nerd! reader x karasu tabito (yes this one might also be turned to a series bc I liked how it came out) 1k wc
"oh c'mon, just confess! what's the worst he could say?" a friend spoke as she leaned forward in her chair, just a breath away from stealing your first kiss. flinching, you stumbled back and crashed into a stack of chairs in the corner of the classroom as they all came crashing down. "hey! i plan to keep my feelings hidden, it's not worth the risk." you said, rubbing your head. your friend scoffed and rolled her eyes.
"yeah, but it's better to try than sit here and let your potential boyfriend pass you by!"
"key word: potential!" you chirped, face flustered as you quickly scrambled to stand up and fix the chairs that you knocked down. "plus, i don't even think he sees me as, like, girlfriend potential anyway..." you looked over to the girl you were currently conversing with, your response drawing a heavy sigh from her lips.
"doubting your worth, as always..." she rubbed her temple. "look, i owe you 50 bucks for that new textbook you needed money for or whatever if you're right and he rejects you. does that sound like a dealâ"
"deal!" you exclaimed immediately.
when the bell rang, you fixed your askew glasses and ushered yourself out of the classroom with your school bag dangling from one hand. honestly, you were scared about how this was about to play out.
catching a glimpse of your target, you hid behind a wall, peeking your head out from around the corner to watch his every move.
"maybe the 50 isn't worth it..." you softly whispered. "awh, who am i kidding!? i could win 50 and my dream boyfriend, for crying out loud!"
a few heads turned, and you couldn't help but sheepishly hide away from their curious gazes. when you took one step forward, your legs did a complete 180 and led you somewhere else.
"nevermind, it wouldn't be best if i acted on it right now! the best way would be to talk to him more... butâ oh, this is hard!"
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karasu sighed, his finger trailing a word ahead as he read the sentence to himself in the warm, cozy library just down the hall from your class. you pushed the doors open and were met with lifted heads before turning your attention to the staff.
"i'm here to return this book."
the librarian nodded and hummed, taking the hard-covered book out of your grasp.
"thank you for being a responsible child, but that's what i've always expected from a girl like yourself."
you softly chuckled at her words before bowing down slightly. "i thank you."
karasu's deep blue eyes followed your movement, analyzing, before going back to the book in front of him.
moments later, he felt a presence beside him. glancing to his right, you were just staring at him. he raised an eyebrow before turning his head toward you, and of course, you were still gawking at him like he was meat.
"what?" when he spoke, it was sharp and quick, striking you through the heart.
"uhm..."
"...hi... my name isâ"
"never asked." he retorted, turning his attention toward the material on the table instead.
he shut that down real quick, making your eyebrows furrow. "i know you didn't? i just thought that maybe i shouldâ"
he interrupted you.
"well, ya thought wrong."
the expression on your face gave away your discomfort and mild irritation toward his attitude, but he clearly didn't give a damn.
"wow, rude..."
"maybe yer jus' sensitive?"
"and maybe i am, then what?" you snapped back, a pout apparent on your lips.
"don't care." he scoffed as he gave you a side-long glance.
"now can ya leave me alone? 'm tryin' to do somethin' here." karasu said, about to go back to the book he was reading, only to see that it was gone. he looked at you, the book now in your hand. "'scuse me?"
"you're excused, including from reading this book."
karasu watched you as you got up, attempting to walk away with his book. his hand shot out to grab the back of your shirt and tug you back into the seat next to him, your shoulder bumping against his as he leaned in closer to yank his book from your grip.
"that wasn't cute," he spoke lowly, his breath brushing against your ear and sending a tingle down your spine.
heat bloomed in your cheeks, and your pulse hammered against your ribs. shoving you, you smoothly glided off the hard wooden chair and onto the rough carpet, blinking innocently in shock.
his blue eyes eased onto your figure, fingers brushing against the pages of the book as he spoke.
"black?"
"huh? wha?" you inquired, lashes brushing your flushed cheeks.
your head gradually followed his gaze, which was trained on what was peeking out from under your hiked-up skirt. yanking it down, heat rushed to your face as you yelped, "hey!"
it only made the side of his mouth twitch upward before easing into a smirk.
