#nel rambles

Then pictures stopped sending.

Then messages.

Why would you take away my distraction chat at 4PM on a Friday??

some general charlie walker hcs so that my characterization of him is a bit more solid:

i agree with the general consensus of what people seem to think of him as on this website. he’s a whiny loser virgin nerd but there’s a certain self assuredness…. maybe self assured isn’t the right word… he like Knows that about himself and has just accepted it and even kind of owns it? (the scene with the movie club when he says they are below the glee club like yes king) still shy and loserish ofc. he won’t make the first move. he’s a little obvious when he has a crush and gets flustered very easy. he’s kind of strange and off putting to be honest. but there’s some charm to him and it makes you look past the strangeness about him. he’s not very used to female attention so if you make some moves he would just kind of be dumbfounded and confused. he’s kind of an ass and can be condescending. but it’s okay king <3 he’s so fun to tease cus he’s so squirmy and flustered. (kirby is so real)

@heckofabecca: can this count as the 5 things I like about myself? :D

This isn’t about making anyone feel they’re not doing enough with their life-trust me, I live on that hill. This is about reminding myself that every moment in life counts, and all the victories matter. To remind my anxiety that, in spite all of its best efforts, in spite of every crappy thing out there, it was a good year. I’m 24, and I got myself further along than where I was a year ago. I didn’t change the world, but I kept moving. I did the things. They matter. And it can go suck it.

So, life goals achieved :D

Ran a 5k in the Athens Authentic Marathon (just the one, but it counts, right?)

Submitted PhD applications to universities I’ve been daydreaming about since I was 10 (probably won’t get in, but I did my part. I got this far.)

Visited Tuscany, and it was beautiful. And hot. Seriously, I’m Greek, I know hot, and that was HOT. Spring, next-time :D

Got paid for my writing! (about science, no less. I’m quite proud of this being the first money I’ve earned, tbh :D)

Hosted my first dinner with friends! My specialty, colourful thai chicken with bell peppers with a rice-curry side dish (courtesy of a friend) and brandy and cinnamon soaked oranges for desert :D

This isn’t mine, but I’ve waited for a long time, so it goes on here: Philip Pullman finally released the first volume of the Book of Dust and it was great read.

Maybe, just maybe, managed to finally, really, actually realise that I need to be kinder to myself. It’s a work in progress.

Soundtrack: 

She used to be mine, Sara Bareilles

Both in a comedic sense and not.

From childhood and war it had always just been them against the world- Hashirama doing everything he could to make sure Tobirama stayed alive and well no matter the cost.

Now that they are in times of peace in the newly built village Hashirama is not exactly thrilled when Tobirama and Madara begin to not only tolerate each other but Gods forbid they start becoming something resembling friends.

His first heartbreak is when Tobirama gets genuine affections for Madara and Hashirama spends a night wailing and sobbing into Mito’s lap and then being vindictive towards Madara from that moment on.

He spends every waking moment with his ears trained to the hushed whispers or the subtle shift in body language of those around him until he pieces the story together.

He regularly meets up with Mito and Touka for even more gossip and tea and its the highlight of his week.

He picked this up from Hashirama, who is just as bad when it comes to gossip but is also quick to forget but ooh boy not Tobirama.

Tobirama never forgets.

You think no one remembers your embarrassing break up five summers ago where you were left with a missing sock and a broken heart?

Think again.

Tobirama remembers- he remembers with vivid clarity and recalls such a moment each time he sees you.

Which is also why he shapes mission teams the way he does.

"Aki woukd make a great team leader for this mission!" Madara barks. "Why did you make him second in command?"

Tobirama throws Madara a disgusted look and doesnt mention that he knows all about Aki's decision making skills that landed him face down naked in a ditch in rice country after his messy divorce. He also doesnt mention how Aki's wife wiped all of his accounts clean as soon as she discovered his many affairs and led him to believe she knew nothing for months before taking everything while he was on a mission, leaving behind divorce papers which then led him to hastily submit an emergency 2 week vacation request before taking off after her.

He followed her trail all the way to rice country and sobbed and begged her forgiveness and to return with him so they can be a happy family again until she revealed that she had just married his obviously hotter and much more mature uncle which led to more bad decisions where in Aki ended up in the aforementioned ditch. How he lost all his clothes is another story that Tobirama is drooling to tell mito and Touka about because he heard from Mirin's aunts cousin's sister's boyfriend that-

"I know more than you." Tobirama sniffs and then stamps the mission report, refusing to budge.

They argue about it even as they get ready for bed before Tobirama rolls Madara on top of him and shuts him up the best way he knows how.