I have come to the realisation that a vast majority of the internet and to some extent real life do not appreciate my direct, talk no bullshit, tell the truth and say things how I see things approach to well, everything.
Now Iβm not saying I wonβt be kind or gentle when the need arises because I doubt I could have maintained a 12 year+ relationship with my wife if I was as cold abrupt and standoffish as so many claim I am.
Iβm an armadillo, really. Or a hedgehog. All sharp and prickly but if I care about you and I trust you then youβll be treated to my soft underbelly. It doesnβt happen very often it at all and some people I thought got me donβt get me. That fucked me up a little for a while not going to lie.
I am definitely over feeling like Iβm the problem because I get introspective and I look inwards. Iβve always done that, reflect on what I could have said or done differently but at some point I realised that I am too old for this shit.
That said I have also come to the conclusion that I honestly give 0 fucks. The people who matter wonβt care and the people who do care about that arenβt the ones who matter.
