#neverhadachildhood

I’m so sick and tired of being sick and tired. I have literally no family.... nobody knows how much I’ve been abused pretty much all my life. I lost the only person I was close with in my family to suicide years ago and it still hurts and impacts me everyday of my life. You think my family would change and be nicer to each other to keep us all alive but nope. They only view each other as ways to boost themselves or gain sympathy. It’s disgusting. I’ve already had depressive and suicidal thoughts for years and when I showed signs of needed help no one cared. If anything my trauma and abuse got worse.... they made my situation my emotions all about them, and blamed me for having feelings and emotions.