#niktodim

rodion had only stayed back to help clean. it took no longer than a few minutes. nikto’s door was still locked when he got to it, and even after he'd knocked twice, nobody let him in. nikto doesn't fall asleep that fucking fast.

he sends syd a 😔 and she quickly sends another message: “i'm sure you didn't piss him off though.”

rodion feels more angry than nikto. he stuffs his phone back in the pocket of his track pants and zips it up. he hadn't expected her to understand what he could barely explain. he can't pinpoint the issue either. maybe nikto was just growing tired of the back and forth of their relationship. maybe sebastian is whispering in his ear. rodion hates to consider anything worse, but he feels a creeping dread with how relaxed nikto seems while keeping rodion at a distance.

whatever. at least he's not spiraling, rodion comforts himself by thinking. he himself might be lacking from the itinerary, but nikto’s habitual schedule stays the same. he's outside smoking this morning like usual in his virtually claimed spot, on a bench just by the track with a small trash can nearby. rodion pretends not to notice on his first pass of the extensive track.

at least, not too much. he can't help it if their eyes meet as he looks nikto over. he looks as at ease as he’d been at dinner, nice and relaxed on the bench, arm draped over the back as he holds his cigarette away from him. taking his time. sebastian isn't with him this morning. as rodion crests the hill towards him to start his second pass, rodion feels his anger bubbling, and with no krueger still to make him feel stupid, rodion advances past the edge of the track.

“why do you keep locking me out,” rodions breath is a little ragged from his lap, and it makes his sentence come out harsh. he innales, but he still sounds just as pissed, hurt spewing from him like a spout the moment he starts, “i didn't do anything to you.”

nikto regards him with one eyebrow raised. “Mh,” he grunts with the top of his lip peaking in a little scowl.

rodion checks his tone. “i just mean…,” he restarts with a defeated edge to his voice. again he inhales, taking a moment this time to calm himself before speaking. “you've been treating me differently. i don't understand.”

“good morning to you, too,” nikto grumbles. he looks away, focusing on his cigarette instead.

“nikto.”

“what?” his tone is short. he takes a second to bring his cigarette to his lips. rodion waits patiently for him to continue. “i went to sleep. should i have stayed up for you?”

“i was five minutes behind you.”

“i was tired, so was seva.”

“neither of you–well, you don't fall asleep that fast.”

“nikodim,” nikto speaks slow. “i was tired. we went to sleep. you should have followed me more closely.”

rodion can't help but tuck in on himself. his shoulders rise, and his head dips a smidgeon closer to his body like a turtle retreating to its shell. “i wasn't that far behind.”

nikto takes another drag from his cigarette. his foot taps low and slow. his expression is hard, too hard for rodion to look directly at. his gaze falls to the floor, where he instead watches that boot beat softly against the ground. nikto doesn't dignify the childish argument with a response.

rodion attempts to restart the confrontation, “i just don't know what i did…”

“you didn't do anything,” honest, but curt. there's no comfort in what he says.

rodion holds his arms against himself. nikto's foot continues to tap. “okay,” rodion says in a quiet little voice.

“get back to your run.”

Krueger/Nikto

Remanence (rated M, 6 chapters, Nikto POV). On how Nikto and Krueger start hovering around each other. My first kruegernikto fic back when there were only 4 and the tag didn't even exist.

Formalities (rated M, one shot, Krueger POV). A slow, chill one-shot in which Nikto fixes Krueger's tattoo with terrible hygiene conditions and some lighthearted banter. Self-translated into French on AO3 as well.

A falling knife has no handle (rated E, 4 chapters, Krueger POV). Krueger and Nikto's clandestine road trip to Vondel as Nikto decides to go AWOL to pursue an opportunity. There's fighting, there's landscapes, there's intimacy and trust, and there's an actual story (kinda).

Harpoons (rated T, one shot, Nikto POV). Nikto's point of view during a dissociative episode that is part of the fic above. Self-translated into French on AO3 as well.

The Archer (rated T/M, one shot, Nikto POV). Nikto wakes up from a nightmare and reflects on his relationship with Krueger - a very "introspective" and analystic train of thoughts as he navigates their love in his mind.

Anger Management (rated E, one shot, 3rd person omniscient POV). Krueger fucks Nikto because Nikto's pissed off, and that usually helps.

Krueger/Golem

Severance (rated M/E (only a small part is explicit), 3 long chapters, Golem POV). An exploration of Krueger and Golem's shared past in the KSK as Krueger was serving under a fake ID.

(Auf) Wiedersehen (rated E, one shot, Golem POV). Sequel to the fic above, with Golem and Krueger reuniting two years after the events that end Severance.

