. When the plane finally touched down at JFK, I let out a breath I hadnāt realized I was holding. I pulled out my phone as I taxied to the gate.
Thursday, September 28, 2024 Today, 1:48pm
ME: Landed.
The dots appeared immediately.
MATT: Told you you wouldnāt turn around. ME: Still time to make a run for it. MATT: Iād just track you down.
I laughed softly, shaking my head. He wasnāt wrong. Grabbing my carry-on, I made my way through the airport, my heart hammering with every step. The closer I got to baggage claim, the more real this became. I scanned the crowd as I walked, not entirely sure what I was looking for.
And then I saw him.
Matt was leaning casually against a pillar, baseball cap pulled low, hands tucked into the front pocket of his hoodie. But even with the hat, even in the crowd, he stood out. The moment his eyes found mine, his face split into a grin.
āSan Diego,ā he called, pushing off the pillar and making his way toward me. I barely had time to react before he pulled me into a hugāwarm, solid, and way too easy. āYou actually came,ā he murmured, his voice just low enough for only me to hear.
I swallowed hard, my hands gripping the fabric of his hoodie for a second before I pulled back slightly. āYeah. I guess I did.ā
Matt looked down at me, something unreadable in his expression before he smirked. āYou hungry? Because I already have a plan.ā
I raised an eyebrow. āOh, do you?ā
He nodded. āObviously. I couldnāt risk you coming all this way and having a bad first meal in New York.ā
I rolled my eyes, but I was grinning. āAlright, Manhattan. Lead the way.ā
And just like that, I was here. In New York. With him. Matt took my bag without asking, slinging it over his shoulder like it weighed nothing. Then, with a tilt of his head, he led me toward the exit.
"Hope youāre ready for the full New York experience," he said as we stepped out into the warm night air.
I scoffed. "Please. I survived a weekend here before, remember?"
He shot me a look. "Yeah, but that was before you had me as your tour guide."
Before I could argue, he reached for my hand, fingers closing around mine as he weaved us through the crowd. My brain short-circuited for half a second, but I didnāt pull away. It wasnāt like we hadnāt touched beforeāheād hugged me, pulled me into his side, even held my hand briefly when weād made our escape to his rental car back in San Diego. But this? This felt different. Like maybe he didnāt have to hold my hand. Maybe he just wanted to. The second we stepped to the curb, a black SUV pulled up smoothly in front of us.
I raised an eyebrow. "Did youā?"
"Yeah, yeah," Matt said, already opening the door for me. "Before you make fun of me, itās just easier this way. Trust me, trying to get a cab around here is a nightmare, and I donāt think youāre ready for me to put you on the subway yet."
My stomach flipped, and I slid into the car before he could see the way my face burned at the idea. Pull it together. Matt took off his hat, hood, and sunglasses combo that he'd been using as what I assume is a disguise. Once we were both inside and moving, I turned to him. "So, whatās this all-important first meal you planned?"
He grinned. "I figured weād go for the most elite, high-end dining experience this city has to offer."
I narrowed my eyes. "Mattā¦"
He leaned back against the seat, looking entirely too pleased with himself. "Dollar slice, obviously."
I stared at him. "You flew me across the country to get gas station-level pizza?"
"Absolutely not," he said, feigning offense. "This is New York. Even the bad pizza is good. And if youāre gonna be here, you have to experience it properly."
I sighed dramatically. "Fine. But if itās gross, I get to hold this over your head forever."
Matt just smirked. "Deal."
The ride was short, and soon enough, we were standing on the sidewalk outside a tiny pizza place, the smell of melted cheese and garlic hitting me immediately. The neon sign in the window flickered slightly, casting a warm glow on the pavement.
"Moment of truth," Matt said, handing me a paper plate with a massive, greasy slice on it.
I took a bite, my skepticism instantly melting away as the perfect combination of cheese, sauce, and crispy crust hit my taste buds.
Matt watched me expectantly. "Well?"
I chewed, swallowed, then sighed. "Annoyingly, thatās really good."
He laughed. "Told you." We ate on the sidewalk, leaning against the brick wall of the building as people passed by. It shouldāve felt chaoticācars honking, the distant wail of a siren, the hum of city life all around usābut somehow, standing there with Matt, it felt⦠easy.
"Youāre not regretting this yet, are you?" he asked after a moment, his voice quieter now.
I glanced at him, the neon lights reflecting in his eyes.
"No," I admitted. "Not even a little."
His smile was softer this time, less teasing. "Good."
And just like that, New York didnāt feel so overwhelming anymore. After we finished our slices, Matt crumpled up his napkin and tossed it into a nearby trash can with a lazy overhand shot. It bounced off the rim, and I snorted as it fell to the ground.
"Smooth," I teased.
"Okay, rude," he muttered, scooping it up and actually throwing it away this time. "I didnāt come here to be bullied."
I licked a bit of sauce off my thumb. "Thatās literally half our friendship, Manhattan."
"Yeah, yeah," he said, nudging my shoulder lightly with his. "Come on, weāve got more important things to do."
I raised an eyebrow. "Like?"
"Youāll see."
I let him lead the way, the energy of the city buzzing all around us. We walked for a few blocks, falling into an easy rhythm, and I realized just how much Iād missed thisāthe banter, the laughter, the way being around Matt made everything feel a little lighter. Eventually, we reached what looked like a tiny convenience store tucked between two larger buildings. Its old, peeling awning barely hung on, and there was a faded chalkboard sign outside that read: Best dessert in NYC. Donāt argue.
I eyed Matt suspiciously. "First gas station pizza, now this?"
He grinned. "Trust me."
I followed him inside, where the overwhelming scent of sugar and fried dough immediately filled my nose. It took me a second to realize what I was looking atābins of fresh pastries lined the counter, and behind the register, a man was rolling dough by hand.
"You ever had a zeppole before?" Matt asked, already pulling out his wallet.
I shook my head. "Canāt say I have."
Matt just smirked. "Then prepare to have your life changed."
A few minutes later, we were back on the street, each holding a paper bag filled with warm, powdered sugar-covered dough balls. I popped one into my mouth, and my eyes nearly rolled back in my head.
"Okay," I said after a moment. "This? This was a solid choice."
Matt beamed like heād won something. "Knew youād come around."
We wandered the streets as we ate, neither of us in any rush to get anywhere. The city had an energy to it that was impossible to ignoreābright lights, bustling sidewalks, the ever-present hum of life happening all around us.
Eventually, we made our way toward the waterfront, the skyline stretching out in front of us in all its glowing, chaotic beauty. Matt leaned against the railing, looking out at the view, and I couldnāt help but study him for a secondāthe way the wind ruffled his hair, the way the lights reflected in his eyes.
"So," he said after a moment, "do I get to know how long youāre staying?"
I hesitated, then sighed. "I mean, I donāt have a set plan or anything. Just⦠a few days, I guess?"
He made a face. "Thatās it?"
I shrugged. "I do have a life back home, you know."
"Yeah, yeah," he muttered. Then, a little quieter, "Just wish it was longer."
My stomach did an annoying little flip at that, but I ignored it, nudging him with my elbow. "Guess youāll just have to make the most of it then, huh?"
Matt turned his head to look at me, his expression unreadable for a second. Then he smiled.
"Guess so."
As we stood by the railing, the city lights shimmering across the water, I felt Matt shift beside me. His shoulder brushed against mine, easy and familiar, and for a moment, it felt like we were in our own little world. Then, out of the corner of my eye, I noticed movementāa group of guys sitting on a bench a little ways back, one of them holding up his phone.
My stomach dropped.
āMatt,ā I muttered, forcing myself to keep my voice even.
āHm?ā
I subtly tilted my head in the direction of the group. āDonāt make it obvious, but I think those guys just took a picture of you.ā
He let out a slow breath through his nose, his jaw tightening. āAwesome.ā
I saw his fingers twitch like he wanted to reach up and adjust his cap, maybe pull it lower over his face, but the damage was already done. The guy with the phone was grinning now, nudging his friends, showing them whatever was on his screen.
āOkay,ā I said quietly, thinking fast. āWe should probably go before this turns into a whole thing.ā
Matt nodded once. āYeah. Letās move.ā
We turned away from the railing, walking at a normal pace, but I could feel my pulse speeding up. I didnāt dare look back, but I could hear them talking nowālow, excited murmurs. As we neared the street, Matt exhaled sharply. āIām so sick of this,ā he muttered under his breath.
I didnāt know what to say to that. Instead, I just reached out and grabbed his hand, squeezing it.
His fingers tightened around mine instantly, like it was second nature.
"Come on," I said, tugging him forward. "Find a place we can duck into for a bit."
Matt didnāt let go of my hand the entire way there.
I led him down a quieter side street, my mind racing. The last thing I wanted was for some blurry, grainy photo of him to end up online with a caption that would send the internet into a spiral.
We turned a corner, and I spotted a small bookstore-cafƩ tucked between two buildings. Without hesitating, I pulled Matt toward it.
"In here," I said, pushing the door open. A little bell jingled overhead.
Matt followed me inside, the warmth of his hand still wrapped around mine. The place was quiet, mostly empty, except for a barista behind the counter and an older man flipping through a newspaper by the window. The scent of coffee and old books filled the air, and for the first time since Iād spotted those guys, I felt my shoulders relax.
"Nice choice," Matt murmured as we stepped further inside.
I glanced up at him. "You okay?"
His lips pressed into a thin line before he exhaled. "Yeah. Just⦠annoyed."
I nodded. I couldnāt blame him. It wasnāt fairāhow he couldnāt just exist in public without someone trying to capture it.
He let go of my hand for the first time since weād left the pier and ran a hand down his face. "You think theyāll post it?"
I bit my lip. "Probably. But maybe it'll just be a random, low-quality picture with no context. Like, āOh look, I saw Matt Rempe in New York.ā It might not be a big deal."
He sighed. "Yeah. Maybe."
I nudged him lightly. "Want me to distract you? We are in a bookstore."
That got a small smile out of him. "What, you gonna make me pick out a novel?"
"Obviously." I grabbed his sleeve and tugged him toward the shelves. "Come on, Manhattan. Let's find out if you have any taste."
His grin widened just a little. "Oh, this should be good."
For the next half hour, we wandered the store, poking fun at each otherās choices, flipping through random pages, and forgettingāfor a little whileāabout the outside world. And when we finally left, stepping back out into the cool night air, Mattās shoulders werenāt as tense, and neither of us checked over our shoulders.
Instead, he just bumped his arm against mine and said, "Thanks, San Diego."
And I smiled, because for once, I knew exactly what he meant.
As we stepped out of the bookstore, a sleek black SUV was already pulling up to the curb. Matt must have called it while we were inside. The driver barely looked up as we climbed in, and I buckled my seatbelt, glancing over at him.
"So," I said slowly. "How much do I owe you for the hotel?"
Matt turned his head toward me, one eyebrow lifting in amusement. "Hotel?" he repeated.
"Yeah?" I frowned. "Where youāre putting me up for the weekend?"
He scoffed, shaking his head. "Come on, you think Iād put you up in some shithole?" He leaned back against the seat, stretching his legs out. "Iāve got three bedrooms, San Diego. Youāre staying with me."
I blinked. "Oh."
