#no discourse

"But the 2004 movie—"

I don't fucking care <3

(This is a lighthearted, nontargeted post dont yell at me pls /srs)

((Its what got me into this whole mess /pos so im partial and only have good things to say about it)) (((and a lot of other reasons but still)))

჻ღཾཿ༉ ༘჻ღཾཿ༉ ༘჻ღཾཿ༉ ༘჻ღཾཿ჻ღཾཿ༉ ༘჻

—Hello there everyone!

- You can call me Ririya, Ririchy, Riri or whatever you'd like.

- My ask box is always open for questions or anything alike, I'll be happily answering them as much as I can.

- PLEASE, make sure to read my Strawpage for detailed information about my BYI, DNI etc..

https://ririyachii.straw.page

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my system cracked at 14 and i spent years and years fostering my headspace, naming my headmates, having inner system relationships, detailing my simply plural (rip), and then i graduated high school and my experience with this disorder changed very suddenly.

my very detailed maladaptive daydreaming and dissociation served its purpose in my high school years, in an abusive environment both in school and at home, but now that i am for the most part out of that situation my experience is very different.

if you are still in a situation like that, especially if you are in high school, this is not a jab at you. i was in your place once. my mind and my headmates were my company and the people who supported me when nobody else would. that is their purpose.

as an adult with more control over my life and less of a need for extreme dissociation, i am still living with the textbook symptoms of DID, and i don't have a place to go to talk to people like me. i don't have much of a headspace anymore or inner system communication. my headmates right now are pretty much "anxious caden," "chill caden," and "emo catboy caden." i have extremely strong amnesia barriers. i have one alter who doesn't like grapes? i don't know who that guy is.

but its like - i don't live the same experience as what i see online and what i involved myself with when i was younger. i don't see that represented online. so i'm wishing i could see myself in someone else who understands what i'm going through.

my friends aren't super aware of it and my family isn't at all. sometimes when i'm going through a particularly bad episode i'll inform them about personality changes, but for the most part, the people around me don't even know. and i don't fit in with the system and plural community online!

wonder if the new chapter maybe changes that, a little? or at least put into perspective that the headcanon isn't unfounded, or transphobic.

A flag for persons/identities who think or have reason to believe that they went through a traumatic event, but in an attempt to recall these traumatic events, are unable to retain many or any details of the experience. This could be related to CPTSD, PTSD, OCD, DID, OSDD, or whatever the persons/identity associates or doesn't associate it with.

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"your an absolute fucking needle."

"shut up you thank"