Krueger/Rodion

Private Hearing (rated E, one shot, Rodion POV). Krueger eats Rodion out behind Nikto's back. Everyone involved is happy with this.

Nikto/Rodion

Syzygy (rated T, one shot, Nikto POV). Rodion being in his place in Nikto's life after a nasty fight between Krueger and Nikto. Not that Nikto needs to be coddled, but Rodion's presence soothes him and he allows himself to accept the care and the wordless intimacy between them. Technically fits into K/N/R below but is mostly focused on N/R.

Nikto/Rodion/Krueger (knr for short)

Catalyze (rated T/M, one-shot, Nikto POV). In which Nikto decides smoking, half out of spite, half out of... some mysterious third thing you will discover.

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On my account are also 2 works for other fandoms :

a S.T.A.L.K.E.R. 2 one shot in which Skif and Richter finally act on their infatuation with each other with the help of alcohol (M rated)

this is something ive said a bunch of times but i rly do think they get along very well. EVEN nikto-minotaur which is strained bc there is a clash of personalities. I wont get into like introvert vs extrovert nikto bc nikto is a special case every interaction with him is like on a day by day basis affected by his mood and just how hes feeling about someone/social interaction in general that week. his competitive nature + his toxic masculinity which was made worse by his torture especially makes minotaur like a target for him a little bit (as ive said in this post). minotaur rly is like a mirror that can make nikto really uncomfortable. And nikto makes Minotaur uncomfortable (as said here) bc he really understands nikto is struggling and he sees it but its a lot to put on someone. + just the chaotic and unpredictable nature of it is lowkey scary to maxim. i think overall their relationship is strained, not close, but also not actively hostile. Minotaur strikes me as someone who is very compassionate and emotionally pretty competent (not perfect but better than nikto for sure) who does his best to stay out of niktos way. They could easily commiserate about suffering from alcoholism but it would be the most base level acknowledgement of them both facing similar issues with drinking to cope with sadness (i imagine that while minotaur never pries in nikto harming himself he would speak up about nikto drinking. He knows what a slippery slope relapse can be (pragmatic as well bc a pissed off drunk nikto would not be any fun.)).

Rodion would fucking love minotaur though.. Hes fun and hes got a LOT of stories hes got cute kids hes very openmindedd he really does NOT judge (is nikto jealous? yes) is bale jealous? Yknow it does sort of suck to see your twin be the blossoming flower everyone flocks to. And this would be something hes felt since they were young (shameless plug) buuuttt. Bale has a presence in spetsnaz hes got a story to him and people Do really like him. So as an adult bale is very confident in his job and who he is so while theres some underlying tension there, overall the jealousy is very minimal. Also. Obviously. Theyve had some drama.

Minotaur (obviously, as he feels responsible) Really took it hard that bale “died.” i always wonder how this occurred to him. Like if he feels guilty bc it was his idea to join the military, or if it was some miscommunication during the mission which got bale hurt, Or the most dramatic and rly my favorite option: that it was some friendly fire that got bale downed. And when did he leave? Was he told bale wasnt moving and had died and he ran? Did they have to leave bale and the strain of that made him run? He didnt know bale was alive for 10 years he hid from his family for 10 years. That is some extreme trauma to go through and then find out the thing you were beating yourself up over wasnt even true. And bale has spent the past 10 years regaining his ability to walk + existing outside of what gives him the most confidence. All with his brother missing ! im sure theres some mannerisms and thought processes that they didnt see in the other before that they see now. But theyre twins. Twins r weird and insanely close. Their relationship is maturing into a beautifuw brotherhood.

And speaking of brotherhood. bale and nikto have a lot of respect for each other: theyve both been thru periods of recovery for massive injuries, theyre very skilled, & neither one of them are big on talking. I feel like they probably had a very short adjustment period of working with each other bc they just sort of clicked. Bale is like not scared of nikto at all (BUT HE IS AWARE HE CAN BE A DANGER). he can read his warning signs, he doesn't get in his way arbitrarily, and they have rly similar senses of humor. I think it helps as well that nikto doesnt see him as a threat bc while i do figure bale is more of the leader of spets on paper in the field, hes not like diehard intense about it he listens to ideas hes flexible uhh and he trusts niktos judgement. Any of nikto’s Weird Shit is just Nikto’s shit and bale doesnt gaf and nikto likes that. I DO ALSO THINK.. Bale knows the most about nikto’s past like hes been told things by kamarov that are important to know. And nikto likes that he never holds any of that against him and doesnt try to spread it. Hes a very respectful man so nikto respects him.