That should have been obvious, shouldnāt it? But it wasnāt like weād talked about it. I just assumed heād set me up somewhere else because thatās what made sense. I mean, sure, we talked all the time, and yeah, I was here to see him, but staying at his place felt⦠significant.
"You good with that?" he asked after a beat, watching me carefully.
"Yeah, of course," I said quickly, tucking a loose strand of hair behind my ear. "Just⦠wasnāt expecting it."
He smirked. "What, nervous to share a roof with me?"
I rolled my eyes. "You are like, six foot seven. If I wake up to you looming over me in the dark, I will scream."
Matt barked out a laugh. "Noted. Iāll keep my looming to a minimum."
I shook my head, but I couldnāt help but smile as I stared out the window. The streets of New York blurred past, the city lights glowing in the distance. This whole trip was already feeling surreal, and it had barely even started.
And now, I was staying with Matt.
I swallowed hard, ignoring the way my stomach flipped at the thought.
The car ride was mostly quiet after that, filled with the sounds of the city outside and the occasional glance Matt shot my way. I could tell he was trying to gauge whether I was actually fine with staying at his place.
I was. Probably.
Okay, maybe I was overthinking it, but who could blame me? It was one thing to text and call and FaceTime, to spend hours talking without the reality of physical proximity. It was another to step directly into his worldāhis city, his home.
The SUV pulled up outside a modern-looking apartment building in a quieter part of the city, the kind of place that had a doorman and security like that was just a normal thing people needed.
I raised an eyebrow. āThis is you?ā
Matt grinned as he slid out of the car. āSurprised?ā
āA little.ā
I wasnāt sure what I had been expecting, but somehow, this was⦠nicer? It was one thing to know he was a professional athlete, but stepping into his space made it real in a whole new way.
āCome on,ā he said, nodding toward the entrance.
I followed him into the lobby, which smelled like expensive cologne and fresh flowers. The doorman greeted Matt by name, and I tried to ignore the way that made something twist in my chest. He belonged here. This was his world. A short elevator ride later, we stepped into his apartment, andāyeah, okay. I definitely hadnāt been prepared for this. The place was massive, especially by New York standards. Open floor plan, high ceilings, floor-to-ceiling windows that overlooked the city skyline. It was modern but still felt lived ināa couple of jackets tossed over the back of a chair, a hockey stick propped against the wall, a half-empty water bottle on the counter.
āWell,ā Matt said, setting my bag down by the couch. āWelcome to Casa de Rempe.ā
I let out a low whistle, turning in a slow circle. āThis is insane.ā
He laughed. āI like to think of it as ācomfortable.āā
āRight. Comfortable. Because most peopleās apartments look like they belong in a magazine.ā
Matt just smirked, walking toward the kitchen. āYou hungry? I can order something, unless you wanna go out?ā
I hesitated. āYou sure itās safe to go out?ā
He turned, leaning against the counter, arms crossed. āWhat, worried about getting mobbed by my adoring fans?ā
I shot him a look. āI just mean⦠there were already people taking pictures earlier.ā
Mattās smirk faded slightly, and he rubbed the back of his neck. āYeah. That might happen.ā
I swallowed. This was the part I had tried not to think about too much. It was one thing to know he was kind of a big deal. It was another to feel eyes on us in public, to know that someone might post a blurry photo online with a thousand different theories attached.
āHey,ā Matt said softly, pushing off the counter and coming closer. āIf you donāt wanna deal with all that, we can just stay in. No pressure.ā
I hesitated for a second, then shook my head. āNo, I wanna go. If youāre up for it.ā
His smile returned, slow and easy. āGood. āCause Iāve got the perfect place in mind.ā
And just like that, my stomach flipped againābecause of course he had a plan. And the way he was looking at me made it feel a lot like a date.
Matt didnāt tell me where we were going, just that I should ātrust him.ā Which, given the fact that weād barely spent any time together in person, probably shouldāve made me nervous. But it didnāt.
Instead, I let him guide me back down to the waiting SUV, his hand briefly resting on my lower back as we stepped inside.
āAlright, Manhattan,ā I said, settling into the seat. āWhere exactly are we headed?ā
He smirked. āYouāll see.ā
I narrowed my eyes. āYouāre really milking this whole mysterious thing, huh?ā
He shrugged. āIf I tell you now, youāll have too much time to overthink it.ā
I crossed my arms, but he wasnāt exactly wrong. The drive was quickāmaybe ten, fifteen minutesābefore we pulled up in front of what looked like a small, hole-in-the-wall restaurant tucked between two larger buildings. The kind of place that didnāt need flashy signs or advertisements because the people who knew about it knew about it. Matt thanked the driver and climbed out, coming around to open my door before I could do it myself. Again.
I stepped out, glancing around. āOkay, Iāll bite. What is this place?ā
āOne of my favorites,ā he said, grinning. āSuper low-key, no oneās gonna bother us, and theyāve got the best food in the city.ā
I raised an eyebrow. āThatās a bold claim.ā
He just smirked, stepping aside to hold the door open for me. āGuess youāll have to see for yourself.ā
Inside, the restaurant was dimly lit and cozy, the kind of place that felt like a secret. A few people were scattered at different tables, but no one even looked up as we were led to a booth near the back.
Matt waited for me to slide into one side before taking the other, and almost immediately, the waiter greeted him like an old friend.
āYouāve got a usual, donāt you?ā I teased once the waiter had walked away.
Matt leaned back, grinning. āWhat can I say? Iām a man of habit.ā
āOh yeah? What else do you do out of habit?ā
His smirk twitched slightly, and for a second, I thought he might say something cocky, something to make me roll my eyes. But instead, he studied me for a moment before saying, āI always call you San Diego, even when I couldāve started to call you by your name a long time ago, Y/N.ā
I blinked, caught off guard by the shift in tone.
He shrugged. āI donāt know. It just felt⦠safer, I guess. Like if I kept things how they were, I wouldnāt have to think too much about how I actuallyāā He cut himself off, shaking his head slightly. āAnyway. What about you? Any weird habits?ā
I opened my mouth, then hesitated, feeling my face warm slightly. āUh⦠I may or may not have been wearing your hoodie since you left.ā
Mattās eyebrows lifted in surprise, before his lips curled into a slow, knowing smile. āOh yeah?ā
I immediately regretted saying anything. āForget I said that.ā
āNope, not happening,ā he said, leaning forward. āThatās actually adorable. You miss me, San Diego?ā
I scoffed, grabbing a menu and holding it up like a shield. āI miss having an extra hoodie, thatās all.ā
Matt chuckled, but before he could say anything else, the waiter returned with our drinks.
And as much as I tried to play it off, I could still feel Mattās eyes on me, like he was trying to figure me out.
Like maybe he had been thinking about what came nextājust as much as I had.
The food was, unsurprisingly, incredible. Mattās āusualā turned out to be a plate of pasta that looked so good I couldnāt help but steal a bite. He pretended to be scandalized.
āBold move, San Diego,ā he said, narrowing his eyes. āStealing food from me on the first night.ā
āFirst night?ā I echoed, raising an eyebrow. āConfident, arenāt we?ā
He smirked, leaning back in the booth. āJust saying. Youāve got three days here. Plenty of time to make it up to me.ā
I rolled my eyes but couldnāt help smiling.
The conversation flowed easily after that, light and effortless, and for a little while, I forgot about everything elseāabout the flashes of cameras at the airport, about the overwhelming chaos of being here. It was just Matt and me, like it had been all those months on the phone, only better.
When the check came, Matt snatched it up before I could even pretend to reach for my wallet.
āSeriously?ā I said, narrowing my eyes at him. āYouāre just going to pay without even pretending to let me split it?ā
āYou can get the next one,ā he said, standing and offering me his hand to help me out of the booth.
āNext one, huh?ā I teased, taking his hand.
āYeah,ā he said, his voice quieter now. āNext one.ā
I looked up at him, caught in the weight of his gaze for a moment longer than I meant to be, before stepping back and letting go of his hand. Outside, the city felt alive in a way that was overwhelming but exciting. The sidewalks were crowded with people, and the lights from the surrounding buildings cast a warm glow over everything.
We started walking, Matt sticking close enough that our arms occasionally brushed. āSo,ā I said, glancing at him. āWhatās next on this very mysterious agenda of yours?ā
āYouāll see,ā he said, shoving his hands into his pockets.
āAgain with the secrets,ā I said, shaking my head. āYouāre really leaning into this whole man-of-mystery thing, huh?ā
He grinned. āYou like it.ā
I rolled my eyes, but the truth was, he wasnāt wrong.
We walked for a while longer, the streets becoming quieter and less crowded, until we reached a small park tucked between two buildings. There was a fountain in the center, its water shimmering under the streetlights, and a few benches scattered around.
Matt led me to one of the benches and sat down, gesturing for me to do the same. The park was quiet, save for the rustle of leaves and the occasional hum of voices from joggers passing by. We wandered without much of a destination, falling into step beside each other. We sat in the quiet of the park, the air crisp but not unbearable. The pond ahead shimmered faintly under the faint glow of streetlights, and I tried to focus on the scene instead of the way Mattās knee kept brushing mine every time he shifted.
āI still canāt believe you actually flew across the country,ā he said after a moment, his voice carrying a note of disbelief.
āWell,ā I said lightly, āI figured I owed it to you after months of dodging FaceTimes when my hair looked bad.ā
He smirked. āFirst of all, your hairās never looked bad. Second, you donāt owe me anything. If anything, Iām the one who owes you for putting up with my nonsense.ā
I tilted my head. āYou really think Iād fly out here for someone who didnāt matter to me?ā
That shut him up for a second, his gaze flicking toward me like he wasnāt sure heād heard me right.
āYou make it sound simple,ā he said eventually, his voice quieter.
āIt is,ā I said with a shrug, kicking at a stray leaf near my foot. āYouāre complicated, yeah, but youāre worth it. And for the record, Matt? Youāve never been nonsense to me.ā
For a moment, neither of us said anything. His hand brushed mine, and I froze, half expecting him to pull away. Instead, his fingers lightly hooked around mine, hesitant but steady.
āYouāre kind of amazing, you know that?ā he murmured, so softly I barely heard him.
āTell me something I donāt know,ā I said, though my voice was shakier than I wanted it to be.
He chuckled at that, the sound warming the chilly night air. āOkay, San Diego. Hereās something. I really didnāt think this wholeā¦thing would go past texting. And then I met you, and youāve got this way of making everything feelā¦different. Better.ā
I turned to face him fully, his words catching me off guard in a way nothing else ever had. He looked back at me, his blue eyes bright even in the low light.
āI donāt think you know just how much youāve changed things for me,ā he said, his voice so steady it made my chest tighten.
I didnāt know what to say, so instead, I squeezed his hand lightly, the weight of his words settling in the best way possible.
Somewhere in the distance, I heard the faint click of a camera shutter, and I stiffened instinctively.
āWhat?ā Matt asked, immediately alert.
I nodded toward the direction of the sound, keeping my voice low. āI think someoneās taking pictures.ā
His jaw tensed, but he didnāt let go of my hand. Instead, he turned, scanning the area until his gaze landed on a figure standing farther back, half-hidden behind a tree.
āLetās go,ā he said softly but firmly, rising from the bench and tugging me gently with him.
