Hi! Feel free to ignore if this question is too personal, but i wanted to ask how you’ve been doing since everything with your medical problems came out? I wanted to come see, but I noticed there hasn’t been anything since the announcement itself (and rightfully so, don’t worry!), so I was hoping to see if the outlook was looking any better
I know you sent this a week ago, but I’ve been debating whether to answer this or not. I’m a bit scared of making people worried or sad, but I eventually figured that it would be more worrying if I say nothing.
That being said, please be warned that the rest of this post will be sad, and I don’t mind at all if you stop reading now.
Okay. So, to answer your question, it’s gotten a lot worse. The expectations for me to possibly make it to April have dropped to late January, and judging by how I feel each day that goes on, I think that date will only keep dropping.
I started doing things I enjoy a lot more in order to make everything seem a bit better, but that’s been falling through as well. One of my goals for the past year and a half is to learn Hungarian so I can talk to my best friend in her first language, but my memory and focus just keep getting worse- sometimes I forget my own cat’s name. I’ve also tried going through my tv show hyperfixations, but watching them has started to feel more like a waste than it does comfortable and happy.
Not to mention the fact that the place I went to for therapy abt it all just suddenly got shut down, so that happened too.
Basically, what I’m trying to say, is that life (is that a pun idk) has been pretty awful for a bit now. On the bright side, I’m no longer scared of my soon-to-be nonlife. I’m extremely spiritual and digging deeper into the history of it has really helped with everything mentally.
I’m sorry for the sad update, but I figured it would be better than suddenly disappearing months before I mentioned in my earlier post. Thank you so much for asking though, anon. <333
