#normal about him

obsessed with the way nora wrote jeremy. avoidant narration style paired with bone-deep self-loathing and an outward perception of him as sunshine personified. drawing a sun in the sand, smiling into his coffee, "would it kill you to fuck someone who respects you?", stealing roses from his hookup, falling asleep behind the wheel, playing with a yoyo, coming back to the hotel with bruises around his neck, smiling "slow and satisfied" at his phone, not being able to focus on his lsat books, chronic fatigue, i tried to be good, am i no good? smoking outside the banquet, kissing jabberwocky, blaming himself for noah's death, jean's shitty reputation, zane's attack, handcuffed to a family that resents him, see-through smiles, writing down every time his father would call him, collecting speeding tickets in high school. jeremy knox i want to claw open your skull and dump the contents of your brain onto the page.