We walked quickly but not so fast it would draw attention, his hand never leaving mine as he led me back toward the parkās edge where the car was waiting. Once we were inside and the driver pulled away, I finally let out a breath I hadnāt realized I was holding. āDoes that happen a lot?ā
āMore than Iād like,ā he admitted, running a hand through his hair. āItās why I donāt usuallyā¦do things like this. But Iām not going to let it ruin tonight.ā
I looked at him, seeing the resolve in his expression, and felt the knot in my stomach loosen just a bit.
āYouāre pretty good at this whole crisis management thing,ā I said, trying to lighten the mood.
He smirked. āPart of the job. But also, I kind of have someone worth protecting now.ā
I rolled my eyes, though the warmth spreading through my chest betrayed me. āLetās just hope they got my good side.ā
Matt laughed at that, the sound melting the lingering tension.
āYour good side?ā he repeated, teasing. āSan Diego, every side of you is good.ā
I couldnāt stop the smile that broke across my face, even as I rolled my eyes again. Maybe the night wasnāt going exactly as planned, but sitting here next to Matt, I couldnāt bring myself to care.
āāāāā ā ā āāāāā
I swung gently on the stool at Mattās kitchen island, my feet just barely brushing the floor. The airy, modern kitchen was quiet except for the sound of Matt rummaging around in his freezer.
āYou sure you donāt want anything else?ā he called over his shoulder.
I laughed. āYou already fed me enough for three people. Ice cream is about all I can handle right now.ā
He straightened, holding up a pint of cookie dough ice cream in one hand and rocky road in the other. āYour choice, San Diego.ā
I tilted my head, pretending to deliberate. āTough call, but cookie dough wins. Obviously.ā
He chuckled and tossed the rocky road back into the freezer, grabbing two spoons before joining me at the island. He slid the pint across the counter toward me and handed me a spoon.
āDo you always keep multiple flavors on standby?ā I asked, scooping out a bite.
āYou never know what kind of mood youāll be in,ā he replied, sitting across from me and digging in. āItās a strategic choice.ā
I rolled my eyes. āSure, Manhattan. Youāre just that thoughtful.ā
He smirked but didnāt argue, instead taking another bite of ice cream.
For a few moments, we just sat there, the quiet hum of the city beyond the windows filling the space. It felt easyālike this wasnāt the first time weād sat together like this, sharing something as simple as a pint of ice cream.
āSo,ā he said after a while, breaking the silence, āhow does it feel being back in New York?ā
I paused, considering the question. āHonestly? Kind of surreal. Itās weird seeing the city again after everythingā¦but I guess itās good weird. Like coming full circle.ā
āFull circle, huh?ā he echoed, watching me thoughtfully. āThatās one way to put it.ā
I raised an eyebrow. āYou have a different way?ā
He leaned back slightly, a faint smile playing on his lips. āIād call it something else.ā
āLike what?ā
He shrugged, but his eyes held mine, warm and steady. āLike the beginning of something.ā
My heart skipped a beat, and I quickly glanced down at the ice cream, focusing on the pint as though it were the most fascinating thing in the world.
āBig words for a guy who just wonāt admit this is a date,ā I muttered, more to myself than to him.
But Matt heard me, his laugh low and teasing. āWho said I wouldnāt admit it?ā
I looked up sharply, narrowing my eyes. āOh, so this is a date?ā
He tilted his head, pretending to think. āWhat do you think?ā
I opened my mouth to reply, but nothing came out. Instead, I felt a flush creeping up my neck. I glanced away, shaking my head.
āSmooth, Manhattan,ā I muttered, earning another laugh from him.
āYouāre the one who brought it up,ā he teased, and I groaned, throwing a napkin at him.
āJust eat your ice cream.ā He was still grinning when he took another bite, and I couldnāt help but smile too.
āāāāā ā ā āāāāā
The soft morning light filtered through the guest room blinds, pulling me from a restless sleep. I rubbed my eyes, still half-dreaming as I sat up and glanced around the unfamiliar but undeniably nice room. Mattās house. Right. I stretched and shuffled out of bed, padding down the hallway in my socks. The house was eerily quiet, save for the faint hum of the fridge as I wandered into the kitchen.
āMatt?ā I called, my voice still hoarse from sleep. No answer.
I glanced around, expecting him to pop up from behind a corner or maybe appear on his phone in the living room, but he was nowhere to be found. The place was spotless, with no sign of breakfast or any activity that morning. Frowning, I grabbed my phone from the counter and sent him a quick text.
Friday, September 30, 2024 Today, 8:31am
ME: Where are you? Your house is way too quiet.
I leaned against the counter, waiting for a reply. It didnāt take long before my phone buzzed in my hand.
MATT: Gym. Didnāt want to wake you.
I smiled faintly, imagining him out lifting weights or running drills like the overachiever he was.
ME: Very considerate of you. Also rude. Iām lost in this cavern of a house. MATT: Cavern? Dramatic much? The coffeeās already made. Cupboard to the right of the sink.
I glanced at the cupboard he mentioned and, sure enough, found mugs neatly arranged inside.
ME: Oh, so you think coffeeās going to solve all my problems? MATT: It solves 95% of mine. The other 5% is you.
I froze, staring at his text, the warmth rising to my cheeks unbidden. I quickly shook it off, focusing on pouring myself a cup of coffee instead.
ME: Youāre insufferable. MATT: Youāre smiling.
Okay, he wasnāt wrong, but I wasnāt about to admit that. I set my phone down and leaned on the counter, sipping my coffee and trying not to imagine Matt at the gym, sweaty and smug.
Before I could think too much about it, another text popped up.
MATT: Iāll be back soon. Donāt burn my house down. ME: No promises.
Smiling to myself, I wandered back toward the guest room, coffee in hand. Even in the quiet, empty house, I couldnāt shake the sense of ease I felt being here. It was a strange kind of comfortālike I was exactly where I was supposed to be.
Matt walked into the house just as I was sprawled across the guest room bed, deeply invested in an episode of Total Drama Island. The drama on the screen was hitting its peak, and I was yelling at the TV like my opinions could somehow change the outcome. The sound of the front door opening barely registered. It wasnāt until I heard footsteps coming down the hall that I glanced up. Matt appeared in the doorway, his hair damp from a shower and curling slightly at the ends. His face was still a little flushed, either from his workout or the heat of the water, and a towel hung loosely over his shoulder. He was wearing a plain black t-shirt and gray sweatpants that looked so comfortable I almost envied them.
āTotal Drama Island?ā he asked, one eyebrow raised in amusement as he leaned against the doorframe. āReally, San Diego?ā
āDonāt knock it,ā I said, sitting up slightly but not bothering to mute the show. āThis is peak television. Youāre just not sophisticated enough to understand.ā
He laughed, the sound easy and warm. āYouāre watching cartoon characters backstab each other on an island, and youāre calling me unsophisticated?ā
āExactly,ā I shot back, grinning. āAt least one of us has taste.ā
He shook his head, stepping further into the room and crossing his arms. āI donāt even know what to do with you sometimes.ā
āAdmit Iām right?ā I offered, taking a sip of my coffee from earlier, now lukewarm.
āNot gonna happen,ā he said, smirking. His eyes flicked to the TV for a moment. āWait, isnāt this the episode whereāā
āDonāt spoil it!ā I interrupted, sitting up fully now. āI donāt need your running commentary, Manhattan. Go find something else to do if youāre going to disrespect the art.ā
āFine, fine,ā he said, holding his hands up in mock surrender. āBut I need to knowāare you staying here all day, or are we doing something that doesnāt involve animated drama?ā
I tilted my head, pretending to consider. āDepends. Whatās your offer?ā
He grinned, slinging the towel off his shoulder and tossing it toward the doorway. āI was thinking breakfast, but now Iām reconsidering. Maybe I should just leave you here to marinate in your terrible opinions.ā
āYour loss,ā I teased, gesturing to the TV. āThis is gold.ā
āYouāre impossible,ā he said, shaking his head again, though the smile on his face betrayed his amusement.
āAnd yet, here you are,ā I said, smirking.
He didnāt respond, just gave me a long look before turning toward the door. āBe ready in fifteen,ā he called over his shoulder. āIām not letting you skip out on eating.ā
āFifteen minutes?ā I called after him. āWhat is this, boot camp?ā
āYouāll survive,ā he said, disappearing down the hall.
I rolled my eyes, but I couldnāt stop the grin spreading across my face. As much as I wanted to keep watching Total Drama Island, I wasnāt about to pass up whatever Matt had plannedāespecially if it involved breakfast.
āāāāā ā ā āāāāā
Fifteen minutes later, I had pulled myself togetherāwell, mostly. I threw on a pair of denim shorts, a loose t-shirt, and my sneakers, still feeling half-asleep but ready to take on whatever Matt had planned. When I walked into the kitchen, he was already waiting, leaning against the counter with his arms crossed. He looked entirely too awake for someone who had just come back from the gym. His hair had dried a little more, sticking up in a few places, but it only added to his annoyingly effortless charm.
āYou clean up nice,ā he teased, eyeing my outfit as he sipped his coffee.
āDonāt push it, Manhattan,ā I shot back, grabbing my own mug from earlier and grimacing when I realized it was still lukewarm.
āReady?ā he asked, ignoring my glare as he set his coffee down.
āWhere are we even going?ā I asked, following him as he grabbed his keys and headed toward the door.
āTrust me,ā he said, smirking over his shoulder.
āThatās a dangerous thing to say,ā I muttered, but I followed him out to the car anyway.
He drove us to a little diner tucked away in a quiet part of town, the kind of place you wouldnāt find unless you were looking for it. The parking lot was half-full, and the smell of bacon and syrup hit me the moment we stepped inside.
āYouāve been holding out on me,ā I said as we slid into a booth near the back.
āIām full of surprises,ā he replied, picking up a menu.
āClearly,ā I said, pretending to study the menu even though I already knew I was getting pancakes.
The waitress came by, a middle-aged woman with a kind smile, and took our orders. Matt got a massive breakfast platterāeggs, bacon, toast, the worksāand I stuck to my pancakes and coffee.
āSo,ā he said once sheād left, leaning back against the booth and looking at me with that easy grin. āWhatās the plan for the rest of the day?ā
I raised an eyebrow. āShouldnāt I be asking you that? Youāre the local, Manhattan.ā
He chuckled, setting his coffee down. āYeah, but this is technicallyĀ yourĀ trip. I figured Iād let you call the shots.ā
I thought about it for a moment, swirling the last of the syrup on my plate with a piece of pancake. āI want to do more touristy stuff. You know, the stuff people make fun of but secretly love.ā
āTouristy stuff?ā he repeated, feigning dismay. āYou do know New Yorkās more than Times Square, right?ā
āYes, Matt,ā I said, rolling my eyes. āI donāt need to take selfies with Elmo, thanks. But like, the real iconic stuffāCentral Park, Rockefeller Center. Maybe the Met?ā
āThe Met, huh? You wanna get all cultured?ā
āIs that a problem?ā
āNot at all,ā he said, smirking. āIāll just make sure to bring my monocle.ā
I snorted, shaking my head. āBut seriously, if weāre doing more city stuff, Iām putting my foot down about one thing.ā
āOh?ā He leaned forward, resting his elbows on the table. āAnd whatās that?ā
āYouāre not wearing that ridiculous hat-sunglasses-hoodie combo again,ā I said firmly, pointing my fork at him for emphasis. āYou looked like you were auditioning for an undercover spy movie.ā
He laughed, loud and unrestrained, drawing a glance from the couple at the next table. āIn my defense, I didnāt hear you complaining when it worked.ā
āIt didnāt work,ā I shot back. āWe were spotted in, like, two seconds.ā
āFine,ā he conceded, holding up his hands. āIāll leave the disguise at home. But if we get mobbed, youāre dealing with it.ā
āDeal,ā I said, smirking as I pushed my plate aside.
