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I haven't posted on this blog since last year due to personal reasons. Many times I thought about coming back to catch up, but by the time I found time and energy to do so, it felt like an overwhelming amount to backtrack. Looking back, I am sorry I couldn't keep up with the momentum of updating this blog.

Everyone has had some time to process yesterday's disbandment news now, including myself, although I have to admit the tears won't stop forming and falling from my eyes. Whether you've been with NU'EST since the beginning like I have or only recently discovered them, it's safe to say that these five kind, sincere, wholesome boys have always made an impact on anyone who's come across them. They matter to so many of us as they've supported us, cheered us and been there for us during hardships and during our best days too. Some of us found our best friends through NU'EST, some of us grew up alongside NU'EST, some of us experienced some of our firsts with NU'EST...the memories we have formed with NU'EST attached to them are memories we will all undoubtedly treasure in our own way. For that, I know I am beyond grateful.

There aren't many words I or anyone else can say to digest this news more easily, but I just wanted to say that these ten years really did fly by so fast. Would I change a single thing about my journey with NU'EST? No I wouldn't, as I'm sure you wouldn't. Perhaps there are some lingering regrets, perhaps you'd always hoped to see them in concert or that you'd be able to meet them. Whilst those wishes may not come true now, like NU'EST, we can create new dreams and goals now.

None of us will ever know exactly why this disbandment has happened. We can speculate, we can wonder, we may have our suspicions, but at the end of the day the decision has been made and it is out of our hands. All we can do now is give NU'EST the best send off and show them exactly how much they have mattered to us. As LOVEs, we can repay them with our love.

The future is unclear but I hope that JR, Aron, Baekho, Minhyun and Ren will be able to bravely walk forward into these new horizons knowing that we will still be standing beside them.

LOVEs, thank you. I thank every single one of you who has entered my life during the past ten years. Even if we've had our differences and parted ways, all I remember now are the fond memories we shared with NU'EST. The fandom was an integral part of my journey with NU'EST as it was for many of you. It was turbulent at times, but I'm happy that NU'EST could be loved as much as they were because they deserved all the love they received. I hope you'll join me and continue walking beside them from here on too.

I'm undecided as to how to proceed with this blog now. For the next month, I will take some time to process and think about it. Until then, I'm sending love and hugs and tissues to you all.

Thank you LOVEs.

Thank you NU'EST.