And it is a bit of like.. Like nikto isnt going to respect minotaur bc even tho hes a very large, skilled, grown man hes also not like hypermacho which nikto would just see as weakness. Whereas bale is very much A Guy like hes just a dude. AND RODION.. Rodion is a babbyy bro thats a baby on the field.. None of them Are babying him (well. Minotaur might a little bit. Hes lowkey motherly imo) but they are all very aware hes like. New to this more serious side of combat. And hes the medic ! he has field medic training ! that shit is stressful ! but he handles it and hes very excited for everything and driven. they literally would all love rodion.. Truly the sunshine of the group. Him and minotaur would click like nikto and bale click. they would hype each other up soo much they would have so much fun. AND BALE ?? rodion would be so excited to be working with bale. When he meets bale and bale is genuinely a cool guy, Actually straight up a cool guy, he would become even more enamored with him. Star struck for a long time before they become real friends where rodion doesnt put him on a pedestal.

And of course……. Nikto to rodion.. Like minotaur, rodion would initially be scared of nikto. Rodion really isnt small hes like 5’10 decently muscled but nikto is like fucking huge.. And he just Looks mean and he Would look meanly at rodion at the start like rodion is hyper. He talks a lot. Their first meeting (esp w how he would instantly get along super well with minotaur) nikto just thinks of him as a smaller, younger minotaur he would not be interested. AND hes a baby nikto doesnt want to be a fucking babysitter.. But rodion is very smart and much more laid back than he lets on he can really calm himself down to match nikto’s level. Little bit of a social chameleon bc hes a very charming guy. Rodion like. He Likes to be Liked. Its important to him to be fun and likeable. So he will act accordingly around nikto he’ll quickly learn his body language and how to read his expressions. I think even if they didnt fuck rodion would earn nikto’s respect and he would stop being scared of him relatively quickly.

But yknow. I want them to fuck. So. Uh rodion changing his energy level to match nikto would sort of like signal to nikto that he can hit. Genuinely that’s the entire crux of what gets them started. Rodion is smaller than him, more submissive socially than him, cute, womanly (in the eyes of a misogynist); nikto wants to fuck him. Its like dudes who think cashiers are hitting on them bc they smiled at him. Hes LUCKY that he also happens to be rodions type. Rodion likes a challenge and nikto is a CHALLENGGEEE. Nikto is so resistant and rodion is so hardheaded its the perfect recipe for a tumultuous relationship which makes it so rewarding for rodion to rein it in.

U might think like. Well. he likes bale. Bale is normal. It would be easier to fuck and try to date bale and it would but again rodion likes a challenge. Bale is just like.. Too casual about it all. + the element of hero worship i think changes how rodion feels about it like he just expects a bit of fun out of bale a little extra to their friendship and thats exactly what he gets. And it Is a lot of fun bale’s a good fuck and so is rodion they have good times. It just doesnt have the same fun drama as nikto… But. it would also be easy for them to treat fucking rodion as a competition which i dont think rodion would like bc its a bit disrespectful to him as a person. Like hes not a prize. And he doesn’t think of them as the same. I need 2 explore this in a fic its why i want to write some bale/rodion/nikto.

And minotaur, in the middle of all of this, is just worried for rodion overall. I Do Think he would be surprised bale gets involved at all bc its a very rocky situation between nr and it seems like more drama than bale would enjoy. But it is a little bit of bale’s own sense of dominance peeking thru like he just cant help it its a dude thing an alpha dog thing.. That minotaur just doesnt get into bc he has confidence in himself. And its kind of scary to minotaur that rodion gets in the middle of it. Its kind of scary to him that if nikto has a meltdown of some sort rodion will probably be the closest to him physically and could easily take the brunt of an attack that he rly wouldnt be ready for. Nikto genuinely trying to hurt rodion would be really bad. Hes very brutal. And minotaur keeps that in mind. But yknow so does bale he likes to keep an eye on it. Might as well get his dick sucked too. Maybe bent over or bend rodion over at the same time.

being in a legitimate relationship with rodion is terrifying to nikto bc it not only makes Him feel trapped in something doomed he really does not want to make rodion struggle with anything this emotionally exhausting. he wouldnt like that rodion is like 20 years younger and trying to spend his life being nikto's caretaker (even tho rodion himself is 100% fine with this and would love it.) esp since he knows rodion would like a happy home life with a loving family (kids included bc hes normal) when nikto doesn't even want rodions mom to know theyre Close bc hes a 40+ year old mentally ill man. nikto is self fulfilling the prophecy of nr being a failed relationship bc of this but he legitimately cant help himself but think of himself as Bad For Rodion. and he wants to see him succeed..

u Could say rodions aspirations for life kill a successful relationship but legitimately he would do a lot to make it work with nikto. Anything for 1 whiff of nikto telling him he loves him.