The waitress came by to collect our dishes, and Matt paid the check despite my half-hearted protests.
āAlright, San Diego,ā he said as we walked back to the car. āYouāve got yourself a tour guide. Just donāt say I didnāt warn you when your feet are killing you by the end of the day.ā
I shot him a sidelong glance. āOh, please. Youāre the one whoāll be begging to sit down first.ā
āIs that a challenge?ā
āMaybe.ā
He grinned, unlocking the car. āYouāre on.ā
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I stood in front of an enormous painting, tilting my head slightly as I tried to make sense of it. A blend of colors swept across the canvas in bold, jagged strokes. Abstract. Chaotic. Beautiful. Matt, however, was slouched on the bench a few feet behind me, arms crossed and a clear look of boredom plastered across his face.
āOkay,ā he said, his voice cutting through the quiet reverence of the museum. āExplain it to me again. Why are we pretending that smear of paint means anything?ā
I turned to him, raising an eyebrow. āItās art, Manhattan. Itās not supposed to āmeanā anything. Youāre supposed to feel something when you look at it.ā
āWell, Iām definitely feeling something,ā he muttered, shifting on the bench. āItās mostly confusion and regret for not steering us toward pizza instead.ā
I rolled my eyes, walking over to him. āYouāre such a baby. Itās not that bad.ā
āNot that bad?ā he echoed, gesturing around us. āWeāve been here for two hours. My legs are about to give out, my brainās fried from trying to pretend I know what Iām looking at, and Iām pretty sure I just walked past a sculpture of aā¦melted clock? What is that?ā
I stifled a laugh, crossing my arms. āThatās Salvador DalĆ. Itās surrealism. Itās supposed to look like that.ā
āSurrealism,ā he repeated, deadpan. āRight. Totally makes sense.ā
Shaking my head, I sat beside him on the bench, watching as he leaned his head back and let out a dramatic sigh. āYouāre impossible,ā I said, smiling despite myself.
He glanced at me out of the corner of his eye, a hint of a smirk tugging at his lips. āAnd yet, here you are, willingly subjecting me to this torture.ā
āYouāre the one who said youād be my tour guide,ā I shot back. āIf youāre gonna complain this much, we can just leave.ā
āOh no,ā he said quickly, sitting up straight. āWeāre staying. Youāre clearly having the time of your life, and Iām not about to ruin your cultural awakening or whatever.ā
āCultural awakening?ā I repeated, laughing. āNow youāre just being dramatic.ā
āMe? Dramatic?ā He pressed a hand to his chest in mock offense. āNever.ā
I shook my head, standing up and holding a hand out to him. āCome on. One more gallery, and then Iāll let you pick the next stop.ā
He hesitated for a second before taking my hand, his grip warm and steady. āYou mean it? Like, actually my pick?ā
āSure,ā I said, pulling him to his feet. āBut if you say pizza, Iām making you try pineapple on it.ā
His face twisted in mock horror as he followed me toward the next room. āYou really are trying to ruin me, arenāt you?ā
I laughed, glancing back at him. āMaybe a little.ā
Despite his complaints, I caught the faintest smile on his face as he trailed behind me, like he didnāt mind the torture all that much. After another half hour of wandering through yet another wing filled with priceless paintings and sculptures, Matt looked like he was on the verge of staging a dramatic collapse. He leaned heavily against a column in the middle of the room, shooting me a long-suffering look.
āOkay, San Diego, I canāt feel my legs anymore,ā he declared. āAre you seriously not done yet?ā
I suppressed a grin, scanning the room before glancing back at him. āFine. Iām done. For now.ā
His face lit up with mock relief, and he straightened, stretching his arms over his head. āThank God. Youāre a menace to my sanity.ā
āOh, stop. You survived,ā I teased, linking my arm through his and steering him toward the exit. āNow itās your turn. Whatās next on our big New York adventure?ā
Matt paused, rubbing his chin as if in deep thought. āWell, I was thinkingā¦maybe some pizza. Without pineapple,ā he added quickly, shooting me a warning look.
I rolled my eyes. āI feel like youāre avoiding giving me a real answer.ā
āFine,ā he said, smirking. āHow about this: Iāll surprise you.ā
āA surprise?ā I raised an eyebrow, skeptical. āShould I be worried?ā
āDefinitely,ā he replied, his tone completely serious.
By the time we stepped outside, the afternoon sun was dipping lower in the sky, casting the city in a warm, golden glow. Matt flagged down a cab with ease, holding the door open for me before sliding in after. As the cab pulled away from the curb, I turned to him. āAre you gonna at least give me a hint?ā
He shook his head, looking entirely too pleased with himself. āNope.ā
āNot even a little one?ā
āNot even a little one,ā he repeated, leaning back in his seat with a smug grin.
I narrowed my eyes at him, but I couldnāt help the small smile that tugged at my lips. Whatever he was planning, I had a feeling it was going to be worth the wait.About twenty minutes later, we pulled up to a small, tucked-away ice cream parlor with a hand-painted sign that read Eddieās Sweet Spot. It was the kind of place that looked like it had been around for decades, its charm untouched by the fast pace of the city around it.
āIce cream?ā I asked, glancing at him as we stepped out of the cab.
āYouāve had a long day of culture and sophistication,ā he said, holding the door open for me. āFigured you could use a reward.ā
I stepped inside, instantly hit with the sweet smell of waffle cones and sugar. The place was cozy and inviting, with pastel-colored walls and old-fashioned booths.
āYouāre really pulling out all the stops, huh?ā I teased, nudging him lightly.
āWhat can I say? Iām a man of refined taste,ā he shot back, already scanning the menu.
After some playful debate over flavorsāMatt insisted on trying to convince me that plain vanilla was underratedāwe finally made our choices and grabbed a booth near the window.
As I dug into my cone, I couldnāt help but notice the way Mattās expression softened as he watched me, like he was quietly taking in the moment.
āWhat?ā I asked, suddenly self-conscious.
āNothing,ā he said, shaking his head. āJustā¦you look happy. Itās nice.ā
I felt my cheeks warm under his gaze, and I quickly looked down at my ice cream, trying to fight the grin threatening to take over my face.
āDonāt get used to it,ā I said lightly, though my voice betrayed the flutter of my heart.
He laughed, leaning back in the booth. āToo late.ā
For the first time since arriving in New York, I felt completely at ease, the cityās chaos fading into the background as we sat there, sharing stolen moments and sugary sweetness.
After finishing our ice cream, we stepped back out onto the street, the evening air cooler now as dusk started to settle over the city. I tossed my napkin into a nearby trash can and turned to Matt, who was casually leaning against the brick wall of the parlor, his hands tucked into the pockets of his jeans.
āWhat now?ā I asked, glancing up and down the street.
āWell,ā he said, pushing off the wall, āI was gonna take you to see the skyline, but I think weād both just fall asleep on the way there.ā
I laughed. āWow, way to sell your romantic plans, Manhattan.ā
āIām nothing if not honest,ā he replied, grinning. āBut seriously, what do you want to do? We could head back, orā¦ā He trailed off, waiting for me to fill in the blank.
I thought for a moment, glancing around at the glowing streetlights and the soft hum of the city that never really quieted. āWhat about a walk? Just around here. No plans, no cabs, justā¦see where we end up?ā
Matt raised an eyebrow but nodded. āAlright, San Diego. Lead the way.ā
We started down the block, the rhythm of the city around us blending with our footsteps. For once, it felt like the pace of New York wasnāt racing ahead of me, like I could actually breathe it in and let it settle.
As we walked, Matt kept pointing out little details I wouldāve missedāa quirky graffiti mural on a side street, a bakery that smelled so good I almost made us detour, the way the Empire State Building lit up faintly in the distance.
āSo,ā he said after a while, his tone light but curious, āwhat do you think of New York so far?ā
āI think itās overwhelming and loud and chaotic,ā I admitted. āBut itās alsoā¦beautiful. In a weird way.ā
He smirked. āWeirdly beautiful. Iāll take that.ā
We crossed a small park, the trees lit by string lights that swayed gently in the breeze. The atmosphere felt quieter here, almost intimate.
āWhat about you?ā I asked, glancing at him. āDo you like living here?ā
He shrugged. āSometimes. I mean, itās great for what I do, obviously. But I think I miss having space. You know, being able to drive five minutes and end up somewhere quiet.ā
āLike the beach?ā I teased.
āExactly,ā he said with a grin. āAlthough, I donāt think Iād survive long in California. Iām not laid-back enough for it.ā
āYouāre telling me you wouldnāt trade the chaos of Manhattan for sunny skies and year-round flip-flop weather?ā
He laughed. āNot a chance. Iād miss the energy here. And the pizza.ā
āAh, so itās about the food,ā I said, shaking my head.
āAlways,ā he replied, grinning.
We walked in silence for a few moments, the quiet comfortable between us. Eventually, we found ourselves back near where we started, the streetlights glowing a little brighter now as night fully settled in.
āI guess weāve officially wandered in a big circle,ā I said, glancing around.
āEfficient,ā he quipped.
I smiled, turning to face him. āThanks for tonight. I know it wasnāt the fanciest or anything, butā¦I had fun.ā
āFunās underrated,ā he said, his voice softer now. āAnd youāre welcome.ā
For a moment, we just stood there, the buzz of the city around us fading into the background. His eyes met mine, and there was something in his gaze that made my breath hitch, something quiet and steady that felt like gravity pulling me in.
āAlright,ā he said, breaking the moment with a small smile. āLetās get you home before you fall asleep standing up.ā
I laughed, shaking off the nerves that had crept in. āYouāre probably right. Lead the way, Manhattan.ā
As we walked back toward his car, I couldnāt help but glance over at him, wondering if he felt it tooāthis quiet shift, this sense that we were standing at the edge of something neither of us could quite name yet.
When we got back to Mattās place, I kicked off my shoes in the entryway, sighing as I stretched my arms over my head. āThat walk was exactly what I needed,ā I said, glancing over at him. āThanks for being my tour guide.ā
Matt smirked, pulling his hoodie off and tossing it onto the back of the couch. āDonāt thank me yet. My tours usually come with a fee.ā
āOh, do they?ā I teased, arching a brow. āWhatās the charge?ā
āUndecided,ā he said with a wink, heading toward the kitchen.
I rolled my eyes and followed him, leaning against the counter as he opened the fridge and grabbed a bottle of water. āSo,ā I started, trying to sound casual, āwhatās on your agenda for tomorrow?ā
He paused for a second, like he was debating how to answer. āWell,ā he said slowly, twisting the cap off the bottle, āIāve got a game.ā
I blinked. āWait, a game? Like, an actual hockey game?ā
āThat is what I do for a living, San Diego,ā he said, his grin widening.
