Replaceable
Premise: Brian comes back home after a hard meeting and needs a good cry
Warnings: reverse hurt/comfort, self doubt, crying, WC 757 and it’s based on the Fromm messages that caused a huge freak out.
A/n: I highkey almost gave up on this fic. It’s not my fave but it’s not bad
~Master List~
It was a quiet evening when your boyfriend Brian entered your shared apartment. You greeted him quietly from your spot and the couch. Brian gave you a nod in response which was strange for him but you figured he was probably just tired. He moved weirdly quickly as took off his shoes and put away his bag. You noticed how he walked straight to the couch. This also struck you as odd since usually he’d go shower and eat before doing anything else. You looked up at the boy who now stood in front of you. His eyes were dull and lacked their usual warmth.
“Bri are you okay?” You asked softly in concern. Brian didn’t answer and instead sat down and curled into your side. You gently wrapped an arm around him and rested your hand on his back. It was pretty obvious something was wrong. Usually you would’ve just asked what happened but he didn’t seem to be in a talking mood. You figured he probably just needed to process whatever was going on in that pretty little head of his.
The two of you sat like this for a few minutes before you felt Brian shaking along with tears falling onto your shirt.
“Oh love” you said softly, your hand gently rubbing up and down his back. Brian pressed his face into your shoulder when he heard your voice, his tears no longer silent. His sobs were heavy and filled with stress as he held onto you.
“Let it all out” you said reassuringly, placing a grounding hand on the back of his head. The sound of his cries were heart breaking. He wasn’t one to cry all that often so it was concerning to say the least. This went on for a few minutes eventually your boyfriend's tears subsided.
“Do you want to tell me about what happened?” You asked softly “or if not we can do something else” you assured.
“I want to tell you” Brian spoke the first croaky words since he entered your apartment. You nodded and gestured for him to talk with a soft reassuring smile on your face.
“We had a meeting. They want us to put in more work.” Brian said slowly, gathering his thoughts as he stared at his fidgeting hands.
“I’m just scared about what if we don’t make enough money or if we don’t gain enough popularity. What if we aren’t doing enough? I just want to be successful. We aren’t doing enough but we also can’t do anything more.” The fragile boy spoke quickly, his voice cracking.
“I don’t want to fail again” Brian said, tears falling down his cheeks again. He curled back into you and pressed his face into your shoulder as if hiding from his fears.
“Darling, what do you mean again?” You asked quietly.
“I failed on boysplanet and if I wasn't enough for them then how could I be enough for the team and for the company. I’m holding them back” He choked through sobs. You pulled him back into your arms, rubbing his back gently. You listened as he cried not wanting to overwhelm him further.
Once his tears slowed to a soft trickle you spoke
“Your members care about you so much you could never hold them back” you said in a soft tone
“B-but you don’t know that” He hesitantly said
“Sure maybe I don’t know exactly but I do know just how talented you are” you said reassuringly
“Siyun is way better at singing than me and I’m the weakest dancer. I’m not a necessary piece I’m replaceable” he proclaimed his voice shaking.
“You may think that but love you are your worst enemy. You aren’t replaceable because skill isn’t numbered, no one is above anyone else.” You said pausing for a second.
“Also you are so much more than just a voice. You are a kind vibrant sweet person. People gravitate to you Bri” you comforted before speaking once more.
“And you don’t have to feel better right now, it's okay to be sad, it's okay to feel inadequate. That’s how you grow” you reassured him. Brian finally made eye contact with you and nodded softly.
“Thank you.” The boy with the dimmed spark whispered.
“You don’t have to thank me I’d be a jerk not to try and help” you said with a bit of humour reaching your voice. You watched as Brian giggled quietly at your words.
“Yeah I guess so” Your boyfriend responded a small smile pulled at his lips
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