â this is not a love song
Summary: Theyâre in the middle of watching The Holiday when Jeongguk asks, like he does every day and has done every day for the past two hundred and seventy-six daysââHyung, can I kiss you?â
(or: five times jeongguk asks to kiss yoongi and one time he does.)
Info: Teen & Up | 7k | 5+1 Things, Fluff, Friends to LoversÂ
Sneak Peek: Theyâre in the middle of watching The Holiday when Jeongguk asks, like he does every day and has done every day for the past two hundred and seventy-six daysââHyung, can I kiss you?â
Yoongi isnât counting. Itâs just hard to ignore the little tally marks that Jeongguk has been making on the whiteboard on the front of his fridge, steadily adding to the total number with each day that passes. With each question, with each rejection. At this point, Yoongi isnât sure Jeongguk is actually asking because he wants to kiss Yoongi or because itâs justâtheir thing. Friends have things, donât they?
And Yoongi isnât sure if heâs actually saying no because he doesnât want to or because itâs become a sort of competition, a test of his will to see how many times he can hear the same question without going insane. Heâs done well for two hundred and seventy-six days.
OrââNo,â he says through a mouthful of popcornâtwo hundred and seventy-seven.
Yoongi doesnât even take his eyes off of the screen, because he already knows what heâll see if he does: Jeongguk staring at him with his big, pretty eyes, a pleading in them. Pout on his pretty lips, so eager and open and vulnerable. Sometimes Yoongi tells himself that itâs an act, because itâs easier to believe that than to think that Jeon Jeongguk really, truly wants to kiss him, his best friend of three years. The grad student who regrets his life decisions every day, who drinks too much coffee and eats too much ramen and always tries his best, sure, but never quite gets it right.
When Jeongguk hasnât moved for a full minute, Yoongi lifts his free hand, the one not shoved in the popcorn bowl, and, still without turning his eyes from the screen, cups Jeonggukâs chin so he can force the youngerâs face toward the screen.
âPay attention, Guk-ah,â mutters Yoongi. âAmandaâs about to realize she actually loves Graham.â The thing is, theyâve seen this movie many, many times together. Not just when itâs Christmas, because Jeongguk claims itâs one of his favourite movies even though he always cries at the end, and although Yoongi pretends he only watches it to indulge Jeongguk, he secretly loves it, too. Secretly loves the romance, loves the idea of somethingâmore.
Still. Itâs always the same part that urges Jeongguk to ask the ever-present question: the love confession. âCanât wait until you pull an Amanda and realize youâre actually in love with me,â says Jeongguk, which isâhilarious, really, even though his tone suggests otherwise. Heâs always making silly comments like that, always joking about what a real relationship between them would be like.
Yoongi knows that Jeongguk likes him. He doesnât think the boy would have asked to kiss Yoongi two hundred and seventy-seven times if he didnât, but he also doesnât think that Jeongguk expects much of it. He doesnât expect that Yoongi would ever actually like him back, which isâgood. Because Yoongi doesnât.