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"heyyyyy, sooo?" your friend jogged up to you and said, wrapping an arm around your slumped shoulders.
"humiliating. never again."
your friend looked lost before humming in acknowledgment.
"oh, neat. so you got rejected? by the way, i was just lying about meâ"
"no! i didn't get rejected! i didn't even confess to him yet!"
she held back a snort, hair blowing in the cold breeze as the leaves of the trees swayed in a careful rhythm. the afternoon sky faded into a gorgeous dusky pink while you guys approached the school's gates.
"hah, so why's he walking up to us right now?" both of you paused and quietly freaked out.
"he's walking to you!"
you shook your head at your friend's statement, hands weakly gripping the material of her shirt as you shook her.
"no, i'm going to say no even though that is the most logical answer right now!"
"yo," karasu said, one hand raised while the other stayed tucked in the pocket of his droopy pants.
"don't you think those pants are too saggy?" you couldn't help but comment, shrieking when his eyes landed on your much softer ones.
"are ya gonna nag me about it too?" head tilted, gaze pointed.
blood rushed to your cheeks once more with the prolonged eye contact. your friend bit her lip before clearing her throat and backing up.
"gee, look at thisâ i gotta go. i'll leave you two to be..."
"no, WE'RE both leaving!!" dragging her by the arm, you screamed those words out. he stared blankly at your departing back, his hand rising with agonizing slowness.
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Summary: Matt and Y/N were best friends until one argument turned them into enemies. Will they ever find a way back to each other?
Warnings: arguments, fighting, making out, lmk if you find anything else.
Words: 5.2k
The kindergarten days felt like a lifetime ago now. Back then, the four of you were inseparable. Matt, Nick, Chris, and you were a perfectly chaotic little crew, spending recess planning adventures and sticking together against anyone who dared mess with one of you. Matt had been your closest match back thenâquick-witted, stubborn, and full of ideas. You thought that bond would never break.
But high school changed everything.
It started small, with arguments over who got shotgun during group rides. Then came the endless bickering about group projects and plans. By sophomore year, the fights had escalated into something sharper, something mean.
âYou canât just do everything yourself,â Matt said one night, frustration thick in his voice.
âItâs not my fault you canât handle it!â you snapped back, shoving a notebook into your bag after another group study session gone wrong.
Nick, sprawled on the couch with a soda in hand, raised an eyebrow. âUh-oh. Here we go again.â
âYouâre such a control freak,â Matt muttered, crossing his arms.
âAnd youâre lazy,â you shot back without missing a beat.
Chris, ever the calm one, stepped in. âAlright, thatâs enough. Can we focus? This isnât helping anyone.â
But Matt wasnât done. âYou think youâre better than everyone else because you plan everything to death. Newsflash: itâs annoying.â
âAt least I donât sit around waiting for other people to pick up the slack!â
âGuys, please!â Chris sighed, rubbing his temples. âYouâre giving me a headache.â
Nick grinned, throwing a pillow at Matt. âYeah, cool it, bro. Youâre scaring Chris.â
By junior year, the tension had spread beyond school. Group hangouts became a minefield.
One night at the mall, Matt and you ended up in yet another screaming match over something stupid.
âAll Iâm saying is, we didnât need to spend an hour waiting for you to pick out a stupid hoodie,â Matt said, throwing up his hands as the group headed back to Nickâs car.
âIt wasnât just about the hoodie, Matt,â you snapped, glaring at him. âMaybe if you werenât so impatient, weâd actually enjoy going out as a group.â
âImpatient? Youâre the one who wasted everyoneâs time.â
Nick piped up from the backseat, turning to grin at Chris. âThink we should start selling tickets? This is better than reality TV.â
Chris shot Nick a look. âNot helping.â
âWhatever,â Matt muttered. âNext time, just leave me out of it.â
âGladly,â you said, slamming the car door behind you.
The ride home was silent, the air thick with unresolved anger.
Then there was the infamous beach trip during senior year. What shouldâve been a relaxing day turned into yet another battlefield.
âCan you at least try to help with the setup?â you asked, struggling to hammer an umbrella into the sand while Matt sat under the shade of a nearby tree, scrolling on his phone.