āI know that!ā I said, throwing my hands up. āBut I didnāt thinkāI mean, you didnāt say anything about it before.ā
āI didnāt think itād matter,ā he said, leaning back against the counter. āI figured you wouldnāt want to spend your time here sitting in a freezing cold arena.ā
I stared at him. āMatt, are you kidding me? Of course I want to see you play! Iāve never been to an NHL game before!ā
His expression softened, and he tilted his head slightly. āYou sure? Itās not exactlyā¦touristy.ā
āPlease,ā I said, crossing my arms. āI sat through a three-hour art exhibit with you. I think I can handle a couple hours of hockey.ā
āFair point,ā he said, laughing. āAlright, then. Iāll get you a ticket.ā
āOh no,ā I said, shaking my head. āIām not sitting in the nosebleeds. I want the good seats. Right on the glass.ā
āDemanding,ā he said with a smirk.
āIām serious!ā I shot back, grinning.
āRelax, San Diego,ā he said, holding his hands up in mock surrender. āIāve got you covered. Just donāt start banging on the glass and making a scene, alright?ā
āNo promises,ā I said, sticking my tongue out at him.
He laughed, shaking his head. āYouāre something else, you know that?ā
āYeah, yeah,ā I said, brushing it off. But inside, I couldnāt stop smiling. The thought of seeing him out there on the ice, doing what he loved, sent a weird mix of excitement and nerves buzzing through me.
āSo,ā I said, leaning back against the counter. āWhat timeās the game?ā
āPuck drops at seven,ā he said. āWeāll have to leave around five-thirty.ā
I nodded, already mentally planning what Iād wear.
āYouāre really excited about this, huh?ā he said, watching me with an amused expression.
āObviously,ā I replied. āThis is a big deal, Matt. Youāre a big deal.ā
His ears turned a little red, and he looked down at the water bottle in his hand. āItās just a game,ā he said, shrugging.
āSure it is,ā I said, smiling knowingly. He shook his head, clearly trying to downplay it, but I could tell he was secretly pleased.
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The morning light filtered through the blinds in Mattās guest room, but Iād been up for a while, unable to shake the excitement for the game later. Iād only brought my usual clothes with me, but it felt wrong not to wear something that supported his team. And I knew Matt had to have Rangers gear somewhere. So, naturally, I decided to snoop. I tiptoed into his room, figuring I could quietly dig through his closet without waking him. He was sprawled out on his bed, the sheets half kicked off and his hair a mess, still dead to the world. For a professional athlete, he sure looked ridiculously peacefulālike a golden retriever napping in the sun.
I opened the closet as silently as I could and started rifling through the hanging clothes. Jackets, button-ups, plain T-shirtsāwhere was the good stuff? I found a Rangers hoodie shoved toward the back and pulled it down, but then I saw a plain navy shirt with the teamās logo on the front. Perfect. I reached for itāand knocked a hanger off the rack. It hit the floor with a loud clatter, and I froze.
āSan Diego,ā came a groggy voice from the bed.
I slowly turned around to see Matt, propped up on one elbow, squinting at me through half-open eyes. His hair stuck up in every direction, and he looked like heād just woken from a two-week coma.
āWhat the hell are you doing?ā he asked, his voice thick with sleep.
āI, uhā¦ā I held up the Rangers shirt like it was evidence at a trial. āI needed something to wear for the game.ā
He blinked, then flopped back onto the pillows with a groan. āYou woke me up for that?ā
āI didnāt mean to wake you up!ā I protested, clutching the shirt defensively. āI was being quiet!ā
āYouāre rummaging through my closet like a raccoon in a dumpster,ā he muttered, rubbing his face with one hand. āWhat time is it?ā
āAlmost nine,ā I said, glancing at my phone.
He groaned again. āToo early.ā
āToo early? Youāre an athlete. Arenāt you supposed to be a morning person?ā
āIām an athlete on my day off,ā he grumbled, rolling over to bury his face in the pillow. āJust take the shirt and leave me alone.ā
I hesitated, then sat down on the edge of the bed. āSorry,ā I said, unable to hide my grin. āI didnāt mean to interrupt your beauty sleep.ā
āYeah, well,ā he mumbled, voice muffled, ātoo late now.ā
I laughed and gave him a light shove on the shoulder. āFine, go back to sleep, grumpy.ā
He peeked at me from under his arm, his lips twitching like he was trying not to smile. āYouāre lucky youāre cute, San Diego.ā
I felt my face heat up but quickly stood and backed toward the door, holding up the shirt like a trophy. āIām borrowing this, and thereās nothing you can do about it.ā
I was scrolling aimlessly on my phone, curled up on Mattās couch in my pyjamas, when I heard the soft creak of a door opening. Glancing up, I froze. Matt shuffled out of his room, half-asleep, with a blanket draped over his shoulders like some kind of makeshift cape. His hair was sticking up in every possible direction, and he was shirtlessācompletely shirtlessāwearing only a pair of black boxers.
My face instantly felt like it was on fire, and I quickly looked back down at my phone, though I wasnāt actually reading anything. Why does he look like that?
āMorning,ā he mumbled, his voice low and rough, still thick with sleep.
āUh, morning,ā I managed, trying to sound normal. My eyes flickered up for just a second, but that was a mistake. His chestābroad and unfairly tonedāwas right there. And his boxers sat low on his hips, the blanket doing a terrible job of covering anything. I ducked my head again, praying he didnāt notice how flustered I was.
He yawned as he approached, then flopped down right beside me on the couch. The blanket shifted as he sprawled out, and I had to fight the urge to bolt to the other side of the room.
āCanāt get back to sleep,ā he grumbled, his voice muffled as he buried his face into the crook of his arm.
āOh,ā I said, barely above a whisper, gripping my phone tightly like it might somehow ground me. āThatāsā¦uh, thatās too bad.ā
āMm,ā he hummed, eyes closed as he adjusted the blanket. āThis couch is more comfortable than my bed right now.ā
I glanced at him, only to find his face half-pressed into the cushion. The sight of him all wrapped up in the blanket, looking so soft and vulnerable, did something strange to my chest. My heart tugged before I could stop it.
Without really thinking, I hesitated, then reached out and ran my fingers through his hair gently. It was still messy and slightly damp from his shower before bed, but soft under my touch.
He didnāt say anything. He just let out a small sigh, the tension in his shoulders melting away.
āBetter?ā I asked softly, my fingers still weaving through his hair.
āMm-hmm,ā he mumbled, barely coherent. Within moments, I felt his breathing even out, his head now resting on the arm of the couch, and I realized heād fallen asleep.
I glanced down at him, his face so peaceful and calm, and couldnāt help but smile. My heart was still racing, but I didnāt dare move. For now, I just stayed there, my hand gently tangled in his hair, trying to figure out how this had somehow become my morning. I stayed there, my hand resting in Mattās hair, listening to the quiet rise and fall of his breathing. The apartment was still, save for the faint hum of the air conditioning. My phone sat forgotten on the couch next to me.
It felt strangely intimate, sitting like this, watching him sleep. His face was so soft, so different from the confident, slightly cocky Matt I was used to seeing. Here, he just lookedā¦human. I thought back to the last few daysāthe whirlwind of being in New York, the strange tension between us, and how everything seemed to feel more real the longer I stayed here. It wasnāt like our usual dynamic over texts and FaceTime. Being here, seeing him like this, was something I hadnāt fully prepared for. He shifted slightly, turning his head so that his cheek pressed against the couch cushion, his hair falling over his forehead. The blanket slipped off his shoulder, and my eyes betrayed me again, darting to the curve of his collarbone and the strong lines of his chest. God, this is unfair. I tried to focus on somethingāanythingāelse, glancing out the window at the sunny New York morning. A couple of hours ago, I was sitting here trying to figure out what Iād wear to the game, and now I was stuck in a moment I wasnāt sure how to handle.
Matt stirred again, groaning softly as his arm draped over his eyes. āWhat time is it?ā he murmured, voice thick with sleep.
I glanced at my phone. āAlmost ten.ā
āToo early,ā he muttered, sinking deeper into the couch, his voice muffled.
āYou literally have a hockey game today,ā I teased, trying to sound more casual than I felt.
He groaned louder this time, shifting just enough to peek at me from under his arm. His hazel eyes, still heavy with sleep, met mine, and I felt my breath catch.
āYouāre too awake for this early,ā he said, his voice low and raspy, though there was the faintest hint of a smirk tugging at his lips.
I rolled my eyes, determined to play it cool. āI donāt think ten a.m. counts as early. What time do you usually wake up?ā
āDepends,ā he said, turning to face me fully now, propping his head up on his hand. āOn game days, usually earlier. Guess I needed extra sleep today.ā His eyes flicked to my hand, which was still resting near his head.
I pulled it back quickly, feeling heat creep up my neck. āSorry,ā I said, looking away.
āDonāt be,ā he said, his voice quieter now. āIt felt nice.ā
I blinked, unsure of what to say, and instead busied myself by grabbing my phone. āYou, uh, want breakfast or something? I can makeāā
āYou cook now?ā he interrupted, a teasing grin spreading across his face.
I narrowed my eyes. āIāll have you know Iām very capable in the kitchen.ā
He raised an eyebrow, clearly unconvinced. āOh, really?ā
āYes, really,ā I shot back. āBut fine, you can fend for yourself. Hope you like cold cereal.ā
He laughed softly, the sound low and warm. āYouāre in charge of breakfast, then. Surprise me.ā
I stood up, trying to shake off the fluttery feeling in my chest. āOkay, but donāt complain if itās burnt.ā
As I moved toward the kitchen, I heard him chuckle again. āIāll take my chances, San Diego.ā
And just like that, the morning shifted, the weight of the moment easing into something lighter, something that felt more like us. But as I pulled ingredients from the fridge, I couldnāt help but feel like something between us had changed.
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I stood in front of the mirror in Mattās guest room, adjusting the Rangers hoodie Iād borrowed from his closet again. The oversized fit practically swallowed me whole, but it was ridiculously soft, and the bold "73" on the back made my stomach do an unexpected flip. His number. It felt oddly personal to wear something so tied to him, but I couldnāt bring myself to take it off.
Grabbing my phone, I headed into the living room. āMatt, we really need to go!ā I called out, trying to keep my voice steady.
The sound of his bedroom door creaking open made me turn. He stepped out, his duffle bag slung over his shoulder, dressed head-to-toe in his Rangers tracksuit. His hair was still damp from his shower, the light catching on it in a way that made me stare just a second too long.
But it was his expression that caught me off guard. He froze mid-step, his eyes landing squarely on the hoodie I was wearing.
āYouāre wearing that?ā he asked, a grin breaking across his face. His cheeks turned the faintest shade of pink as he looked at me, his usual confidence faltering for a moment.
