#notpublic

So I was going to leave you a message on your facebook for you to read but decided that's a bit boring so instead I'd have a little look and see if you left your tumblr logged in which, to my advantage, you did :)

I actually hadn't planned what to write but just that i'd try and leave you a cute message and see how long it would take you to see it haha but because of this it's just going to be a bit of a rant haha

I love you so much babe, it's strange to think that two months ago today we started talking, it feels so much longer ago that we met and maybe that's just because of how comfortable I actually am around you. I know I still won't sing in front of you but I already do so much in front of you and talk to you about so much more than I ever have with anybody else. You know I have weird trust issues and that even when you tell me that you'll do something I don't believe you 100% but that's starting to change. You keep proving to me time and time again that you keep your word, that I can trust you. I still think you're crazy, especially for putting up with me and all my crazy! And the amount that I worry about silly little things, I do try not to worry but it's easier said than done. Haha told you this would turn into some silly rant. You asked me yesterday how many serious relationships I'd had and I said basically just the one... but in comparison to what we have I should have said I hadn't had a serious relationship. Everytime I come to you with something that I have stuck in my head as being a problem you find a way to fix it, no drama, no arguments and that amazes me. For the first time I actually feel like i'm with someone who wants to be with me, someone who could possibly love me as much as I love them and sometimes it scares me how much i'm letting you in and part of me wants to push you away so that you don't get too close and I don't get too attached but then all you have to do is smile at me with your cute little dimple and all my walls melt down again. Clearly they're made of snow and aren't used to the heat over here ;) haha told you i'm crazy and i've almost written you a chapter of a book to read I reckon so maybe I should leave it at that for now.