âIâm supervising,â he said with a smirk, not even glancing up.
âYouâre useless,â you muttered under your breath, loud enough for him to hear.
âExcuse me?â Matt stood up, his tone sharp.
âYou heard me.â
Nick and Chris exchanged a look, already bracing for the explosion.
âMaybe if you werenât so bossy, people would actually want to help you,â Matt shot back.
âMaybe if you werenât so lazy, people wouldnât have to pick up your slack,â you retorted, standing toe-to-toe with him now.
Nick broke the tension with an exaggerated sigh. âOkay, Mom and Dad, can we chill? Some of us are here to, like, enjoy the beach.â
Chris stepped between you two, his voice calm but firm. âSeriously, stop. This is getting old.â
You stormed off, muttering under your breath about how impossible Matt was. He didnât try to follow.
By the time you were 21, things were worse than ever. Group events had become rare, mostly because no one wanted to deal with the inevitable clash between you and Matt.
At one game night, the tension boiled over again.
âCan you not cheat for once in your life?â Matt snapped as you reached for a card in a particularly heated game of Uno.
âIâm not cheating, you idiot. Maybe if you paid attention, youâd actually win for once.â
Chris sighed from his spot beside you, his patience clearly wearing thin. âItâs a card game. Can we not turn this into World War 3?â
Matt ignored him, leaning forward with a scowl. âYou always do this. You canât handle losing, so you find some way to bend the rules.â
âOh, Iâm sorry, Mr. Perfect. I forgot youâre the expert on everything.â
Nick laughed, shaking his head. âMan, yâall really need couples therapy.â
âNick, shut up,â you and Matt said in unison, which only made him laugh harder.
Chris stood up, clearly done. âOkay, game nightâs over. You two can keep fighting, but Iâm not babysitting anymore.â
As Chris walked out of the room, Nick looked between you and Matt with a smirk. âSo, whoâs gonna admit theyâre in love first?â
You threw a pillow at him. âNick, I swearââ
Matt scoffed, crossing his arms. âAs if.â
âExactly,â you snapped, glaring at him. âYouâd be the last person Iâd everââ
âGood! Glad weâre on the same page,â Matt interrupted, his voice dripping with sarcasm.
Nick laughed again. âMan, you two are exhausting. But, like, in a fun way.â
Chris peeked back in from the hallway, his calm voice cutting through the chaos. âYouâre not fun. Youâre a headache. Both of you.â
As the tension settled for the night, you couldnât help but wonder how it had come to this. Somewhere along the way, the friendship you once had with Matt had turned into a battlefield, and neither of you seemed willing to wave the white flag.
It was a sweltering summer afternoon, the kind that made everyone irritable. Youâd come over to hang out with Chris and Nick, hoping to escape the heat and distract yourself from a long week. Matt, as usual, was there too.
From the moment you walked in, you could feel the tension. It was always there with Mattâhumming under the surface, waiting for one of you to ignite it.
âAlright, whoâs down for a Mario Kart tournament? Loser buys slushies,â Nick said, grabbing controllers from the cabinet.
Chris nodded. âIâm in. But Nick, youâre buying either way.
Nick grinned. âBold of you to assume.â
You grabbed a controller, feeling a flicker of competitiveness. âHope youâre ready to lose, Nick.â
Matt, leaning against the counter, crossed his arms. âYou should worry about yourself. Youâve never beaten me.â
You rolled your eyes. âThereâs a first time for everything.â
The game started off fineâuntil you accidentally bumped Mattâs character off the track.
âOh, come on!â Matt exclaimed, leaning forward. âYou did that on purpose.â
âItâs called strategy,â you shot back, grinning.
Mattâs scowl deepened as the race continued. When the final lap ended, your character crossed the finish line ahead of his. You threw your hands up triumphantly. âYes! Finally!â
Matt tossed his controller onto the couch, glaring at you. âYou only won because you cheated.â
You blinked, the excitement draining from your face. âHow did I cheat?â
âYou bumped me off the track,â Matt said, his tone accusatory.
âThatâs part of the game, Matt,â you said, trying to keep your voice steady.
