#not fallout

Elys' guide to dealing with emotions: just don't

"don't wanna blow my load' as if I haven't been actively posting spoilers for weeks lol

i dont wanna blow my whole load with the monster and post her before she's done. but i also feel like... did i overblow how scary she is? does she look mid? is she boring?

and the thing is.... even at the 11th hour Elys still stops Luthen from saying it bc it sounds like too much of a goodbye... it's not malicious of him. it's one of those things like "i want you to say it when you're better and you really mean it" things. but it becomes Elys' biggest regret, not only because he never got to hear Luthen say it, but for the fact that he thinks Luthen might have died thinking Elys didn't really love him.

I typically take on the responsibility of all the kitchen chores and it's maybe 80% because I want to pull my weight and provide a service for the household and 20% because the way my dad loads the dishwasher makes me feel like a wild chimpanzee