āWell, yeah,ā I said, feigning nonchalance as I tugged at the sleeves. āItās the only Rangers gear I could find in your closet, and I figured Iād look the part.ā
He let out a soft laugh, his smile growing wider. āSan Diego, youāve never looked better.ā
I rolled my eyes, but I couldnāt stop the heat rising to my face. āOh, shut up, Manhattan.ā
āNo, seriously,ā he said, stepping closer, his grin taking on a slightly shy edge. āYouāre rocking it. I meanā¦wow. Thatās my number.ā
āIām aware,ā I teased, pointing at the bold "73" on the back. āUnless youāve been hiding some secret identity as number 12 or something.ā
He laughed, a real, warm sound that made my heart skip. āNope, just 73. And, uhā¦you look amazing. Like, really amazing.ā
āOkay, stop,ā I said, though I couldnāt stop smiling. āYouāre embarrassing me.ā
He smirked, his usual playfulness returning. āGet used to it. Youāre gonna get a lot of attention wearing that at MSG.ā
āSpeaking of,ā I said, grabbing my bag, āshouldnāt we get going?ā
āRight,ā he said, shaking himself slightly. āLetās do this.ā
We headed down to the car, and the drive to Madison Square Garden was filled with the usual banter that always managed to ease my nerves.
When we arrived, the chaos Iād expected was nowhere to be seen. Instead of the bustling crowds Iād imagined, Matt pulled into a private parking area and led me toward a discreet side entrance.
āWeāre going through the player entry?ā I asked, glancing around at the quiet corridor.
āYeah,ā he said, holding the door open for me. āThe game isnāt for hours, so itās pretty quiet. Plus, itās easier this wayāless chance of someone recognizing me and blowing up our whole day.ā
āAh, yes,ā I said, nodding sagely. āCanāt have anyone figuring out that number 73 brought his friend to work today.ā
āFriend, huh?ā he said, raising an eyebrow as he looked down at me.
āDonāt start,ā I warned, though I couldnāt help but grin.
He chuckled, leading me further into the maze of hallways. As we walked, he glanced over at me again, his eyes lingering on the hoodie.
āSeriously,ā he said, his voice quieter now. āYou in thatāitāsā¦yeah. I like it.ā
I didnāt know what to say to that, so I just nudged him with my elbow, hoping my flustered expression wasnāt too obvious.
We eventually reached a lounge area where a few other players were scattered, some stretching or scrolling on their phones. Matt waved to a couple of them, but he didnāt stop, his focus staying on me as he led me to a quieter corner.
āOkay,ā he said, dropping his duffle bag onto a chair. āYouāre officially here. Howās it feel?ā
āHonestly?ā I said, looking around. āKind of surreal. And also like Iām about to get kicked out for being in a restricted area.ā
Matt laughed, shaking his head. āYouāre with me. No oneās kicking you out.ā
āGood to know,ā I said, settling into a seat. āBut, uh, do I justā¦hang out here?ā
āFor now, yeah,ā he said, sitting down next to me. āYouāre good, San Diego. Just relax. And maybe save some of that sass for laterāIāll need it after the game.ā
I smiled, feeling a little more at ease. Being here, in his world, felt like stepping into something new and unpredictableābut with him by my side, it didnāt feel so scary.
We were sitting in the lounge when I noticed a group of guys heading our way. They looked like they were part of Mattās teamātall, athletic, the kind of guys who carried themselves with that unmistakable swagger. I could feel their eyes on us, and I shifted slightly in my seat, glancing at Matt for reassurance.
He didnāt notice. He was leaning back, scrolling through his phone, entirely oblivious to the approaching ambush.
āYo, Rempe!ā one of them called, his voice carrying easily across the room.
Mattās head snapped up, and the relaxed grin on his face froze when he realized they were headed straight for us.
āWhoās your little friend?ā another guy asked, smirking as they all came to a stop in front of us.
Matt looked like heād just been caught doing something he wasnāt supposed to. He fumbled for words, his usually smooth demeanor completely thrown off.
āUhā¦guys, this is, umā¦ā He glanced at me, clearly flustered. āThis is Y/N.ā
I gave them a small wave, my cheeks burning.
One of the guys raised an eyebrow, clearly amused by Mattās awkwardness. āY/N, huh? Nice to meet you. Iām Will.ā He stuck out a hand, which I shook, trying not to shrink under the sudden attention.
āShe yourāā Will started to ask, but another guy cut him off.
āSheās rocking your number, man,ā he said, gesturing at the hoodie I was wearing. āThatās serious business.ā
āItās just a hoodie,ā Matt said quickly, his voice a little higher than usual.
The guys burst into laughter, clearly enjoying his discomfort.
āYou are so bad at this,ā one of them said, shaking his head.
āShut up, KāAndre,ā Matt muttered, his face turning red.
Before I could say anything, a couple of women joined the group, their curious gazes flicking between me and Matt.
āOh, hey,ā one of them said, smiling warmly at me. āIām Emily. You must be Mattāsā¦ā She trailed off, waiting for clarification.
āFriend,ā I said quickly, cutting off the speculation.
āYeah,ā Matt added, nodding a little too vigorously. āFriend. Sheās my friend.ā
Emily raised an eyebrow but didnāt press further. Instead, she reached out to shake my hand. āNice to meet you, Y/N. Donāt mind these guysātheyāre incapable of acting normal.ā
āHey!ā one of the guys protested, but she ignored him.
Another woman, who introduced herself as Sarah, stepped forward with a kind smile. āItās nice to see Matt bring someone around. He doesnāt usually, you know, socialize outside of hockey.ā
āYeah, Rempeās basically a hermit,ā Will chimed in. āThis is big news.ā
āOkay, thatās enough,ā Matt said, standing up and glaring at them. āLeave her alone.ā
āWeāre just saying hi,ā KāAndre said, grinning. āNo need to get all defensive.ā
I couldnāt help but laugh, the tension easing slightly. āItās fine, really. I appreciate the warm welcome.ā
Emily and Sarah exchanged a glance before Sarah said, āWell, if you need a break from all the testosterone, come find us. Weāll be around.ā
āThanks,ā I said, smiling at them as they walked off, pulling their significant others with them.
Once they were gone, Matt let out a heavy sigh, running a hand through his hair. āSorry about that.ā
āWhy are you apologizing?ā I asked, still laughing a little. āTheyāre nice.ā
āYeah, but theyāre alsoā¦a lot,ā he said, sinking back into his seat.
āI can handle it,ā I assured him, grinning. āThough you really need to work on your introductions. That was painful.ā
He groaned, dropping his head into his hands. āI know. I panicked. They justā¦they donāt usually see me with anyone outside of hockey. And then youāre here, and itās you, andā¦ā He trailed off, shaking his head.
I reached over and patted his arm, trying not to smile too much. āRelax, Manhattan. I survived.ā
He looked up at me, his expression softening. āYeah, well, thanks for not running for the hills.ā
āNot yet, anyway,ā I teased, earning a small, grateful smile from him.
āāāāā ā ā āāāāā
Warmups were already in full swing by the time I found myself standing near the edge of the rink with a small group of women who had introduced themselves earlier. Emily and Sarah were among them, and theyād been nothing but welcoming since Iād arrived.
The sound of skates cutting across the ice filled the air as the Rangers warmed up, their movements fluid and practiced. I spotted Matt almost immediately, his tall frame unmistakable as he glided across the ice, taking practice shots at the net. He looked completely in his element, his usual awkwardness replaced with confidence and ease.
āSo,ā Emily said, nudging me slightly with her elbow. āWhatās it like being the new mystery girl?ā
I blinked, caught off guard by the question. āMystery girl?ā
Sarah laughed. āYouāve been here less than a day, and youāre already a hot topic. Matt never brings anyone around, so naturally, everyoneās curious.ā
I glanced at the ice, watching Matt shoot a puck that hit the top corner of the net with a sharp clang. āItās not really like that,ā I said, feeling my cheeks heat up. āWeāre just friends.ā
Emily raised an eyebrow. āFriends who wear his number and make him blush like a teenager?ā
āIāā I started, but Sarah cut in, smiling.
āDonāt let her tease you,ā she said. āBut seriously, he looks happy. Like, ridiculously happy. Itās nice to see.ā
I looked back at the ice, my gaze landing on Matt again. He skated over to grab another puck, his movements quick and precise. āHeās been really great to me,ā I admitted softly.
āHave you been to a lot of games?ā Emily asked, changing the subject slightly.
I shook my head. āThis is my first. Iām still figuring out what icing means.ā
Both Emily and Sarah laughed at that. āDonāt worry,ā Sarah said. āHalf of us didnāt know anything about hockey before we got dragged into this world. You pick it up fast.ā
As we chatted, I noticed a few of the players skating by and glancing our way. One of themāWill, if I remembered correctlyāwaved, and I waved back awkwardly.
āHeās definitely trying to figure out whatās going on with you and Matt,ā Emily said with a grin.
āLet him wonder,ā I said, smirking a little.
āYou fit in well here,ā Sarah said suddenly, her tone warm.
I looked at her, surprised. āYou think so?ā
āDefinitely,ā she said, nodding. āItās not always easy being part of this world, but youāre doing great.ā
I smiled, grateful for her kindness. āThanks. That means a lot.ā
Emily leaned in closer, lowering her voice. āBut seriously, if you ever need advice or just someone to talk to about all this, weāve got your back.ā
āDeal,ā I said, feeling a little more at ease.
Just then, Matt skated by, his eyes flicking over to where we stood. He did a double take when he saw me talking with Emily and Sarah, his expression a mix of surprise and what looked like mild panic.
āHeās looking at you,ā Sarah said, smirking.
āNot just looking,ā Emily added. āHeās practically staring.ā
I shook my head, laughing. āHeās probably wondering what Iām telling you about him.ā
āWell, now we have to mess with him,ā Sarah said, grinning wickedly.
āAbsolutely,ā Emily agreed.
I rolled my eyes playfully, but I couldnāt help the smile that tugged at my lips as I caught Matt sneaking another glance my way. Whatever this was, it felt goodālike I was exactly where I was supposed to be.
As warmups wound down, the players slowly began trickling off the ice and heading back to the locker rooms. Emily and Sarah turned back to me, their smiles still warm and welcoming.
āSo, are you sitting in the WAG suite tonight?ā Sarah asked, crossing her arms as the cool air from the rink nipped at us.
āThe WAG suite?ā I repeated, raising an eyebrow.
Emily laughed. āYeah, itās this private room they have reserved during games. You get a great view, snacks, drinks, and, most importantly, no chance of freezing your butt off in the stands.ā
āThat sounds⦠amazing,ā I admitted, but then added, āBut, honestly, I think Iād rather sit in the regular seats. You know, get the full experience.ā
Emily tilted her head at me, amused. āThe full experience? You mean sitting in the crowd, potentially surrounded by beer-chugging superfans and cold enough to wish youād worn a parka?ā
āExactly,ā I said with a grin. āI also plan on embarrassing Matt as much as possible. Itās only fair after he dragged me here.ā
Sarah laughed. āI respect that. But seriously, if you change your mind, the WAG suiteās always an option. Youād be warm, and Matt wouldnāt have to worry about anyone accidentally spilling nachos on you.ā
I pretended to consider it for a moment before shrugging. āMaybe if I get too cold. But for now, I think Iāll stick to the seats. I kinda want to see how crazy the fans get.ā
Emily reached into her bag and pulled out her phone. āHere, let me give you my number, just in case. If you need directions to the suite or just want to escape the chaos, text me.ā
I handed her my phone, watching as she quickly entered her contact information. āThanks,ā I said, feeling genuinely grateful for her thoughtfulness.