âNo, itâs not,â he snapped. âYouâre always like thisâalways cutting corners to get ahead.â
âCutting corners?â you repeated, standing up. âItâs a stupid game. Maybe if you werenât such a sore loser, youâd actuallyhave fun.â
âOh, Iâm the sore loser?â Matt said, getting to his feet as well.
Nick, sensing the brewing storm, raised his hands. âAlright, time out. Itâs just Mario Kart, guys.â
Chris sighed, already rubbing his temples. âCan we not?â
But the two of you were locked in now.
âYou always do this,â Matt said, his voice rising. âYou act like youâre better than everyone else, but youâre just as petty as the rest of us.â
Your jaw dropped. âAre you kidding me? Youâre the one making a big deal out of this!â
âOh, because youâre so perfect, right?â Matt shot back, sarcasm dripping from his voice. âYou canât handle being called out, so you turn it around on me.â
âMaybe I wouldnât have to if you werenât so impossible to deal with!â
Chris stood up, his calm demeanor cracking slightly. âSeriously, enough. This isnât worth fighting over.â
âStay out of it, Chris,â Matt said, not taking his eyes off you.
Chris frowned but didnât argue.
âYou know what your problem is?â Matt continued, stepping closer. âYouâre so controlling. Everything has to be your way, and if itâs not, you freak out.â
âIâm not controlling,â you snapped. âIâm just tired of cleaning up after you all the time!â
Matt scoffed. âCleaning up after me? You donât even know what youâre talking about.â
Nick tried to step in again, his voice light but firm. âGuys, seriously, take a breath. Go outside or something.â
But it was too late. The fight was spiraling.
âDonât I?â you said, crossing your arms. âYouâre lazy, Matt. You never help with anything unless someone forces you to, and then you complain the whole time.â
âOh, Iâm lazy?â Matt shot back, his voice sharp. âAt least I donât bulldoze over everyone like you do. You think youâre so much better because you plan everything to death, but really, youâre just scared of messing up.â
Your chest tightened, his words cutting deeper than you expected. âWow. Thanks for the insight, Dr. Matt. Maybe if you spent less time tearing me down, youâd actually accomplish something for once.â
Mattâs face darkened. âTearing you down? Youâre the one whoâs always on my case. Every little thing I do, you have something to say about it.â
âBecause you make it so easy!â
âYou know what? Iâm done,â Matt said, throwing his hands up. âYouâre exhausting. No wonder people canât stand being around you.â
âExcuse me?â you said, your voice trembling with anger. âWhat the hell is that supposed to mean?â
Matt didnât back down. âIt means maybe your ex had a point.â
The room went silent.
Chris and Nick both froze, their eyes snapping to Matt in disbelief.
âWhat did you just say?â you asked, your voice low and unsteady.
Chris stepped forward, his voice firm. âMatt, donât.â
But Matt ignored him. âMaybe your ex wouldnât have cheated on you if you werenât so suffocating.â
Your stomach dropped. Tears pricked your eyes as his words sunk in. âYouâre unbelievable.â
Chris immediately stepped in, standing between you and Matt. âThatâs enough. Youâve crossed the line.â
Nickâs voice was louder now. âMatt, what the hell is wrong with you?â
But Matt wasnât done. âIâm just saying what everyone else is too scared to say.â
Your hands shook as you struggled to hold back tears. âYouâre such a coward,â you said, your voice breaking. âYou canât handle your own issues, so you take them out on me. Well, congrats, Matt. You finally broke me. Are you happy now?â
Tears streamed down your face as you turned away, unable to look at him anymore.
Chris stepped forward, his calm voice laced with anger. âGo to your room. Now.â
Matt hesitated, glaring at you one last time before storming off, slamming his door behind him.
As soon as he was gone, Chris turned to you, his expression softening. âHey, come here.â
You let out a shaky breath as he pulled you into a hug.
