28. Do you interlock fingers when you hold hands?

i do! granted i don’t hold hands very often bc my hands get sweaty and i’ve also never done it ~romantically~ before, but i do love physical affection

29. What’s a compliment you’d love to receive from a boy?

don’t get me wrong, i love being told i’m funny or that i’m stylish (what a humble brag LMAO) but i would love for a boy to compliment some physical attribute about myself/my body bc that’s really what i’m the most insecure about tbh

30. What’s better, waking up to him in the morning, or falling asleep next to him at night?

not that i have any experience (RIP) but i would imagine falling asleep next to a boy would be great. i’m not a morning person at all so i imagine i would just be grumpy lol

hi ari!! i went to bed before you sent this but i am alive now, also these are such cute questions dsjkfhkjfjk

Cyclamen:

Did you have a favorite stuffed animal as a child? What was it? 

roary!!! roary was a little beanie baby lion i had when i was super young. i think “roary” was the name that was on his tag lmao. also because i was super young i chewed on his face a lot so he got reeeeeally beat up. my mom got me a replacement roary when i was like 8 or 9 but he wasn’t quite the same so i didn’t play with him much. i still have both of them!

False Goat’s Beard:

What is something you are good at?

ari you know this already but my other followers probably don’t. i sing in an a cappella group at college which has been really fun but also really rewarding bc i didn’t realize i was actually kinda good at singing until i tried out for it and got in

Hoary Stock: What are you proudest of?

not to be morbid as hell but i honestly think i’m most proud of the fact that i got through high school without killing myself because i was really depressed and suicidal and there were times where i came really close to trying. my mom eventually found out so i was put on medication and did therapy for a while and even though my therapy experience was not great, the medication helped a lot, as did leaving my hometown and going to college somewhere that was NOT really homophobic lmao

Lantanas: What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received?

i don’t remember the exact words but it was two years ago at an end of the year dinner with my a cappella group and one of the seniors (who was also the RA person who lived on my floor my first year) said a bunch of really heartwarming stuff about how he looks up to me and how glad he was to be my friend and it was just really sweet and touching and by the end we were both like sobbing.

Lavender: What’s your favorite thing about yourself? 

um this is kind of a hard one because my self esteem is still kind of in the gutter (probably because i had a bad therapy experience and haven’t tried again since lmao) but weirdly enough i think i’m most proud of the fact that i really came out of my shell during/after high school. i used to be an incredibly shy and quiet person (and i’m definitely still shy and introverted) but now all of my friends tend to think of me as a “loud” person (not in a bad way i don’t think? lol). in some ways i think it’s something i do sometimes need to work on but the fact that i’m now at the opposite end of that spectrum is still so wild to me and being so open and transparent about myself to other people feels good.

Prairie Gentian: Who is someone you look up to? Describe them. 

while there are definitely other people i could mention, my immediate answer to this question is always my mom. she’s been through a lot – illness, a terrible and abusive marriage, losing her job late in her career, etc. – and i didn’t really realize how tough and resilient she’s had to be until i got older. and despite what she’s been through, she still has such a bright outlook on life and loves to laugh and make others laugh. i just hope i’m able to roll with life’s punches half as well as she’s been able to and to come out stronger on the other side.

Sunflower: What is something you don’t want to imagine life without?

not to go full millennial mode here but i would definitely say the internet. there are so many wonderful and important people in my life who i mainly communicate with over the internet (or texting), not to mention it was my first real exposure to LGBT/queer communities. it’s also an incredible platform for creating and disseminating all kinds of media – music, art, writing, video, etc. the internet has been a lifeline for me for many different reasons over the years and despite its many flaws, that’s not something i’m ashamed of admitting.

Zinnia: Give a random fact about yourself.

omg i missed when this was sent to me but this is cute!! ok

1) i think i’ve mentioned this before but i really like my sense of humor. my blog does not necessarily always reflect it well, but i feel like i can land a killer joke... every now and then lmao

2) my style/decor. it’s a little masc for me right now tbh, but i love to go thrift shopping and i frequently haunt ebay and etsy, so i feel like i’ve found some cool stuff over the years!

3) my eyes. i used to dislike them bc theyre brown and i thought that was boring, but theyre really big and round and expressive!

4) my laugh! it’s really loud and bubbly and kind of obnoxious, but it makes other people laugh and it reminds me not to take things too seriously