#nohook

This song turned out soo good😫

a total of 4 months since I've been living in Florida. During my time here, I've been doing most of the touristy things that people do when they come to visit the Sunshine State. While doing that, I've also been in the house (by choice). My interaction with people is still something that I am working on. When it comes to the music aspect that is the only time I really interact because I've put myself in my element. Speaking of music, I have gotten a few connections in my pocket; hopefully, with these connections I'll be able to really get my feet wet in the music scene out here. Recently, I wrote a song entitled, "No Hook". I'm literally going bar for bar with no verses, hook, or bridge. I am proud of it, & believe I have said everything as direct I could have. I am excited to go forward with it in the future.

Something recent that has happened in my life, is that I have been "Facebook Dating". I am not the type of person internally that does the online dating thing, but I always end up doing it because meeting people in person is a thing that seems so foreign to me since having a relationship with someone that I was once so close with. I feel as though after having a relationship as close as that one, no one meets that standards as far as how we communicated. It's like these people don't know how to do that these days. I mean, I can communicate as long as you give me something to communicate about. Everyone just seems so blah these days. They made it so that others have some big shoes to fill with that. The communication is shxt these days...I have been talking to someone on the "dating app" who I feel is possibly someone I can develop a relationship with but my thing is...I asked all the hard questions in the beginning, so it just feels like we have nothing to talk about anymore. Our conversations are very short & to the point now. How do older people in relationships keep the conversation going after the hard core questions? They have told me all the things that they want out of life, & I want all the same; but I am going into this being cautious as fuxk because of all of the mistakes that I have made in the past.

I promised myself that I would not treat myself like I have treated myself in the past. While being 5 months into my 30s, I have been very logical about how I move with anything that I do in life. & plus some of the people on this site ain't it. Like, I can feel it. A side from the relationship aspect; I have decided not to make the "No Hook" freestyle an Instagram freestyle, because it will be my debut recording record to show people how talented I am as a writer. I always say that I have continued to work so hard on my craft. It wasn't until recently that I realized; I really need to do this on my own if what I'm saying is ever going to get out. Depending on anyone is not going to get me anywhere with this music career that I am working to build for myself.

I have also been thinking about who would manage me when I become a songwriter to BIG TIME music artists. I always thought about keeping it in the family to protect myself, but the only person in the family that could manage me is my father. & its a good look because he has been in the business for a long time and is very knowledgeable about contracts and what loop holes to look for. What's making me possibly learn towards no...is because I want to have the option to say yes or no to whichever deal is being handed to me at the time. After thoroughly looking through the contracts of course. Even though I have been taking a step back to understand what I want to talk about next, music is forever a part of me in any stage of my life. Music gets me through whatever I may be going through at the time.

Now, as far as looking for a job. I have been looking for employment since I moved here in April 2021. I had some jobs that offered me opportunities to work with their companies, but none of them truly fit. Even if I accepted the job, there were things that constantly tell me that I should not be working for these companies even if it was something minor. Something as small as already having the position but the company not doing a follow up, or accepting then declining a position because it was not fitting for me. Since then, I have been applying to at least 10+ jobs a day; equaling over 100+ job applications. I have also been applying for careers in the field of social work. I have had interviews with these agencies, but have not received a call back for an office position. I remain positive and know that I will get a career in the field of social work. Everyday is a job looking to find a career I would be happy in, outside of music.

I finally took my feet off the ground & got them wet with my music career. Brittany, put me in contact with a media company & a recording studio that is close by me; after asking her if she had any connects. The contact with the media company, connected me with a producer in Orlando. I have contacted the producer and the person that owns the recording studio; so I can began recording "No Hook". I hope to hear a response from both in the near future so people can really hear what my pen game is like.

Things are looking up for me as far as what is a necessity. Because I always say whatever I don't have it was not meant for me to have; so I accept how things are but I also keep pushing for what I want out of life.

As you get closer to your 30s; you see life for what its really about. Because for real for real, outsiders could care vaguely less.

Love & Peace,