âWhy does he hate me so much?â you whispered, your voice cracking. âWhat did I do to make him like this?â
âHe doesnât hate you,â Chris said softly, rubbing your back. âHeâs just⊠an idiot.â
Nick grabbed a glass of water and handed it to you. âYeah, a massive idiot. Like, the biggest idiot Iâve ever met.â
You tried to laugh, but it came out as a sob. âI canât keep doing this, Chris. Every time I come here, itâs like heâs waiting to tear me apart.â
Chris pulled back, cupping your face gently so youâd meet his eyes. âListen to me. You didnât do anything wrong. Heâs just angryâat himself, at whateverâbut itâs not about you.â
âThen why does it feel like it is?â you whispered, tears still streaming down your face.
Chris sighed, pulling you back into a hug. âI donât know. But Iâm going to fix it, okay? I promise.â
Nick sat beside you, patting your shoulder. âYeah, and if he doesnât apologize, Iâll pants him in public.â
You let out a weak laugh, wiping your eyes. âThanks, Nick. Thatâs⊠oddly comforting.â
Chris stayed by your side, his calm presence steadying you as you tried to piece yourself back together. But no matter how much he reassured you, Mattâs words lingered, cutting deeper than you wanted to admit.
About an hour had passed since the fight, and the tension in the house still hung heavy in the air. You were curled up on the couch with Chris, his arm draped protectively over your shoulder. Nick sat on the floor in front of you, scrolling through his phone and cracking occasional jokes to try and lighten the mood.
Youâd stopped crying, but your chest still felt tight, your breathing shallow. Every time you thought about what Matt had said, it was like the wound reopened.
Chrisâs hand absentmindedly rubbed your arm. âYou good?â he asked quietly.
You nodded, though you didnât feel entirely okay. âBetter. Thanks for⊠you know, being here.â
âAlways,â he said softly.
Nick glanced over his shoulder with a faint grin. âIf you need me to distract you, I can pull up Mattâs senior photo. That thingâs a crime against humanity.â
You let out a weak laugh. âThanks, Nick. I think Iâll pass.â
Just then, footsteps sounded from the stairs. Matt was coming down, his movements hesitant but deliberate.
Your stomach immediately twisted into knots, and you stiffened against Chris.
He noticed immediately. âRelax,â Chris whispered. âYouâre safe.â
Nick, sensing the shift, turned to Matt with a warning look. âIf youâre coming down to start something again, you can turn right back around and go upstairs.â
Matt shook his head, shoving his hands into his pockets. âIâm not here to fight.â
You looked at him warily, unsure of what to expect.
âActually,â Matt continued, his voice quieter than usual, âI wanted to talk to Y/N. Alone.â
You stiffened even more, your breath catching in your throat. âWhat for? So you can tear me apart again? Bring up my past and rub salt in the wound?â Your voice cracked, still raw from earlier.
Matt winced, his jaw tightening. âNo. Iâm not here to do that. I⊠I want to apologize. But Iâd rather do it one-on-one.â
Chrisâs grip on your shoulder tightened protectively. âI donât think thatâs a good idea right now,â he said, his calm tone carrying a slight edge.
âYeah,â Nick chimed in, crossing his arms. âSheâs been through enough today. Whatever you need to say, you can say it in front of us.â
Matt shook his head. âLook, I get it. Iâve been a total dick, okay? But I need to fix this, and I canât do that with you two hovering.â He turned to you, his gaze earnest. âPlease, Y/N. Just give me five minutes. I promise, no fighting. No bringing up the past.â
You stared at him, your heart pounding. You didnât trust himânot after everythingâbut there was something different in his tone. He didnât sound like the sharp, defensive Matt youâd been clashing with for years. He sounded⊠vulnerable.
Chrisâs voice broke through your thoughts. âYou donât have to do this if youâre not ready.â
Nick nodded. âSeriously. Youâve got nothing to prove to him.â
You hesitated, your gaze flicking between Matt and his brothers. Part of you wanted to shut him down, to tell him to leave you alone. But another partâthe part that was tired of the constant fightingâwanted to hear him out.