āNo problem,ā Emily replied, slipping her phone back into her bag. āAnd if Matt gives you grief about embarrassing him, just remind him heās the one who invited you.ā
āTrust me, I will,ā I said, smiling.
Sarah glanced toward the exit where the other WAGs were starting to make their way toward the suite. āWeāre heading up now, but let us know if you change your mind.ā
āI will,ā I promised, waving as they left.
Turning my attention back to the rink, I could feel a giddy sort of excitement bubbling in my chest. The stands were starting to fill, and the hum of energy in the arena was unmistakable. This was Mattās world, and I was more than ready to experience itānachos, cold air, and all.
As the arena continued to fill, I made my way down to my seat near the glass. The chill in the air was sharp, but the energy of the crowd warmed me. It was electricāfans were already decked out in Rangers jerseys, waving signs, and chanting. I glanced down at my own jersey, the big bold "73" on the back making me grin. Matt had insisted I wear it, and I could almost picture his blush when he saw me in it earlier.
I finally found my seat, right next to the penalty box, and chuckled to myself. Of course, Matt had set this up.
āHeās planning ahead,ā I muttered, shaking my head. If he thought I wouldnāt tease him about ending up in the sin bin tonight, he had another thing coming.
The music blared as the teams started making their way onto the ice for introductions. The crowd erupted, and I leaned forward, the cold from the glass seeping through my palms as I pressed them against it.
When the Rangers took the ice, I immediately spotted Matt. He skated out confidently, his stick tapping against the boards as the crowd roared. His gaze swept across the arena, and when his eyes landed on me, I swear his shoulders relaxed. He grinned and gave a quick tap of his stick on the ice before skating off to join the team huddle.
I waved at him, smirking. āYeah, donāt mess up now,ā I murmured, knowing full well he couldnāt hear me but wishing he could.
As the game began, I found myself completely engrossed. The action was fast-paced, and the sound of skates slicing the ice and sticks clashing was thrilling. But true to Mattās own prediction, it wasnāt long before I saw him headed toward his first 2 minute penalty.
The crowdās boos echoed through the arena as Matt skated toward the penalty box, his expression a mix of irritation and amusement. I watched as he sat down, leaning back in the seat like he owned the place.
He caught my eye immediately and smirked, shrugging as if to say, What can you do? Then he mouthed, āWrong call.ā
I raised an eyebrow and glanced up at the replay on the jumbotron. The footage clearly showed him hooking an opposing playerās stick just enough to trip him up. The crowd groaned in unison, clearly unimpressed, but I grinned.
When the camera cut back to the live feed of the penalty box, there he was, lounging in his seat like this was part of his game plan all along. His gaze flicked up to the screen, then back to me. Realizing I had his full attention, I decided to lean into the moment.
I widened my eyes like an over-the-top fangirl, grabbed my phone, and angled it toward myself and the penalty box behind me. I waved dramatically, pulling a face of pure excitement as if I were a diehard fan spotting my favorite player.
Mattās smirk widened when he realized what I was doing. He rolled his eyes, but the smile didnāt leave his face.
I pressed my phoneās camera shutter repeatedly, flipping through the photos as I giggled to myself. The live feed still had him on screen, and as I glanced back, I saw him shaking his head but clearly fighting a laugh.
I waved again, this time pointing at the jersey I was wearingāthe one with his numberāand mouthing, āBig fan!ā
He pressed his glove to his forehead in mock exasperation, then leaned forward slightly to hide his face, āYouāre impossible.ā
I beamed, holding up my phone to pretend to take one last selfie, just as he leaned back in his seat, fully resigned to his fate.
When his penalty was finally over, he skated back onto the ice with a quick glance over his shoulder at me. The moment felt like ours alone, tucked into the chaos of the game and the roaring crowd.
As the game continued, I looked down at the selfies Iād taken and couldnāt stop smiling. He might not live this down anytime soon, but something told me he wouldnāt really mind.
āāāāā ā ā āāāāā
The rest of the game unfolded with an intensity that had the crowd on their feet more often than not. The Rangers pulled ahead with a goal in the second period, and the arena erupted in cheers. I was still riding the high of my penalty-box antics, but now I was just trying to focus on the actionāthough admittedly, my eyes followed Matt more than the puck.
Every time he made a play, I couldnāt help but cheer a little louder than anyone else around me. When he made a big hit along the boards, I cupped my hands around my mouth and shouted, āLet's go!ā loud enough that a few people in nearby seats turned to look at me with amused smiles.
As the clock ticked down on the third period, the Rangers were up by two goals, and the energy in the building was electric. The final buzzer sounded, sealing the win, and I jumped to my feet with the rest of the crowd, clapping and shouting as the team gathered to celebrate on the ice.
I watched Matt skate in line for the post-game handshakes with the other team, his helmet off and a grin plastered across his face. When he glanced toward the seats near the penalty box, I caught his eye and gave him a subtle thumbs-up.
He nodded, still grinning, before disappearing down the tunnel with his teammates.
The crowd began to thin out, and I lingered for a moment, scrolling through my photos from the nightāespecially the ones Iād taken of him in the penalty box. Just as I was about to head toward the exit, I got a text.
MATT: You coming down, or are you too busy being a fan?
I snorted, shaking my head, and quickly typed back:
ME: Whatās in it for me? MATT: I wonāt make you sit next to the penalty box next time. ME: Tempting, but I actually had a great view. ;) MATT: Okay, fine. Iāll buy you dinner. Now hurry up before I change my mind.
I smiled, slipping my phone into my pocket and making my way to the area where family and guests were allowed post-game. After flashing the pass Matt had arranged for me, I was let through into the waiting area outside the locker rooms.
The hallway buzzed with activityāplayers walking out, greeting their families, and chatting with fans. I spotted a few familiar faces from earlier, the wives and girlfriends Iād met, and they waved at me warmly.
It wasnāt long before Matt appeared, still in his gear but now minus the skates, his hair damp from the shower heād undoubtedly taken in record time. His bag was slung over one shoulder, and his grin widened when he spotted me.
āHey,ā he said, walking over with an ease that made it look like he hadnāt just played a grueling game.
āHey yourself,ā I replied, trying not to let my smile get too big.
āYou enjoy the game?ā he asked, dropping his bag to the floor.
āLoved it. Especially the part where you spent two minutes in time-out,ā I teased, crossing my arms.
He groaned. āYouāre never letting that go, are you?ā
āNot a chance.ā
āFigures,ā he said, rolling his eyes but still grinning. āReady to get out of here?ā
āAbsolutely,ā I said, glancing down at the jersey I was still wearing. āBut you better not make me walk around town like this. People are going to think Iām a stalker or something.ā
Matt laughed, grabbing his bag and slinging it over his shoulder again. āI think people will figure out who youāre with pretty quickly.ā
He reached out, his hand brushing against my lower back as he led me toward the exit.
The night felt alive as we stepped out into the cool air, the city still buzzing with post-game energy. I didnāt know where we were headed, but with Matt walking beside me, I couldnāt bring myself to care.
We stepped out into the night, the city lights casting a glow on everything around us. The streets were alive with people, some still wearing Rangers gear, likely heading home after the game. Matt walked close beside me, his hand brushing mine every now and then as we weaved through the crowd.
āWhere are we going?ā I asked after a while, glancing up at him.
He smirked, his eyes warm and teasing. āYouāll see.ā
I arched an eyebrow but didnāt press further. Something about the way he looked at me in that momentāconfident, yet slightly nervousāmade my stomach do a little flip.
We turned a corner, leaving the busier streets behind, and found ourselves in a quieter part of the city. The sounds of honking cars and chatter faded into the background, replaced by the occasional hum of a passing cab.
Matt slowed his steps, glancing around before stopping in front of a small, cozy-looking diner with big windows that glowed softly in the dark. āI figured you might be hungry after all that yelling you did,ā he said, opening the door for me.
I laughed. āYelling? You mean cheering for you?ā
āIs that what you were doing?ā he shot back, grinning as I stepped inside.
The diner was nearly empty, just a couple of patrons scattered across the booths. The smell of fresh coffee and warm food filled the air, and it immediately felt like one of those places that stayed the same no matter how much the city changed around it.
We slid into a booth near the back, and Matt set his bag down on the seat beside him. He leaned back, looking completely at ease, and I couldnāt help but notice how different he seemed here than he did at the rink. Less intense, more relaxed.
When the server came by, we ordered milkshakesāchocolate for me, vanilla for himāand a plate of fries to share.
As soon as she walked away, Mattās gaze shifted back to me. His smile softened, and for a moment, he didnāt say anything, just looked at me like he was trying to figure something out.
āWhat?ā I asked, suddenly self-conscious under his stare.
āNothing,ā he said, shaking his head slightly. āJustā¦you looked like you were having fun tonight. I liked seeing that.ā
His words caught me off guard, and I felt a warmth rise to my cheeks. āWell, you did give me a lot to cheer for. That goal in the second period was impressive.ā
āThanks,ā he said, his grin turning a little shy. āI was hoping youād see that.ā
We fell into easy conversation after that, talking about the game, the fans, the way heād handled the penalty box situation. He made fun of how Iād acted like a crazed fan, and I teased him about the dramatic way he shrugged in the box.
Our milkshakes arrived, along with the fries, and we shared them like weād been doing this for years.
At one point, I reached for a fry at the same time he did, our fingers brushing against each other. Neither of us pulled back immediately, and when I finally did, I glanced up to find him watching me with an expression I couldnāt quite read.
āWhat is it?ā I asked softly.
He hesitated, as if weighing his words, before finally saying, āIāve never really done this before.ā
āDone what?ā
āThis.ā He gestured between us. āBrought someone intoā¦all of it. My life, the game, everything.ā
I blinked, caught off guard by the sincerity in his voice. āMatt, Iāā
āIām not saying that to freak you out,ā he added quickly. āI justā¦I donāt know. I wanted you to know that this means something to me. You mean something to me.ā
The words hung in the air between us, and for a moment, I wasnāt sure what to say. My heart felt like it was pounding loud enough for the whole diner to hear.
āYou mean something to me, too,ā I said finally, my voice barely above a whisper.
His eyes searched mine, and the small smile that broke across his face after that made me feel like Iād just scored a goal of my own.
We sat there for a little while longer, talking and laughing until the fries were gone and the milkshakes were just empty glasses.
When we finally stepped back out into the night, the city was quieter, the streets mostly empty now. As we drove back to his place, he reached over and took my hand in his.
I glanced up at him, surprised, but he didnāt look at me, just kept his gaze forward, his thumb brushing lightly against mine.
It wasnāt until we were almost at his building that he finally said, āYou donāt have to wear my number to embarrass me at the next game, you know.ā
I laughed, squeezing his hand. āOh, I will. Just wait and see, Manhattan.ā
His laugh joined mine, and for the first time in a long time, I felt like everything was exactly where it was supposed to be.
The elevator doors slid closed, and the soft hum of the ascent filled the space. Matt leaned against the side wall, his hands casually in his pockets, but his eyes flicked over to me, a small smirk tugging at his lips.
āCan I walk you home?ā he asked, his voice light but teasing.
