#nitros thoughts

i hate learning new things from the beginning. why am i not immediately good at this ? why should i need to learn? Is this reflective of my overall worth as a person? if i do not pick it up quickly does that make me a useless and worthless idiot? and the answer is Yes

the “hehe im so narcissistic!!!” mfs until they feel sick and want to vomit and die just because they got embarrassed, until they isolate themselves and ruin relationships just because they think theyre too good for everyone else, until they realize that the entire world calls them an unchangable abusive monster

“wow youre just like xyz” no i am not. xyz is like me. i am the original and they are a pale imitation of me

gah. cal feels so favored by both ben and the fandom. i barely find any andre fans… sigh. even in the actual movie theres like 20 scenes of cal by himself doing his insane rambles and really letting us get a grasp on his character (we dont talk about the mischaracterization of cal in the fandom oh god) but for andre? all the scenes with andre are with cal. theres nothing when andres alone and speaking his shit or whatever. maybe its because of cals looks or something and thats why the fandom likes him so much

if i were famous i would read fanfic of myself #Lowkey

i am like you, but Better