You let out a shaky breath. âWhat do you want to talk about?â
Matt glanced at the door, then back at you. âWe still need to grab those slushies. We can talk on the way there. Neutral ground.â
Chris frowned. âI donât think thatâs a good idea.â
âIâm not going to do anything,â Matt said, his voice firm but not aggressive. âI just⊠need to talk. Please.â
You looked at Chris and Nick, then back at Matt. Against your better judgment, you slowly nodded. âFine. But if you say anythingâanythingâlike what you said earlier, Iâm leaving. Got it?â
Matt nodded immediately. âGot it. No low blows. I swear.â
Chris sighed, his hand lingering on your shoulder as you stood up. âYou sure about this?â
âNo,â you admitted, your voice still shaky. âBut Iâll be fine.â
Nick raised an eyebrow. âText me if you need a rescue mission.â
You gave him a faint smile. âI will.â
Matt grabbed his keys and held the door open for you, waiting as you slipped on your shoes. Your anxiety bubbled in your chest as you stepped outside, the warm summer air doing little to ease the tension in your body.
You glanced back at Chris and Nick, who were watching you like hawks from the couch. Chris gave you a small nod, his silent way of telling you that he had your back no matter what.
âLetâs go,â Matt said quietly, leading the way to his car.
As you got in, you couldnât help but wonder what he was going to sayâand if youâd regret giving him the chance.
You slid into the passenger seat, the carâs interior thick with unspoken tension. Matt climbed into the driverâs seat, closing the door with a quiet click. He rested his hands on the steering wheel but didnât start the engine. Instead, he leaned back, staring straight ahead, his jaw tightening and loosening as if trying to find the right words.
Finally, he broke the silence.
âI am so fucking sorry, Y/N,â Matt said, his voice low but steady. âI donât even know where to start. IâI donât know what got into me earlier, but I regret it. Deeply. More than I can even put into words.â
You turned to look at him, studying his face. There was no trace of his usual anger or smugness. He looked⊠tired. Defeated.
He let out a long breath, running a hand through his hair. âI was out of line. Way out of line. What I said about your past, about your exâit was cruel, and it wasnât fair. You didnât deserve that. Not then, not ever.â
You stayed quiet, unsure of what to say, but he continued.
âThe truth is⊠Iâve been carrying around all this anger for so long. At first, I thought it was because you were always pushing my buttons or calling me out. But the more I think about it, the more I realize that itâs not about you at all. Itâs about me. Iâve been projecting my own shit onto you, and thatâs not okay.â
His hands tightened on the wheel as he glanced at you briefly, guilt etched into every line of his face. âYouâve been nothing but honest with me, and Iâve thrown that back in your face every chance I got. I donât even know why. Maybe because it was easier to lash out at you than to deal with my own crap. But thatâs not an excuse. Iâve hurt you, over and over again, and I hate myself for it.â
Your chest tightened at his words, the sincerity in his voice catching you off guard.
âI guess⊠Iâve been jealous of you,â Matt admitted, his voice quieter now. âYouâve always had this way of handling thingsâlike, youâre so driven, so put-together. Even when things fall apart, you donât let it stop you. And I hated that because it made me feel like a mess in comparison. Like I couldnât measure up.â
âMattâŠâ you started, but he held up a hand.
âPlease, let me finish,â he said, his voice almost pleading. âI know that doesnât justify anything. Iâve been a shitty friend. Hell, I havenât even treated you like a friend. Iâve treated you like someone I could take my frustrations out on, and Iâm so, so sorry for that. Iâm sorry for all the fights, all the insults, all the times I made you feel like you werenât enough. Because you are enough, Y/N. More than enough.â
Tears welled up in your eyes, but you blinked them away, unsure if you were ready to forgive him yet.
Matt turned to face you fully now, his eyes earnest and a little glassy. âI donât want to fight anymore. Iâm tired of it. I donât want you to feel like you canât be around me, like you have to walk on eggshells every time weâre in the same room. Youâve always been there for my brothers, for all of us, and Iâve done nothing but push you away. I donât want to do that anymore.â
He hesitated, swallowing hard before continuing. âI know Iâve got a long way to go to make things right. And I donât expect you to forgive me right away. But Iâm asking for a chanceâa chance to show you that I can be better, that I want to be better. Not just for you, but for myself too.â
You felt your lip tremble as you tried to process everything heâd just said. The rawness of his apology, the vulnerability in his voiceâit was so unlike the Matt youâd been clashing with for years.
