#no concept

how i manifested my mother cancer away + shifted and more through non-dualism/no concepts.

im writing this post for those who feel alone who feel like they have gotten minimal results and have been trying for years. before learning of non dualism, then no concepts, etc and the rest is history.

because i was like you. i used to cry whine and complain and be bitter that this person shifted and yet i didnt, used to take numerous breaks etc. i knew of LOA since 2018, but learned of loablr in 2023. i joined during the states vs affirmation bullshit (still think both is dumb) and the edward art shit and i was desperate to find answers. none of it helped. and i grew more and more angry desperate. i gave up on loa, and was depressed for months.

things changed in late 2023 when i came back from the aftermath of the 4dbarbie nondualism vs LOA war? everyone kept saying nondualism is the same as states and other shit and at first i thought it was right, but i was desperate and so i looked into nondualism.

in the back of my mind i kept thinking "yeah this dumb asf lol" but still i was on the urge of ending it all. i read, overconsumed, and read some more and then thought it was too much and also gave up on it.

and then may 2024 the worst month of my life. my mom was diagnosed with peritoneal carcinomatosis. lord i cried so hard at the thought of losing my mom, even getting a little teary eyed typing this. but i had nothing and no one to turn to and so i turned back to nondualism and the books that were recommended by blogs.

and so i did. i wont say it was easy, letting go of the thoughts of her having it, allowing it to be the thoughts feelings and emotions and being scared that she did have it. not arguing against it, not affirming, or visualizing that she has it but allowing the thoughts to be.

i wanted to manifest an early appointment because i was scared she didnt have long. but i knew that this was simply fear and allowed it to be, for days and weeks, until finally i had the thought that she would be fine either way. and literally let it go completely.

next day i got the appointment i wanted. this was the first major sign of manifesting. like my first time manifesting something major. and i applied what i did to "manifesting" ( read letting go of identification with thoughts) that my mom didnt have cancer and she was fine. this one was harder with many tests and biopsies and people saying one thing and the other but i had no one else to turn to but myself and those books.

and she was fine.

ever since i manifested other things like:

shifts (shifted to an old scrapped dr that maybe i will expand on one day) and other random realities (yes it was intentional to test myself).

i also manifested my ac central unit being fixed without having to pay 8k to replace the entire unit.

good grades and more.

i wont say i fully scorched my mind of limitations, but i will say that im in a far better place than i was before learning of nondualism.

4d= Awareness

Desire= Awareness

Lack= Awareness

Fulfillment= Awareness

Abundance= Awareness

Failure= Awareness

Shifting= Awareness

Manifestation= Awareness

The Void= Awareness

Time= Awareness

You= Awareness

Me= Awareness

The world= Awareness

when a desire appears;

it isn’t a signal of lack or something you need to attain. the appearance of desire simply means the dream is already shifting. awareness remains formless and unchanged, the desire is just a new appearance arising within it. there’s no gap between the desire and its fulfillment because both are the same movement showing up in experience.

things only feel “out of reach” when the mind imagines the desire as something separate from the one who wants it. but in awareness, nothing is separate from the noticing. the desire and the apparent desirer are the same presence. the moment the desire arises, the dream is already reorganizing around that appearance.

awareness is the only authority here, not as a force, but as the fact that nothing exists outside of it. if a desire shows up within awareness, it’s already included in what awareness is currently expressing as experience. the dream isn’t resisting it; the dream is just awareness appearing as motion and change, and the desire is part of that flow.

so the desire isn’t a request. it’s a reveal. it’s awareness saying, “this is already within my expression.” since awareness is the entire field of the dream, the experience naturally aligns with that desire, not in the future, but as an inevitable part of what is already unfolding.

Posts related to Nd but definitely not dismissing desires 🥺

There is nothing much to post about it, but I'll just say this;

Every experience is immediate. Right now is the only moment that ever was, ever will be. Manifestation is a non event because nothing was ever lacking, both are just ideas arising in the present. The deeper you investigate, the more you'll notice that you cannot tell what it is that you call "wanting", you cannot tell what it is that you call "fulfilment", you think you do but it's just that, a THOUGHT. An idea. And when you say that you "don't have" what you want, that's also just a thought that you're experiencing immediately. It's very difficult to talk about something that's completely experiential, but I hope I'm getting my point across. This is freedom already, you can experience all that you want right HERE. NOW. You decide whether it is what you call wanting, waiting, or something else :)) it's so simple, it's ridiculous really. Don't make it too hard, you are the source, infinitely experiencing itself, remember who you are <33

All is just effortlessly unfolding, label-less experiencing. You label it as something you don't want, you declare your imagination as something you DO WANT, immediately experiencing "lack" (an idea). There is no difference between imagination, dreaming, daydreaming, reality, Every experience is immediate and it's YOU who decide what to make of it, you decide what you experience :))

Here's a concise and much better said piece by NIF:

these are my most asked questions and i’ve been meaning to write this post for the longest time. today, i saw this quote by nisargadatta:

What was never lost can never be found. Your very search for safety and joy keeps you away from them. Stop searching, cease losing.

all of the questions above emerge from a place of “there is something missing that i need to conquer so things can be fine and under my control”. this way of thinking is the default at first, but when getting to know this truth, we learn that there’s no magic key that will fix everything — because there’s nothing to be fixed in the first place. there’s nothing broken and there’s no lack to fulfill. i’ve said this a million times before, but have you ever reflected on what that means? have you asked yourself what it means to be awareness? what that implies about the things you worry so much about?

i always get asks demanding for a tutorial on how to “rest as awareness”, and my answer always is “just be” because that’s what resting as awareness means: simply being yourself. you don’t need to become anything, or learn new skills or change your mindset.

you are this truth, you are the way.

whenever i say “see through it, ask yourself, reflect on this”, that is merely me trying to get you to look at yourself. but know that, ultimately, you don’t have to do anything because you already are. nothing will ever change that.

you will feel that there’s is something missing/wrong for as long as you keep telling yourself that this story is true. but in the end, there’s no true story, no story and nothing at all besides awareness.

when you stop blindly believing in every thought that pops up in your head, what is left? it’s not your job to overcome this reality or to fix this world. ask yourself why do you even want to do it, ask yourself if it’s really you that are worrying about all these problems. who are you, after all? do you really need salvation? are these doubts really coming from you? do these answers that you seek even matter?

thoughts are meaningless.

beliefs are meaningless.

assumptions are meaningless.

feelings are meaningless.

a subconscious is meaningless.

identity is meaningless.

time is meaningless.

everything outside of nothing is meaningless.

all these things are perceived, they aren’t you.

what are you?