#nigahiga

i never rly interacted with the stuff i watched i think bc i was afraid it'd get found and i'd get in trouble - but i really appreciate it

some of it was bad for me but this i rly don't think it was at all it's fun lighthearted creative content and i think that's what got me (and so many other people) into it

and i'm glad i'm able to show more support and appreciation for stuff that makes my days better now and that has in the past - still not how much i'd love to show but i take what i can get maybe one day i can get merch / go to events to support the creators / artists who make life a bit easier to get through (but thinking abt everything being older / ending by then makes me feel like i wish i could've just done that from the beginning)

in the recent years i used to rewatch the series they'd open po box stuff in (teehee time) and parkourse :) <3 (recommend if u want smth to just have on in the background / to take ur mind off stuff for a while)

i'm going to try to just relax and enjoy a bit more of the silence then i'll get back to sleeping

i did fall asleep easier after my shower so i really hope i can do something to make this a more frequent occurrence