Matt reached over hesitantly, his hand hovering near yours on the center console. âI mean it, Y/N. Every word. Iâm sorry. And if thereâs anything I can do to prove it to you, just tell me. Iâll do it.â
For a moment, you sat there in silence, his words hanging heavy in the air. Then, finally, you spoke, your voice soft but steady. âWhy didnât you just tell me all of this before? Instead of⊠everything else?â
He let out a bitter laugh, shaking his head. âBecause Iâm an idiot. And because it was easier to pretend it was your fault than to admit I was the one with the problem.â
You looked down at his hand, still hovering near yours, and after a moment of hesitation, you placed yours over it. His fingers curled around yours gently, as if he were afraid to scare you off.
âMattâŠâ you began, your voice trembling slightly. âIâm not saying everythingâs magically okay now. But⊠I appreciate you saying all of this. I really do.â
A faint smile tugged at the corner of his lips. âThatâs all I can ask for.â
You looked down, your thumb brushing over the back of his hand. There was something vulnerable in the air between you two, a tension that was unfamiliar and heavy but not unwelcome. For once, Matt didnât feel like your enemy. He felt like someone who was finally trying to understand you.
âCan IâŠâ Matt hesitated, his voice unusually soft. âCan I hug you?â
You blinked at him, taken aback by the sudden question. But the sincerity in his eyes made you nod without thinking.
âYeah,â you murmured.
He exhaled in relief and leaned over, wrapping his arms around you carefully, almost as if he were afraid you might pull away. His embrace was warm, solid, and it took you a moment to relax into it. But when you did, you felt a strange sense of comfort, the kind you hadnât felt around him in years.
You rested your head against his chest, and his hand came up to gently cradle the back of your head. âIâm so sorry,â he whispered again, his voice muffled but still so close to your ear.
âI know,â you replied softly.
You werenât sure how long you stayed like that, wrapped in the quiet, tentative warmth of his arms. It felt like the weight of all those years of tension was melting away, even if only for a moment.
Eventually, you shifted slightly to look up at him, and Matt looked down at you. His expression was open, more vulnerable than youâd ever seen him before. For a brief second, neither of you moved, and the world outside the car seemed to fade away.
You hadnât realized how close you were until your eyes dropped to his lips. They parted slightly, and his breath hitched. His gaze flicked to your mouth, and suddenly, it felt like the air in the car had grown impossibly heavy.
âY/NâŠâ he whispered, his voice low and unsure, as if testing the waters.
You didnât respondânot with words, at least. Your breath caught in your throat, your heart hammering as you both leaned in, hesitantly at first. There was a momentâs pause, so brief it was almost imperceptible, and then your lips met.
The kiss was soft, tender, and filled with a quiet kind of desperation. It wasnât rushed or messy; it was careful, like neither of you wanted to break whatever fragile thing had just been built between you.
Mattâs hand slipped from your back to your waist, pulling you just a little closer as his lips moved against yours. The warmth of his touch sent a shiver down your spine, and you found yourself responding instinctively, your fingers curling into the fabric of his shirt.
The kiss deepened slightly, and Matt tilted his head to the side, his nose brushing against yours. It was intimate in a way that left your heart pounding, your mind spinning.
Without breaking the kiss, Matt reached down and adjusted the seat lever, pulling it back to give you more room. His hands settled on your waist, gently guiding you over the center console and into his lap.
You let out a soft gasp against his lips as you straddled him, your knees pressing into the seat on either side of him. His hands stayed firm on your hips, grounding you as his lips continued to move against yours, slow but deliberate.
It was new, unfamiliar, and completely overwhelmingâbut it didnât feel wrong. For once, it felt like the two of you werenât at war. You werenât fighting or tearing each other down. You were just⊠there, together, in a moment that felt like it belonged to no one else but you.
You werenât sure how long youâd been kissing Matt, but it felt like time had stopped. The warmth of his hands on your waist anchored you, and the way his lips moved against yours felt so natural, so unlike anything youâd ever expected from him.
Between kisses, Matt pulled back just slightly, his forehead resting against yours. âY/NâŠâ he murmured, his voice a little breathless. âI donât think Iâve everâŠâ He trailed off, a rare flush creeping up his neck.