I raised an eyebrow, fighting back a grin. āYou mean the bedroom two doors away from yours? Of course. My, my, what a gentleman.ā
He chuckled, stepping out of the elevator as we reached his floor. We made our way down the quiet hallway, and when we got to the door of the guest room, he turned to face me, giving a little bow with a flourish of his hand.
āYour suite, madam,ā he said, his eyes sparkling.
āWhy, thank you, sir,ā I replied, slipping into the playful tone heād started. āIt was a pleasant evening.ā
But as I reached for the doorknob, his tone shifted ever so slightly. āI guess⦠goodnight,ā he said, his voice softer now. āAnd Iāll see you in a couple of hours.ā
I froze, my hand on the door, the weight of his words sinking in. My flight. My chest tightened as the realization hit meāI was leaving tomorrow.
āOh⦠yeah,ā I said, my voice quieter now, almost reluctant. āGoodnight, Matt.ā
He gave me a small smile, but it didnāt quite reach his eyes, and for the first time all night, the usual ease between us felt slightly frayed. He took a step back, lingering in the hallway for a moment as if he wanted to say something else, but instead, he just nodded.
āGoodnight,ā he said again, and then he turned and walked toward his room, his shoulders a little lower than theyād been earlier.
I watched him go, the door to his room clicking shut behind him. My fingers lingered on the doorknob, but I couldnāt bring myself to turn it just yet. Instead, I leaned my forehead against the cool wood, my heart feeling heavier than it had any right to.
Why did it feel like saying goodnight was harder than it shouldāve been? And why, as I stood there in the quiet hallway, did I feel like Iād already started missing him?
āāāāā ā ā āāāāā
The sunlight filtered in through the blinds, casting soft streaks across the guest room walls. I sat cross-legged on the bed, my packed bag resting beside me, and my phone clutched in my hands. Iād been staring at the screen for a while now, scrolling aimlessly but not really seeing anything. The pit in my stomach had been growing since Iād woken up.
I glanced up when I heard a soft knock on the open door. Matt was standing there, his hair damp from a shower, little drops of water still clinging to the ends. He was in a simple gray T-shirt and sweats, his usual effortless look that somehow made my chest ache more than it should.
āHey,ā he said, his voice softer than usual as he stepped into the room. His eyes flicked to my bag. āYou⦠all ready to go?ā
I nodded, though it felt like my head weighed a ton. āYeah,ā I said, forcing a small smile. āJust waiting for the car.ā
He shifted on his feet, his hands sliding into the pockets of his sweatpants. āRight,ā he said, looking down for a moment. Then, he stepped closer, his presence filling the room in that way only Matt could. āYou sure youāve got everything? You didnāt leave your charger or⦠I donāt know, that Rangers shirt or something?ā
I let out a soft laugh at that, trying to lighten the mood. āI triple-checked. Pretty sure Iām not stealing any more of your stuff.ā
āGood,ā he said, though his grin didnāt quite reach his eyes. āI mean, not that Iād mind if you did.ā
The air between us felt heavier than it had last night, the kind of weight that came when you both knew something was ending, even if just for a little while.
āYou know,ā he said, sitting down on the edge of the bed, a few feet away from me. āYou donāt have to go.ā
I blinked at him, my chest tightening. āMattā¦ā
āNo, I know,ā he said quickly, cutting me off before I could say anything else. āI know you have school and everything. Iām not saying you should stay. I justā¦ā He hesitated, running a hand through his damp hair. āItās been nice having you here, thatās all.ā
I swallowed hard, my fingers curling into the fabric of my sweatpants. āItās been nice being here,ā I admitted, my voice quieter. āReally nice.ā
We sat there in silence for a moment, the only sound the distant hum of the city outside.
āWhenās your car supposed to get here?ā he asked eventually, his voice low.
āTwenty minutes,ā I said.
He nodded, his jaw tightening slightly before he glanced at me again. āThink we could make the most of it?ā
A small, bittersweet smile tugged at my lips. āI think we can try.ā
Matt smiled faintly at my response, though there was still that hint of sadness in his eyes. He shifted closer, reaching out to tug gently at the sleeve of the hoodie I was wearingāhis hoodie, the one I hadnāt stopped living in since Iād arrived in New York.
āGuess this is officially yours now,ā he said softly.
I looked down at the oversized fabric, a bittersweet laugh escaping me. āThink it already was.ā
The corner of his mouth twitched, but his eyes stayed on mine, and for a moment, everything else faded awayāthe car coming, the flight, the reality of going back to San Diego. There was just Matt, sitting on the edge of the bed, looking at me like he didnāt want me to go anywhere.
āIām gonna miss you, San Diego,ā he murmured, his voice just above a whisper.
āDonāt start,ā I said, my own voice wavering as I tried to keep it light. āYouāre gonna make me cry.ā
āIām serious,ā he said, his tone gentle but firm. āYouāre⦠youāre kind of my favorite person, you know that?ā
My throat tightened, and I didnāt know what to say. The weight of his words, the raw sincerity in them, hit me in a way I wasnāt prepared for.
āIām gonna miss you too,ā I said finally, my voice barely audible.
Matt reached out, his hand brushing mine where it rested on the bed. His fingers closed around mine, warm and steady, and I felt myself relax just a little, even as my heart ached.
āYouāll come back, right?ā he asked after a moment, his thumb brushing lightly over my knuckles.
āYeah,ā I said, nodding. āIāll come back.ā
āGood,ā he said, his lips quirking up into the smallest of smiles. āBecause Iām holding you to that.ā
The sound of my phone buzzing broke the moment, and I glanced down to see the notification from the car service. My ride was here.
Matt saw it too, and his hand lingered on mine for just a second longer before he pulled away, standing up and running a hand through his hair. āGuess I should walk you down,ā he said, his voice quieter now.
I nodded, grabbing my bag and slinging it over my shoulder as I stood. My legs felt heavier than they should, like every step toward the door was another step toward something I didnāt want to face.
Matt followed me out into the hallway, quiet as we made our way to the elevator. When we stepped inside, the silence between us stretched, but it wasnāt awkward. It was just heavy, full of all the things we werenāt saying.
When we reached the lobby, Matt walked me to the waiting car, his hands in his pockets and his head down just enough that I couldnāt see his expression.
I turned to him once I reached the car, biting my lip. āThanks for everything, Manhattan. Really.ā
He looked up then, his eyes meeting mine. āAnytime.ā he said, his voice soft but steady. Before I could think too much about it, I leaned in and wrapped my arms around him, holding on tighter than I meant to. He hugged me back, his arms solid and warm around me, and for a moment, I didnāt want to let go.
But eventually, I had to.
I stepped back, giving him a small smile as I climbed into the car. He stood there on the curb, watching as the driver pulled away, and when I glanced back, he was still standing there, hands in his pockets, until I turned the corner and he was out of sight. I leaned back in the seat, my chest tight and my heart full, already counting down the days until I could come back.
The car had been stuck in traffic for a few minutes, the muffled sounds of honking and engines filling the air. I leaned back in my seat, closing my eyes to shut it all out for a moment. I wasnāt ready to leave.
And then I heard the door open.
I jolted upright, my heart racing. āWhat theāā
Matt.
He was standing there, sweaty and out of breath, a sheen on his flushed face as if heād just sprinted a marathon. He leaned against the open door, chest heaving, his hair sticking to his forehead.
āMatt? What the hell are you doing?ā I asked, blinking in disbelief.
He held up a hand, trying to catch his breath. āIāI have to tell you something,ā he started, words tumbling out between gasps. āBefore you go. Because if I donāt, I swear Iām gonna regret itāand honestly, I think the girls might actually beat the shit out of me at the next game if I donāt.ā
āWhat?ā I stammered, still completely thrown.
āBut itās not just about that,ā he rambled, gesturing wildly. āI justā I think I have to say it. Even if itās stupid. Even if it messes things up because I donāt know how else to⦠Ugh.ā He groaned and dragged a hand down his face, looking so exasperated with himself.
āMattāā
āBasically, Y/N,ā he cut me off, locking his eyes with mine, āI have a crush on you.ā
I froze, staring at him, unsure if Iād heard him correctly.
āI know itās probably weird. Weāre like best friends, and youāre leaving, and weāll barely get to see each other, but I canāt just pretend like itās not there anymore. And itās been driving me nuts because I donāt want to mess this up or make things awkward orāā
āMatt.ā
āāor make you feel pressured because thatās the last thing Iād want, andāā
āMatt.ā
āWhat?ā
I stared at him for a second before a small laugh escaped me, shaking my head in disbelief. āI already know.ā
He blinked, looking completely thrown. āWhat?ā
āItās kind of obvious,ā I said, still laughing softly. āYouāve been wearing your feelings on your sleeve for weeks. You are not as subtle as you think sometimes.ā
His jaw dropped, his cheeks going redderāthough I wasnāt sure if it was from exertion or embarrassment. āOkay, rude,ā he muttered.
āI mean, you literally chased down a car to tell me,ā I teased, my heart fluttering even as I tried to keep the moment light.
āWell, yeah, because Iāā I didnāt let him finish.
I leaned forward, pressing a quick kiss to his cheek, my face burning as I pulled back and whispered, āI guess I have a crush on you too, Matthew.ā
He stared at me, his wide brown eyes searching mine, his breath catching as if he didnāt know what to do with the words Iād just said.
And then, in one swift movement, he cupped my face in his hands, leaning in and pressing his lips to mine.
The world disappeared. The noise, the city, the trafficāall of it melted away. It was just Matt and the warm press of his lips, the way his thumb brushed gently against my cheek, the way everything about him felt so⦠right.
When we finally broke apart, he stayed close, his forehead resting against mine, a soft smile playing at his lips.
āYou donāt know how long Iāve wanted to do that,ā he murmured.
I laughed softly, my heart pounding in my chest. āGuess weāre even, then.ā
The driver cleared his throat, and we both startled as the car started moving again. Matt chuckled, shuffling back slightly but keeping his hand in mine.
āSan Diego,ā he said, his voice full of warmth. āYou better come back soon.ā
āI will,ā I promised, squeezing his hand.
And for the first time since this whole whirlwind of a trip had started, I felt like everything was exactly as it should be.
The car rolled to a stop at a red light, and just as I was settling back into my seat, I saw movement out of the corner of my eye.
Matt was getting out of the car.
āWhat now?ā I muttered, leaning toward the open window.
He bent down, resting his forearms on the window frame, his face close enough that I could see the faint flush still lingering on his cheeks. āCall me as soon as you land, please?ā he said, his voice softer than usual.
I laughed, shaking my head at him. āMatt, Iāll probably text you when the light turns green.ā
His lips curved into a crooked smile, his gaze lingering for a moment like he didnāt want to let me go. āStill. Just⦠call me, okay?ā
āOkay,ā I promised, trying not to let the sudden tightness in my chest show.
He stepped back onto the sidewalk, his hands shoved into his pockets as he watched the car begin to move again. I twisted in my seat, catching one last glimpse of him standing there before I sighed and turned back around. And then, my phone started ringing. I glanced at the screen, a grin breaking out across my face when I saw his name. Rolling my eyes fondly, I answered, āSo, when are you coming to San Diego?ā
There was a pause on the other end of the line, followed by his soft laugh. āI guess that depends. You free next weekend?ā


















