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M y other “D3R is originally from pkciv” comic

Another comic of D3r’s past in pkciv

Episode 7 of The Amazing Digital Circus is out. Let’s talk.

In episode 6, Jax explains his worldview. “What’s the point in pretending we’re not [cartoon characters]?”

The most recent adventure just confirmed everything for him.

He clearly didn’t want to get his hopes up about leaving. After all, that’s what drives them to abstract in the first place.

He tried deflecting. Pointing out that Abel was obviously a twist villain or that the whole escape plan was meant to be one of Caine’s secret adventures. He called it. But inexplicably, he hoped that maybe there really was an exist. He hoped he was wrong.

“I can’t believe I was right!”

His belief in the possibility of an exits existence was strong enough that even he thought that his own performative disbelief of one was simply coping gone overkill. He did not want to be right.

But he wasn’t wrong.

His twisted view on their situation, his view defined completely by being a desperate coping strategy — it was just confirmed.

Because this whole plan, this situation, this escape, it was all fake. A plot. They really were just… characters in a skit.

Jax felt betrayed that everything was a lie.

Pomni said they were all real, too. Zooble said the same thing to Gangle.

So imagine his surprise when Jax, outnumbered, was right about their whole situation. Not only was the escape plan a phony, but on a basic fundamental level, his mentality — realizing that they’re all characters in the focus — is the only way.

The circus doesn’t let them escape. It doesn’t let them be real. Neither did the adventure, which rewarded playing along. Because the characters in Caine’s circus would never choose to leave.

He refused to hold Pomni’s hand, to show vulnerability or be a friend, especially after their recent fight.

This would’ve been his last act of vulnerability before coming back to the real world, had their plan been true. His last chance to be good to her before they were ripped back into the world.

They couldn’t leave, though.

He was right again. Would’ve just regretted his actions even more if he did choose to hold her hand. Because why act so serious anyway? What are they preparing for?

Nothing. So no need to abandon their established roles!

Jax never wanted to be right. He was self aware enough to know that his logic was fallible. He didn’t like his conclusion either. So when it was confirmed?

…

He was horrified when he realized he chose to stay.

While they were all trying to figure out how to make sure what the correct choice would be to allow them to leave, he forced everyone to stay. Whether it was guilt, terror, or confusion at himself, this expression shows that it wasn’t just play.

He pushed that button because he wanted to stay.

He didn’t “jokingly” choose to stay.

Wasn’t following a script or a skit.

Wasn’t just deflecting, either.

He thought that blue button would bring him home — and he refused to hit it.

Whatever was out there, he didn’t wanna go. Caine was right! He really would just rather stay in the circus.

This begs the question; what is out there?

“What’s the rush, you got someone waiting for you outside?”

“Don’t you?”

“Y-yeah…”

He asked that so flippantly. As if it’d be ridiculous to assume that someone would be out there waiting for any of than.

Maybe he’s the one who did something. Maybe he can’t face his mistake. There’s no one out there waiting for him. That’s might be the thing he really can’t face.

Or it has something to do with this. To put it bluntly: it looks like a little girls room.

Now, was it just made to match his avatar? Or was his avatar and his room meant to represent something about himself? Something he doesn’t want to share with anyone? A secret.

How bad could his secret be?

Jax deflects in the bar when he’s asked about his life, but so did Zooble.

Refused to show what happens when he holds his breathe, too, but that’s such a minor thing.

It’s clear that no one else in the circus knows. Or they do, but they’re down in the cellar.

you- you know when someone holds a door for you but you’re too far away so you have to do an awkward run thing lest you disrespect the door holder?? Yeah (young) 007n7 does that to you on purpose live with it

Pt 2 Pt 3

• Robert and Visi share a Spotify account, its cheaper when 2 people are paying for premium after all. Robert listens almost Exclusively to the liked songs playlist, and Visi knows this. She'll purposely add the weirdest songs imaginable to the liked songs to throw him off when hes driving or listening to music. He never removes any of the songs, just skips some of them.

• Most of the songs Visi will add to the liked songs are sexual. She thinks its funny. Robert does not find it as funny as she does.

• She also makes actual playlists. She has 2 that are titled "sex playlist" and they are both very different.

• Contrary to what everyone would assume, Flambae is usually the Designated Driver when the team goes out for drinks and Mal doesn't want to/doesn't have the energy to portal everybody home. Its usually discussed beforehand, and he'll usually have one drink early in the night so when everyone wants to go home, he's sober. I like to think he's fairly responsible when he isn't setting shit on fire.

• Chase taught Robert how to drive. They both go 15-20 miles over the speed limit consistently. Nobody lets Robert or Chase drive.

• Chase taught Robert a lot of things, actually. Like how to cook, not like he cooks very often but he cooks well when he does.

• Robert has mobility aids, namely a cane. He does not use it, despite the constant ache in his knees and back. The team has tried to get him to use it but its never worked. Chase is the only one who has ever been able to convince him to use it and it didn't last very long. He used the cane for like, an hour. Better than nothing.

• Mal actually does get Sonar off coke. Still does other drugs, but weed is a lot less damaging then coke.

• Blazer, despite being temporarily unable to use her powers, does start working out so she's at least strong enough to fight in her civie form. She works out with Robert and Flambae

• Flambae does not let Robert work out on his own anymore. He's always at the gym at the same time. Even if Flambae is still incredibly upset about the whole Mecha Man thing. They have the gayest enemies-to-bromance thing going on.

• Prism and Visi force Robert to crossdress, once, for a mission that really did not need it but it was also incredible to see Mecha Man kick ass in a dress. He has yet to let them put him in full drag, but they'll convince him one day, trust and believe.

• Beef is a corgi-chihuahua mix. And also is the main character, I don't make the rules. Beef deserves all the love and affection ever.

Sam and Dean when Cas dies and goes to superhell