You blinked at him, your chest heaving as you tried to catch your breath. âYouâve never what?â
He let out a quiet laugh, his hand brushing a strand of hair from your face. âIâve never thought this would happen. Us. Like this. AndâŠÂ I kind of hate myself for waiting so long.â
His honesty left you momentarily stunned. This was Mattâyour rival, the person who could always get under your skin. And yet, sitting here, holding you like you were the most fragile thing in the world, he wasnât that Matt at all.
âWell, itâs happening now,â you said softly, a small smile playing on your lips. âAnd I donât know if Iâm ready to forgive you completely, but⊠this feels different. You feel different.â
âI am,â he promised, his thumb grazing your cheek. âI swear, I am.â
You leaned back into the kiss, this time with less hesitation and more certainty. His hands tightened on your hips, pulling you closer as the tension melted into something softer, more electric.
âY/N,â he whispered against your lips between kisses. âI donât want this to stop. But⊠if you want me to slow down, justsay the word.â
You shook your head slightly, brushing your nose against his. âI donât want you to stop.â
His lips curved into a faint smile before they captured yours again. It wasnât rushed or chaotic; it was patient, deliberate like he wanted to savor every second.
But just as you started to lose yourself in the moment, there was a sharp knock on the passenger-side window.
You froze, your eyes widening in panic as you turned to see Nick and Chris standing outside the car, smirking like theyâd just won the lottery.
Matt groaned, letting his head fall back against the headrest. âYouâve got to be kidding me,â he muttered, his hands reluctantly dropping from your waist.
âGuess weâre busted,â you whispered, unable to stop the embarrassed smile that tugged at your lips.
Sliding off Mattâs lap, you scrambled back into the passenger seat, smoothing out your shirt and running a hand through your hair. Matt rubbed the back of his neck, looking equally flustered but unable to hide the amused smirk tugging at his lips.
Rolling down the window, you were met with Nick and Chrisâs grinning faces.
âWe just wanted to make sure you didnât kill each other,â Chris said, barely holding back laughter. âWe didnât see the car drive away, so, you know, better safe than sorry.â
Nick leaned down, his grin absolutely wicked. âBut clearly, you two found a different way to sort things out.â
âReal mature, Nick,â you shot back, though your cheeks were burning.
Matt leaned over the console, his arm casually draped across the back of your seat as he looked at his brothers. âDo you guys not have better things to do than stalk me?â
âStalk you?â Nick gasped in mock offense. âWe were concerned. Imagine our relief when we came out here and saw you werenât choking each otherâthough, to be fair, this is definitely the opposite of what we expected.â
Chris snickered. âHonestly, Iâm just shocked Y/N didnât punch you in the face. Progress, I guess.â
You glanced at Matt, and to your surprise, he was smilingânot the smug, teasing smile you were used to, but a genuine one that softened his whole face.
âYou know,â Matt said, his voice calm, âfor once, Iâm kind of glad you two interrupted. Otherwise, we mightâve stayed in here all night.â
Your jaw dropped slightly, and you smacked his arm playfully. âMatt!â
âWhat?â he said, feigning innocence as he held up his hands. âJust being honest.â
Chris raised an eyebrow. âWell, as much as I hate to break up this little love fest, are you guys still getting the slushies? Or were you planning to sit here making out until the sun comes up?â
You groaned, covering your face with your hands. âI canât deal with you two.â
âHey, you chose this life,â Nick quipped, winking.
Matt laughed, and to your surprise, the sound was lighthearted, even happy. He reached for the keys and started the car, shooting a glance at his brothers. âDonât wait up.â
âOh, weâre definitely waiting up,â Chris said with a grin. âThis is going straight into the group chat.â
âNick,â you groaned, giving him a pointed look, âif you just type one wordââ
âI make no promises,â Nick interrupted, stepping back from the car as Matt began reversing out of the garage.
As you drove away, you couldnât help but glance at Matt, your chest still fluttering from everything that had just happened. He caught your gaze and smiled, his hand resting on the console between you.
âStill okay?â he asked softly, his voice low enough that only you could hear.
You nodded, a small smile tugging at your lips. âYeah. Iâm okay.â
And for the first time in years, you actually meant it.
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